Today may be short and sweet. I am just trying desperately to get my rhythm back. I had managed to get back on track in January when I started the weight loss contest. I was being held accountable in ways that I needed something extra like this to keep my thoughts straight. Then again this, when I can make myself, helps me get my thoughts out. Some days I keep thinking I've had a rough day or that I made a lot of wrong choices and I start to write about it and I sometimes find it wasn't as bad as I thought. I need that day.
These days I know I have plenty going on that are good but I seem to keep focusing on the things that are bothering me. Here lately I seem to cry a lot, sometimes I really not sure why. I have to stop and get my thoughts together, refocus them.
Last week I made the decision to delete my Facebook. I realized some of the things that were bringing me down was because of the drama that I was seeing on there. I was spending time on there that I could be doing something more productive. In some ways it's weird to watch everyone around me reading FB and updating status and I start to pick up my phone ... oh wait I don't have it. Thing is a week later now and I don't miss it. I have to laugh when someone asks "did you see that post that ... " ah no!!
So the past few Saturdays, after reading Pinterest, I decided I would finally work on changing a few things in my bathroom that I had been wanting to do. It's not anything fancy but it a few changes I wanted to spruce it up. It's put a new life and made me feel good about getting something done. It's only the start of many changes I want to get done.
With both kids gone or almost gone from living here I have plans to change the whole house before I am done. Instead of walking through the house and seeing where they use to do something or walk past the empty room, I am focusing on what I want to make the rooms. At some point I will have a workout room and a studio for my graphics and photo work. And yes at some point my room.
The past few days I have not really done a workout as some would put it, but I did house work and I did get a good sweat going today lol. Who said you need a gym to get a workout in. It keeps my mind off what I don't have and gets me moving and look ahead. After all isn't that where I am going?
So anyone out there battling depression do what ever you can to shake it off. Find a project of any kind to keep you mind off what is getting you down. We ALL have something, that if we focus on it, can kick you in the butt. I know it's not always easy but find that drive and try to keep going.
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Friday, May 9, 2014
5-9-14 Not going to stay away
So my last post I kinda mentioned that I was getting hit with my depression. Ok a lil more than kinda. It's been hard. I have so much going on that sometimes it just overwhelms me. I am not going down without a fight, I just needed to find that fight again.
After the contest was over I had decided that I would take off a week. This has been a pretty long week ... it's actually been a month. I have not been just going completely crazy the whole time. I just have not been dedicating myself to my goal like I want to, need to.
The week after the contest was my son's wedding and I had decided that since I was "good" through all the showers and stuff that I could have pigged out I was going to do what I wanted now. I didn't just pig out for all that time but when it came to the cake I did make a pig of myself. I had a super big piece with A LOT of icing. I loved every bite of it. They cooked out after and yes I had hot dog, smoked sausage and hamburger. While eating it I laughed and say it was my one day to be a total pig about it and on Monday I'd get strict again.
On the way home I was miserable. I had not ate sugar like that in forever. I love a good cake with some butter cream icing but had opted not to have it at the showers we had for the kids. But this was a sugar overload like my body had not had in a really long time. Regrets? No I don't. I have not pigged out like that since but I did not get strict like I wanted to.
So as I mentioned my plan after the contest was to take it easy for a week and kick it back up. I wanted to lose another 25-30 lbs by the time my daughter gets married. Here I am a month later and still have not gotten strict like I wanted to. The wedding is only 7 weeks from today and I have only stepped on the scale once since the contest. When I did step on the scale I was up 8 lbs. I was ok with that since my muscle weight was up too. That was a good thing.
This week got my motivation going again. At work I had volunteered for a special project. Can anyone guess what that is? Better health. I had put my name in for it before the contest and forgot about it till I got the email telling me I had been chosen for the committee.
The health issues are not just limited to weight but it seemed that is where everyone kept going. It seemed that was the one area that they could come up with things that would good to motivate. One of the ideas is to do a biggest loser contest. So here I am talking about all the things that I know work and one of the other ladies said "I'm getting motivated just thinking about it." I sat there thinking I need to get back on this thing and do better.
That day had been really stressful and I just really was low on motivation so not much came of it. On lunch I had things I needed to do and it took up enough of my lunch hour that I didn't do anything else. Wednesday and Thursday was different. It was almost like the day I started this three years ago. I went downstairs to the lobby not really planning on walking but ended up going out side and making two laps around the site, that is a mile. I was pretty happy with myself.
I can't say that I ate "the right foods" but I did great on proportion sizes of what I did eat that day. Not trying to make excuses but it's a start. I am making myself aware of what I am doing. For the last 4 weeks I have not really done this.
Yesterday I went outside with the intention of walking and I did. My lunch I made two laps before I got to hot. It was my goal so I was ok with it. On my late break I did half a lap around the front part of the building. I could say I stopped because it was hot but my feet hurt. That had been the excuse I had used for the past few weeks. The did hurt but I found the determination to at least try. Once I got started I kept pushing myself to keep going.
I have not gotten back in the gym yet but at the same time when I first started I wasn't going to the gym then either. I am back to doing something daily and that has been my goal. I don't know if the scale will show what I want it to, but right now I am feeling better and that is good enough for me. Oh did I mention? My clothes have started growing again lol
Sunday, April 27, 2014
4-27-14
Depression sucks. It sucks the life out of you. It kills you umph to keep going when you know you have things to do.
I know that this was going to be an every day thing this year. It was my goal. I did well for a while, then again I do pretty well starting out anything I do. The past month I lost my desire to do this. No not my desire I still want to keep going I just don't seem to be able to make myself. I want to keep doing this all on a steady basis but I keep falling down. I don't plan on giving up I am just having a hard to staying really really dedicated to it.
