1-5-13 first post of the year

ok so this is the first post that I have done this year ... in about a month :/ but here I am now.
The past month has been a real challenge for me.  As I had stated in the last post that I had been dealing with some depression and it was kicking me down.  I wish I could say I am "healed" from it but there is no real "cure all" for it just gotta learn how to deal with it.  
I wish I could say that even though I had this "set back" that I  had still done well with my journey, but I haven't.  I have had ups and down on the scale as well as with my moods.

Just before Christmas I did the 3 day military diet.  I did good with it, I lost 14 lbs.  I know you're thinking that is GREAT!!   Hold on before you throw me a party.  As I have said many times the fad diets last about as long as it took to get the results, this time was no different.  I know it's partly due to the holidays but I also know that's an excuse.  I could have controlled myself a bit better.   I just didn't do well at all this month.  Am I going to sit around an let it get to me, beat myself up?  naaa I am getting past that.  I  just have to pull myself up again and keep going.

Today gave me news that I didn't like.  I had to face the fact that they crazy three diet did pretty much nothing for me (unless you look at it as if I hadn't I would be 30lbs more right now, yeah I like that one <3 ).   I know what I have to do and I NEED to get it done.  Who's with me?

Today I did pretty good, so far.  I was up by 6 and really wanted to go back to sleep but by the time I felt this I had already been up for an hour and really trying to get out of that habit (that got out of control with the depression) and stay up all day.  By 9:00 I had done a lil cleaning around the house and found my way to the pool.  I got in a good hour swim and it felt pretty good.  I had not gotten to swim in months now, plenty of cardio but no swimming.

Since the past month I have been on medical leave for all this junk I have not been getting to the gym like I wish I could.  This week it WILL change.  I go back to work in the next week and I need to get myself going.  I will be at the gym at 7am, same as if I was at work, and get a good workout in.  Even after I go back to work I will make myself get to the gym no less than three days a week.  So again who's with me?  Who's gonna keep me on track?
Let's do this guys.  Stand back, say a prayer and cheer me on.