I haven't written much because I just don't know what to say. Some days I do ok with nutrition but most day I totally miss it on exercise. Exercise just doesn't seem to be there. This makes me want to cry. I don't want to go back where I was 5 months ago. I have back down 40 lbs now and I just don't want to have that extra weight with me. I was miserable in more ways than I am now. My clothes are starting to fit better again and I feel better than I did back then.
Two weeks ago my son got married. I am super happy about it for him. He married a beautiful young lady that makes him smile and makes him happy. I love to see my kids happy, it makes my heart smile. On the other side, the selfish side I want that too. I don't want to be alone.
I am happy, or happier than I use to be, about the way I am feeling and looking. I did photos for my son's wedding and for once I am not totally disgusted with how I look in them. My daughters wedding is just two months from today and I really really want to be down at least 25-30 but I know I need to find some way to kick my butt in gear and get busy. I don't know how or what I am going to do but I am praying that I can do that. So pray with me so that, not just for looking and feeling good, I can get this back on track for my health.
I know that this was going to be an every day thing this year. It was my goal. I did well for a while, then again I do pretty well starting out anything I do. The past month I lost my desire to do this. No not my desire I still want to keep going I just don't seem to be able to make myself. I want to keep doing this all on a steady basis but I keep falling down. I don't plan on giving up I am just having a hard to staying really really dedicated to it.
I haven't written much because I just don't know what to say. Some days I do ok with nutrition but most day I totally miss it on exercise. Exercise just doesn't seem to be there. This makes me want to cry. I don't want to go back where I was 5 months ago. I have back down 40 lbs now and I just don't want to have that extra weight with me. I was miserable in more ways than I am now. My clothes are starting to fit better again and I feel better than I did back then.
Two weeks ago my son got married. I am super happy about it for him. He married a beautiful young lady that makes him smile and makes him happy. I love to see my kids happy, it makes my heart smile. On the other side, the selfish side I want that too. I don't want to be alone.
I am happy, or happier than I use to be, about the way I am feeling and looking. I did photos for my son's wedding and for once I am not totally disgusted with how I look in them. My daughters wedding is just two months from today and I really really want to be down at least 25-30 but I know I need to find some way to kick my butt in gear and get busy. I don't know how or what I am going to do but I am praying that I can do that. So pray with me so that, not just for looking and feeling good, I can get this back on track for my health.
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
4-9-14
Ok I AM going to get back on track. The contest is over. The first wedding is this weekend. And hopefully this stomach virus is gone it's way.
I am really thankful for all those that supported me during the contest. Even though people didn't really tell me I know there were some praying for me. I met some really super people who, instead of being the competition, I became my friends. Even more so they became my best support.
I did not win, I knew about mid way through that I was not going to be in the running for that. I was, and am, ok with that. I did not finish in the top five like I had wanted at one point. I have no one to blame for that other than myself. I got lazy the last few weeks and just couldn't kick myself in gear. The best thing about this, after getting new friends, is that I am getting back on track and feeling good again. And that is a winning place for me.
For anyone that has not seen the results here is how I did.
My total loss for the contest stats :
Starting weight: 351.6; Current weight: 325.4
-26.2 lbs; Percentage of weight lost: 7.45%
My total loss since Dec 30, the horrible day at the Dr office, is now at 40 lbs. Even bigger number since I started this journey three years ago I am now back down 79 lbs. I think about how close I was last time to hitting the 100 lb mark and I want to kick myself. I am kicking myself. But I am feeling so much better again, this time I WILL make it ... and more.
I have a new buddy, I guess you could say, going with me to the gym. Andrew, my future son in law, asked if I wanted to go in the mornings before work. He feels better when he does the workout in the morning and for that matter so do I. I actually miss my morning workouts. I miss the 5:30 swims that got me going. So when he asked I was more than ready to take him up on that offer. The kicker is that to get in a decent workout, and make it worth getting up early for, I have to be there at 4:30.
Ok I know you are now thinking that's to early. I guess for some it is, but it's only an hour earlier than I use to get up to be at the pool. I get my stuff ready the night before so I don't have much to do when I wake up. I make my protein shake, get dressed and I'm out the door. I can usually get that done in thirty minutes or less.
Afton, my daughter, has also decided she wants to go with us. She's not always as quick to get up so I have to wait for her. I'm ok with that ... this week. Next week when I start back to work things may have to change :D. Who am I kidding next week will change. I will have to go to work after the gym. This is going to be a good test to see how long I can last. I am thinking my lunch time may end up with me napping in the car lol. But I will get that workout in :D
Since the contest is over I have given myself a break. I have been eating what I want. Not that I am stopping this journey nor am I stuffing myself with all kinds of "bad" stuff, I am just giving myself a break. The things that I crave from time to time I am letting myself eat. The funny thing about it, when I eat these things my body doesn't like it the way it use to.
I had some Reeses yesterday. I love those things even though I don't really eat sweets. It tasted really good. I savored every bit of the taste as the chocolate and peanut butter melted in my mouth. But then my said aahhmm yuck and I started feeling sick. Breakfast yesterday morning was chicken fried steak and eggs. It too tasted good but the grease from it left me feeling nauseated.
My body doesn't like that stuff any more. It's ok, I will eat something like that from time to time but I now have the "feeling" that I will get sick if I do. This leaves me with that extra punch that tells me I don't want to eat this. So eating "bad" can be a good thing at times. No I am not encouraging this for anyone, I am saying this is how it worked for me. Each person has a different trigger. Mine just happens to be eating something that made me feel sick so that I don't want it like I thought I did. It's one way that I have learned to listen to my body. I have taken that stuff out of my nutrition for so long it doesn't react well with my body when I do eat it.
One big thing that I have learned on the journey, not that I listen to it all the time, but is to listen to my body. If I am in the gym or the kitchen my body sends me signals. When I am working out I know that I have issues with different parts of my body. My knee, my ankle and at one time my right arm. From these issues I have learned how to listen to my body and try to make myself adjust to what they are telling me.
Right now I know my knee needs attention. I know that it's a matter of time before I will have to see the Dr about it again. I know that it causes me pain at times. At the same time I know that a good workout in general can bring pain too. I am ok with the workout pain but I have a hard time, at times, listening to my knee pain. I know that it "slips" and some times "pops" and I know this is my body telling me to adjust or stop what I am doing. This is the type of thing that is important to learn what your body is telling you. And always, if it doesn't go away, talk to your Dr about it. I know I don't always listen to my body but I do know how to and I do talk with my Dr about it on a regular basis.
Today I am feeling really good about getting back on track. I am getting workouts in everyday and then starting next week I am going to buckle back down with my nutrition. I can't do that before the wedding is over. I want cake :D lol. I did good to pass up cake at the showers but this is different. The contest is over and my son will only get married once so I am going to enjoy it.
I am really thankful for all those that supported me during the contest. Even though people didn't really tell me I know there were some praying for me. I met some really super people who, instead of being the competition, I became my friends. Even more so they became my best support.
I did not win, I knew about mid way through that I was not going to be in the running for that. I was, and am, ok with that. I did not finish in the top five like I had wanted at one point. I have no one to blame for that other than myself. I got lazy the last few weeks and just couldn't kick myself in gear. The best thing about this, after getting new friends, is that I am getting back on track and feeling good again. And that is a winning place for me.
For anyone that has not seen the results here is how I did.
My total loss for the contest stats :
Starting weight: 351.6; Current weight: 325.4
-26.2 lbs; Percentage of weight lost: 7.45%
My total loss since Dec 30, the horrible day at the Dr office, is now at 40 lbs. Even bigger number since I started this journey three years ago I am now back down 79 lbs. I think about how close I was last time to hitting the 100 lb mark and I want to kick myself. I am kicking myself. But I am feeling so much better again, this time I WILL make it ... and more.
I have a new buddy, I guess you could say, going with me to the gym. Andrew, my future son in law, asked if I wanted to go in the mornings before work. He feels better when he does the workout in the morning and for that matter so do I. I actually miss my morning workouts. I miss the 5:30 swims that got me going. So when he asked I was more than ready to take him up on that offer. The kicker is that to get in a decent workout, and make it worth getting up early for, I have to be there at 4:30.
Ok I know you are now thinking that's to early. I guess for some it is, but it's only an hour earlier than I use to get up to be at the pool. I get my stuff ready the night before so I don't have much to do when I wake up. I make my protein shake, get dressed and I'm out the door. I can usually get that done in thirty minutes or less.
Afton, my daughter, has also decided she wants to go with us. She's not always as quick to get up so I have to wait for her. I'm ok with that ... this week. Next week when I start back to work things may have to change :D. Who am I kidding next week will change. I will have to go to work after the gym. This is going to be a good test to see how long I can last. I am thinking my lunch time may end up with me napping in the car lol. But I will get that workout in :D
Since the contest is over I have given myself a break. I have been eating what I want. Not that I am stopping this journey nor am I stuffing myself with all kinds of "bad" stuff, I am just giving myself a break. The things that I crave from time to time I am letting myself eat. The funny thing about it, when I eat these things my body doesn't like it the way it use to.
I had some Reeses yesterday. I love those things even though I don't really eat sweets. It tasted really good. I savored every bit of the taste as the chocolate and peanut butter melted in my mouth. But then my said aahhmm yuck and I started feeling sick. Breakfast yesterday morning was chicken fried steak and eggs. It too tasted good but the grease from it left me feeling nauseated.
My body doesn't like that stuff any more. It's ok, I will eat something like that from time to time but I now have the "feeling" that I will get sick if I do. This leaves me with that extra punch that tells me I don't want to eat this. So eating "bad" can be a good thing at times. No I am not encouraging this for anyone, I am saying this is how it worked for me. Each person has a different trigger. Mine just happens to be eating something that made me feel sick so that I don't want it like I thought I did. It's one way that I have learned to listen to my body. I have taken that stuff out of my nutrition for so long it doesn't react well with my body when I do eat it.
One big thing that I have learned on the journey, not that I listen to it all the time, but is to listen to my body. If I am in the gym or the kitchen my body sends me signals. When I am working out I know that I have issues with different parts of my body. My knee, my ankle and at one time my right arm. From these issues I have learned how to listen to my body and try to make myself adjust to what they are telling me.
Right now I know my knee needs attention. I know that it's a matter of time before I will have to see the Dr about it again. I know that it causes me pain at times. At the same time I know that a good workout in general can bring pain too. I am ok with the workout pain but I have a hard time, at times, listening to my knee pain. I know that it "slips" and some times "pops" and I know this is my body telling me to adjust or stop what I am doing. This is the type of thing that is important to learn what your body is telling you. And always, if it doesn't go away, talk to your Dr about it. I know I don't always listen to my body but I do know how to and I do talk with my Dr about it on a regular basis.
Today I am feeling really good about getting back on track. I am getting workouts in everyday and then starting next week I am going to buckle back down with my nutrition. I can't do that before the wedding is over. I want cake :D lol. I did good to pass up cake at the showers but this is different. The contest is over and my son will only get married once so I am going to enjoy it.
Saturday, March 29, 2014
3-30-14
so this bites. I can't believe I have not kept up with things. Amazing how getting sick for a week can get me off track so easy. Here I am back where I don't want to be. I feel like I am falling off track again.
The past month has been crazy. I think I am feeling better but I keep going back and forth. I don't know if it's from my meds being messed up or if I have some of the stomach virus that has been going around.
Monday I came home from work early feeling so nauseated all I wanted to do is sleep and hope it would go away. I get home and I lay here feeling ... not so good. I wanted to just go to sleep but now that I was where I could .. I couldn't.
Tuesday I tried the day again. I had planned on going to the gym after work to get in some time. Somehow I talked myself out of it "I'll go home and do bodycombat". Oh no by the time get home my knee is bothering me. This made me talk myself out of doing anything. One thing after another I talked myself out of doing anything.
Thursday I had talked with my trainer and was going to get in a workout but before the time I was feeling sick again but was going to try and make it. Then I get text that he had to cancel. I came home and slept.
Friday let's try it again. After a few hours of work I had planned to go to the gym. I some how managed to set in the parking lot for at least half an hour before I could make myself go in. I wasn't feeling bad I just couldn't make myself go in.
Finally I did go and did get in half an hour on the treadmill. I kept up a good pace and got a decent burn going. I left to go have lunch with my daughter before we went to see James ( to get my butt kicked).
I made plans to meet up back at the house and we would go eat. By the time we both got here and ready to leave didn't have much time to eat. I ended up stopping by Carl's Jr, it was only thing on the way, and we got ... yes french fries. Not the best choice but I didn't want to go push a hard workout on an empty stomach, esp with the way I had been with my stomach being.
On the way to James had a close call with a semi truck that decided to change lanes at the last minute. I locked up my breaks and looked behind me to see not one, not two but three other vehicles behind me having to lock down too. Long story short it was not one of my finer moments and I was not ticked off. By the time I got to the gym I was really needing to get off some steam. I hadn't had a good workout in over a week and I was ready to get it all out.
The past month has been crazy. I think I am feeling better but I keep going back and forth. I don't know if it's from my meds being messed up or if I have some of the stomach virus that has been going around.
Monday I came home from work early feeling so nauseated all I wanted to do is sleep and hope it would go away. I get home and I lay here feeling ... not so good. I wanted to just go to sleep but now that I was where I could .. I couldn't.
Tuesday I tried the day again. I had planned on going to the gym after work to get in some time. Somehow I talked myself out of it "I'll go home and do bodycombat". Oh no by the time get home my knee is bothering me. This made me talk myself out of doing anything. One thing after another I talked myself out of doing anything.
Thursday I had talked with my trainer and was going to get in a workout but before the time I was feeling sick again but was going to try and make it. Then I get text that he had to cancel. I came home and slept.
Friday let's try it again. After a few hours of work I had planned to go to the gym. I some how managed to set in the parking lot for at least half an hour before I could make myself go in. I wasn't feeling bad I just couldn't make myself go in.
Finally I did go and did get in half an hour on the treadmill. I kept up a good pace and got a decent burn going. I left to go have lunch with my daughter before we went to see James ( to get my butt kicked).
I made plans to meet up back at the house and we would go eat. By the time we both got here and ready to leave didn't have much time to eat. I ended up stopping by Carl's Jr, it was only thing on the way, and we got ... yes french fries. Not the best choice but I didn't want to go push a hard workout on an empty stomach, esp with the way I had been with my stomach being.
On the way to James had a close call with a semi truck that decided to change lanes at the last minute. I locked up my breaks and looked behind me to see not one, not two but three other vehicles behind me having to lock down too. Long story short it was not one of my finer moments and I was not ticked off. By the time I got to the gym I was really needing to get off some steam. I hadn't had a good workout in over a week and I was ready to get it all out.
This is what you get when you are really mad and don't keep a good form. Yes I was wearing my gloves.
but the gloves only come to my knuckles. Had I not been so mad and ready to get out my frustrations I would have been paying attention to how I was hitting. The heavy bag got a really good workout on me. I did finally get it out to bad it was after I busted up my knuckles.
As if that wasn't enough when I was only 45 minutes into my hour workout it hit me. No not the bag, my stomach. Here I am in the middle of my first really good workout in weeks. I had a great burn going. I was drenched in sweat and still wanting more. I know crazy right, but I love it.
Anyway I start feeling sick at my stomach. Not the best place for this to happen. As if there was a good place to get sick away from the house. So I cut my session short :(
Then I was off to the house and slept for the rest of the afternoon. What a way to end the day. I did manage to get out for a while to do some shopping. I had to supplies for the wedding shower I am having for my son and future d-i-l. I am not the best person for shopping but I wanted to get it done. This trip lasted a bit longer than I had thought it would, after making it to several stores to get it all. I still had to cook cakes. I'm not even going to say how that came out. Anyway it was really late and I had planned on work today.
Today did some overtime and came home to finish up cakes, nope still not gonna say how bad it looks :/ Still not feeling the best I didn't get a stop in at the gym like I wanted to but I did get the shower stuff finished.
So here I am 1:30 in the morning not being able to sleep and once again feeling sick at my stomach. I hate that I am not able to get in gym time. Maybe all this sick stomach will be keeping me down on my weight. I hope so, I have my final weigh in next Sunday and I really need something good to happen with that.
So that's my week in a few paragraphs. Wish me luck this week ... and say a lot of prayers.
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
3-25-14
just when I think I have got it going something knocks me off my balance. I was doing so well with this blog, exercise journey and then I get sick and now I am fighting to get back where I need to be.
The good news I'm not just going all crazy and eating whatever I want in any amounts that I want. Today was a big test of that. One of our team members had his 10 yr company party. Now I can't say I was the best I could be, they ordered Wingstop, but I didn't cave on some very rich, delicious cake. This cake will make you gain at least five pounds just smelling it. To say it's sweet doesn't even come close, one bite will put you in a sugar comma for the rest of the day. I am by no means a chocolate fan but this is slap your momma good. I looked at it ... I wanted some .... but I never even sniffed it. Even better no one even offered me any, the kept it at the other end of the big table.
I wish I could say I am doing as well with my exercise. Since I got knocked off my feet with the crud a few weeks ago I have not been able to get it going. When I did start to feeling better my knee gave me a lot of pain about going. I got the shot Friday and my Dr wanted me to wait at least 24 hrs before pushing it to much. Saturday I worked and then worked around the house but never made it to the gym.
Yesterday I had planned on going to the gym after work but that didn't happen. I felt sick at my stomach and ended up coming home early. The rest of the evening I lay here on the couch being still trying to keep my stomach happy.
Today I was going to try it again. The bag is packed and in the car. Sadly this sick headache is back. I know it's partly from me not getting enough sleep. Which is something that has me upset. The Dr office has my meds messed up. Or should I say they are toooo incompetent to get it called in to the pharmacy like it needs to be done. I am sure a good workout would help me get my frustrations out but I can't seem to get it done. It's one of those catch 22 kinda things.
So I have part of my meds and I am going to try and sleep. I am hoping tomorrow will be better. Nite all
The good news I'm not just going all crazy and eating whatever I want in any amounts that I want. Today was a big test of that. One of our team members had his 10 yr company party. Now I can't say I was the best I could be, they ordered Wingstop, but I didn't cave on some very rich, delicious cake. This cake will make you gain at least five pounds just smelling it. To say it's sweet doesn't even come close, one bite will put you in a sugar comma for the rest of the day. I am by no means a chocolate fan but this is slap your momma good. I looked at it ... I wanted some .... but I never even sniffed it. Even better no one even offered me any, the kept it at the other end of the big table.
I wish I could say I am doing as well with my exercise. Since I got knocked off my feet with the crud a few weeks ago I have not been able to get it going. When I did start to feeling better my knee gave me a lot of pain about going. I got the shot Friday and my Dr wanted me to wait at least 24 hrs before pushing it to much. Saturday I worked and then worked around the house but never made it to the gym.
Yesterday I had planned on going to the gym after work but that didn't happen. I felt sick at my stomach and ended up coming home early. The rest of the evening I lay here on the couch being still trying to keep my stomach happy.
Today I was going to try it again. The bag is packed and in the car. Sadly this sick headache is back. I know it's partly from me not getting enough sleep. Which is something that has me upset. The Dr office has my meds messed up. Or should I say they are toooo incompetent to get it called in to the pharmacy like it needs to be done. I am sure a good workout would help me get my frustrations out but I can't seem to get it done. It's one of those catch 22 kinda things.
So I have part of my meds and I am going to try and sleep. I am hoping tomorrow will be better. Nite all
Friday, March 21, 2014
3-22-14
wow what a day. I am happy to say I was about to get the shot for my knee and it's already starting to feel better. Good thing, it's been a long day.
Work some overtime and ran a few errands before I got to the Dr office .... where I sat for over an hour before I got into the room. At one point I was so tired I propped my feet up on the couch (since I was the only one there) and all but fell asleep.
I was really happy to get the shot and even more glad now that it has really kicked in. I was able to walk around Wal-Mart for an hour and I'm not even having any pain. WOOOHOOO!!! So that means tomorrow I'm gonna hit it fast and hard. I have time to make up for.
On another good note, even though I wasn't able to workout any this week I still managed to eat well enough that I lost four more pounds. I felt pretty good about that. I wish I could have done that well AND got in exercise I could be unstoppable :D
So I am going to try something that is totally out of my norm. I did this last week for three days but I am going for a full week starting Monday. I have decided to eat vegan for the week to help to detox my body. I am sure that is how I lost the four pounds so who knows how well I can do for a week of it WITH exercise. I'll keep ya posted, wish me luck.
No workouts today Doc wanted me to "be good" for the next 24 hours after I had the shot.
"No body combat?
"I wouldn't recommend it"
"can I go boxing with my trainer"
After a good laugh thinking it was me joking around again " are you crazy?"
Since he did work me in for the shot I was good and didn't do any workout, he didn't say I couldn't walk around Wal-Mart ... sshhh don't tell ;)
Well if I am going to get in my overtime at work and hit the gym after I need to get to sleep. Nite all.
Work some overtime and ran a few errands before I got to the Dr office .... where I sat for over an hour before I got into the room. At one point I was so tired I propped my feet up on the couch (since I was the only one there) and all but fell asleep.
I was really happy to get the shot and even more glad now that it has really kicked in. I was able to walk around Wal-Mart for an hour and I'm not even having any pain. WOOOHOOO!!! So that means tomorrow I'm gonna hit it fast and hard. I have time to make up for.
On another good note, even though I wasn't able to workout any this week I still managed to eat well enough that I lost four more pounds. I felt pretty good about that. I wish I could have done that well AND got in exercise I could be unstoppable :D
So I am going to try something that is totally out of my norm. I did this last week for three days but I am going for a full week starting Monday. I have decided to eat vegan for the week to help to detox my body. I am sure that is how I lost the four pounds so who knows how well I can do for a week of it WITH exercise. I'll keep ya posted, wish me luck.
No workouts today Doc wanted me to "be good" for the next 24 hours after I had the shot.
"No body combat?
"I wouldn't recommend it"
"can I go boxing with my trainer"
After a good laugh thinking it was me joking around again " are you crazy?"
Since he did work me in for the shot I was good and didn't do any workout, he didn't say I couldn't walk around Wal-Mart ... sshhh don't tell ;)
Well if I am going to get in my overtime at work and hit the gym after I need to get to sleep. Nite all.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
3-20-14
wow it's been 10 days since I last wrote. The last few weeks have been rough. The crud caught up to me and slowed me down the first week and then went full blown slap me in the face last week. Still feeling it now but it's just the lingering cough. But now my knee is keeping me down more than the crud.
Sadly I till today I had not been to the gym since the two weeks ago when I did my "5k" at the gym. I got in one night some body combat for about twenty minutes. I just had no energy. I wish I could say that I had no energy to eat but I drank a lot of hot drinks and soups. The combination of not moving much and eating isn't a good one. At least when I did me weigh in I was didn't gain anything. I didn't lose but I didn't gain. So I have a lot of time to make up for.
Today was strange when I think about it. I didn't get but maybe four hours of sleep but I don't feel sleepy. I could get to sleep till after one last night (or this morning as it was) and the alarm went off at 5:30, I only hit snooze twice ... maybe three times.
I have been better about getting my lunch and breakfast from home instead of eating out. It's to much money and well I have more control over what I have when I prepare it myself. My morning ritual has become starting my breakfast to cooking while putting together my lunch. I have all kinds of stuffed cooked and veggie prep is a snap. While one meal is cooking I am pulling out bowls of "stuff" and mixing together what ever feels good for the moment. Then put it all in my bag, breakfast too, and off to get ready for work. I got my breakfast to eat at work and my lunch. At work on my desk I have a bowl of fruit for anyone that is looking for something healthy and delicious.
Tonight I did get in some gym time and it felt good, even though my knee is throbbing now. I had told one of the other contestants that I would go with her so it gave me more motivation to go. No excuses today.
I wanted to get in a hour of cardio but it wasn't happening today. Thirty minutes on the treadmill and I was feeling the pain. I did some weights and then a slow ride on the bike to finish off the day. Tomorrow I am suppose to go a shot and I am hoping and praying that it will get me through a few weeks till the end of the contest. I get so frustrated when I accomplish something I want to do.
Ok this was short and sweet for the night. I am trying to get it together. Tomorrow is a new day.
Sadly I till today I had not been to the gym since the two weeks ago when I did my "5k" at the gym. I got in one night some body combat for about twenty minutes. I just had no energy. I wish I could say that I had no energy to eat but I drank a lot of hot drinks and soups. The combination of not moving much and eating isn't a good one. At least when I did me weigh in I was didn't gain anything. I didn't lose but I didn't gain. So I have a lot of time to make up for.
Today was strange when I think about it. I didn't get but maybe four hours of sleep but I don't feel sleepy. I could get to sleep till after one last night (or this morning as it was) and the alarm went off at 5:30, I only hit snooze twice ... maybe three times.
I have been better about getting my lunch and breakfast from home instead of eating out. It's to much money and well I have more control over what I have when I prepare it myself. My morning ritual has become starting my breakfast to cooking while putting together my lunch. I have all kinds of stuffed cooked and veggie prep is a snap. While one meal is cooking I am pulling out bowls of "stuff" and mixing together what ever feels good for the moment. Then put it all in my bag, breakfast too, and off to get ready for work. I got my breakfast to eat at work and my lunch. At work on my desk I have a bowl of fruit for anyone that is looking for something healthy and delicious.
Tonight I did get in some gym time and it felt good, even though my knee is throbbing now. I had told one of the other contestants that I would go with her so it gave me more motivation to go. No excuses today.
I wanted to get in a hour of cardio but it wasn't happening today. Thirty minutes on the treadmill and I was feeling the pain. I did some weights and then a slow ride on the bike to finish off the day. Tomorrow I am suppose to go a shot and I am hoping and praying that it will get me through a few weeks till the end of the contest. I get so frustrated when I accomplish something I want to do.
Ok this was short and sweet for the night. I am trying to get it together. Tomorrow is a new day.
Sunday, March 9, 2014
3-8 and 3-9
Wow what a day. Oh yeah forgot I need to catch you up on Saturday
So Saturday ... Friday night we went to Lawton to see my son and do the Run or Dye 5k on Saturday. The nights sleep was all messed up. I woke up Saturday morning really not wanting to do anything but find a warm pouch and go back to sleep. This wasn't going to happen I needed to be at packet pickup at 7am.
As my son is leaving for work I ask him "is it cold out" "oh just a lil bit". Ok I had planned on wearing my tanktop so I put on a t-shirt over it. I know that even on the cooler days I have done a 5k that I get pretty warm and I wanted to be prepared. I finally get moving an head out door with my daughter and it hit me. Not that I had forgotten anything ... well maybe teaching my son what "a lit bit" cold means. To say it was a lil bit cold would have been like saying weighing over 400 lbs is a lil heavy. Are you kidding me??
I had already planned to stop at Wal-Mart for some bandages for the race (knee wrap I had forgotten and bandaids) so while I was there I thought I'd pick up a sweatshirt type jacket. What I should have gotten was a coat to wear in Alaska!!!
By the time I had gotten to the event I was frustrated about several things and I was cold, and I hadn't even gotten out of the car yet. I was driving around looking for the place to pick up the packets, which by the way there was no way to drive there. We had to walk across this field probably about 2 football fields away. I know I am there to exercise and it was only a "lil bit" cold. WHATEVER!!!
By the time we had walk across the field tears were pouring down my face. Not because my knee was hurting, even though it was, but because the "lil cold "breeze"" was hitting my face so hard that I had no choice in the matter. By the time we walked back across that same field to the car I thought I was going to die. No really. The wind was blowing so hard and was so cold that I thought someone was pelting me with icicles in the back of my head ... through the hood on my jacket.
Now had it been just my knee or just the wind or just the cold I probably would have been ok with it but this was toooooooo much. My daughter and I talked about it and decided on going to the gym instead. I did hit the treadmill and got in a great workout there. My goal is to finish a 5k in under an hour but it hasn't happened yet. I set the treadmill for an hour and finished at 2.85 miles and a 400+calories burned. It was as good a doing the 5k without the weather. I didn't do the Run or Dye but I did the next best thing and felt good about it. I thought about doing the rest of the distance but since my knee had already been popping some I decided to stop there. I wish I had finished the distance too but I can't do anything about it now. I still had a good workout.
Today was ok. I did get a few things done but it's not usually a day that I do any workout. I wanted to but I kept busy and didn't. My knee is really bothering me and I am praying that it does last at least till the end of the contest. I would love to be under 300 when I come to the point that I would HAVE to do something about it, so pray with me about that.
It's getting late and with the time change I am feeling tired. :D
So Saturday ... Friday night we went to Lawton to see my son and do the Run or Dye 5k on Saturday. The nights sleep was all messed up. I woke up Saturday morning really not wanting to do anything but find a warm pouch and go back to sleep. This wasn't going to happen I needed to be at packet pickup at 7am.
As my son is leaving for work I ask him "is it cold out" "oh just a lil bit". Ok I had planned on wearing my tanktop so I put on a t-shirt over it. I know that even on the cooler days I have done a 5k that I get pretty warm and I wanted to be prepared. I finally get moving an head out door with my daughter and it hit me. Not that I had forgotten anything ... well maybe teaching my son what "a lit bit" cold means. To say it was a lil bit cold would have been like saying weighing over 400 lbs is a lil heavy. Are you kidding me??
I had already planned to stop at Wal-Mart for some bandages for the race (knee wrap I had forgotten and bandaids) so while I was there I thought I'd pick up a sweatshirt type jacket. What I should have gotten was a coat to wear in Alaska!!!
By the time I had gotten to the event I was frustrated about several things and I was cold, and I hadn't even gotten out of the car yet. I was driving around looking for the place to pick up the packets, which by the way there was no way to drive there. We had to walk across this field probably about 2 football fields away. I know I am there to exercise and it was only a "lil bit" cold. WHATEVER!!!
By the time we had walk across the field tears were pouring down my face. Not because my knee was hurting, even though it was, but because the "lil cold "breeze"" was hitting my face so hard that I had no choice in the matter. By the time we walked back across that same field to the car I thought I was going to die. No really. The wind was blowing so hard and was so cold that I thought someone was pelting me with icicles in the back of my head ... through the hood on my jacket.
Now had it been just my knee or just the wind or just the cold I probably would have been ok with it but this was toooooooo much. My daughter and I talked about it and decided on going to the gym instead. I did hit the treadmill and got in a great workout there. My goal is to finish a 5k in under an hour but it hasn't happened yet. I set the treadmill for an hour and finished at 2.85 miles and a 400+calories burned. It was as good a doing the 5k without the weather. I didn't do the Run or Dye but I did the next best thing and felt good about it. I thought about doing the rest of the distance but since my knee had already been popping some I decided to stop there. I wish I had finished the distance too but I can't do anything about it now. I still had a good workout.
Today was ok. I did get a few things done but it's not usually a day that I do any workout. I wanted to but I kept busy and didn't. My knee is really bothering me and I am praying that it does last at least till the end of the contest. I would love to be under 300 when I come to the point that I would HAVE to do something about it, so pray with me about that.
It's getting late and with the time change I am feeling tired. :D
3-6 3-7 and 3-8
REALLLYYYY???? I missed THREE days? Geez what is up with that?
Ok so I can honestly say it's not because I have been cheating or just being lazy. Thursday is my really long "Friday" that I am not sure I can even remember. Wait yes I can cuz I was sooooo exhausted by the time I got home all I wanted to do was sleep. Really, that's why I can't remember exactly what I did. But I do know that my nutrition has been good, even if I would have to look back that day and see what it was I ate. HHHMMm losing time and memory, this has to be something about getting old.
Oh my, oh my Thursday is just a blur. I don't even remember what I did that day. I do know what I didn't do. I didn't write down my foods. I didn't exercise. I ... I ... I just don't know. I do remember being really tired and NOT wanting to go to work. I had one of those sleepless nights that left me pretty drained. I know I need to be wearing my CPAP but ... well I have no legit reason, just excuses that are toooo bad to mention.
Sleep is just as important to health as the diet and exercise. I have dealt with this on a personal level and have been forced to realize this. I have read about it and talk to my Dr about it. If the body doesn't get enough rest it doesn't have the energy to burn off the weight. I have had multiple sleep studies done that tell me I don't function well without it. I have used my cpap DAILY over periods of time and know it does help my quality of life. So why don't I keep using it? Again I don't have a good reason. Laying here and night and getting comfortable and THEN realizing that I don't have it on. You know once you are comfortable you don't want to move. I take the time to get my pillows and blankets just right and I don't want to move when I am in my pouch. Sadly if I would pay that much attention to putting on my mask, as I do getting in my pouch, I would sleep better. I know that when I don't sleep well all that time I spent on my pouch is worthless cuz I don't stay there long enough to really enjoy it for the night. Lesson? Go the extra step and put on the mask before I get settled.
ok so moving on ... Friday, now that day I remember. The one day this week that I could have slept in till I wanted to I am awake at 6:00 in the morning. NO no no!! I wanted to sleep. Eehhh it's all good cuz I didn't feel tired so I got up and started my day.
After a lazy morning I went to see James. He kicked my butt!! Well actually before I met with him I did my body combat at home. I had planned on doing at least half an hour but my knee had other plans. I did make it 20 minutes before my knee started getting mad at me. So I stopped for that time being. THEN I went to James and he kicked my butt. I did the boxing and I felt it.
Sadly I hadn't been "good" this week. I ate out to many times. Apparently I didn't write down all my calories. And yes I missed sleep .. boy do I miss sleep :D It was time for damage control.
We got in some boxing in some of the routines we normally do. I was getting better form and I can tell my endurance is getting better, even just from when I starting the boxing. When I started it felt like forever doing two minute rounds. I am now doing three minutes round and it just don't feel like it's more. I finished out the last round with some hard hits and it felt good. Look down at my HRM and it was over 400 calorie burn. Yup that's what I needed.
Then off to lunch with a friend. Jason's deli was the choice because it has a great salad bar. Funny how misleading that word salad can be. Have you ever noticed that? I think it's sadly funny how people will order/make a salad then cover it with JUNK. And no I don't just mean tons of salad dressing. They think because the word salad is there they are eating healthy. Don't be deceived like that. Be careful on every choice you make.
I can say that I was really good on mine. I had lettuce, onions, beets, egg, just a lil bacon bits (I didn't say I was just perfectly good :D ) and a lil cheese. Ahh there are the jalapenos ooohh and the banana peppers, I love those things. Then was the lil garlic toast pieces, I didn't seem them til I look at my friends plate and had to have them. I know bread is a weakness but I only got a few ... the first time :D I did use my ranch dressing but I only drizzled it along the top. The salad was so good I had to have more, of the same stuff without the bacon bits and cheese.
As my friend and I finished and were talking about how much to write down for calories chart it hit, not me her. The "salad" bar had some naughty things on there too. Chocolate mousse and fruit "salad". Now the fruit salad sounded ok, it's fruit right? No,no it has "stuff" on it. And the mousse? Well it was BAD!! No I don't mean tasting bad, calorie bad. Just half a cup of this stuff was 360 calories. Sadly she had already eaten over twice that much AND the fruit salad. "yup it's off to spin class for me" she said.
We did talk about how, even if you don't plan in advance, at least review your choices before you eat. It has been a hard road for me to learn to do that. Not in the sense of making myself look but in the sense of actually finding something that I feel like I should be eating. I try not to get in the mindset of If I eat this I will need to do this much exercise to work it off. I ask myself is it worth it? When I do look at it that way before hand I usually make better choices. There have been a few times I just opted not to eat, not always the best choice either.
Friday I had planned on doing body combat with the ladies at class but after the morning workouts I wasn't sure it would have been the best idea. I knew I had planned to do the 5k for Saturday and I really wanted to save my knee for that. I felt good about the decision because I had already did two workouts that left me with a good 600+ calorie burn and my food choices were good.
Well that has us up to Saturday and the 5k but you will have to wait for that part. It's time to get ready for church so I can get my praise on. Have a super day all
Ok so I can honestly say it's not because I have been cheating or just being lazy. Thursday is my really long "Friday" that I am not sure I can even remember. Wait yes I can cuz I was sooooo exhausted by the time I got home all I wanted to do was sleep. Really, that's why I can't remember exactly what I did. But I do know that my nutrition has been good, even if I would have to look back that day and see what it was I ate. HHHMMm losing time and memory, this has to be something about getting old.
Oh my, oh my Thursday is just a blur. I don't even remember what I did that day. I do know what I didn't do. I didn't write down my foods. I didn't exercise. I ... I ... I just don't know. I do remember being really tired and NOT wanting to go to work. I had one of those sleepless nights that left me pretty drained. I know I need to be wearing my CPAP but ... well I have no legit reason, just excuses that are toooo bad to mention.
Sleep is just as important to health as the diet and exercise. I have dealt with this on a personal level and have been forced to realize this. I have read about it and talk to my Dr about it. If the body doesn't get enough rest it doesn't have the energy to burn off the weight. I have had multiple sleep studies done that tell me I don't function well without it. I have used my cpap DAILY over periods of time and know it does help my quality of life. So why don't I keep using it? Again I don't have a good reason. Laying here and night and getting comfortable and THEN realizing that I don't have it on. You know once you are comfortable you don't want to move. I take the time to get my pillows and blankets just right and I don't want to move when I am in my pouch. Sadly if I would pay that much attention to putting on my mask, as I do getting in my pouch, I would sleep better. I know that when I don't sleep well all that time I spent on my pouch is worthless cuz I don't stay there long enough to really enjoy it for the night. Lesson? Go the extra step and put on the mask before I get settled.
ok so moving on ... Friday, now that day I remember. The one day this week that I could have slept in till I wanted to I am awake at 6:00 in the morning. NO no no!! I wanted to sleep. Eehhh it's all good cuz I didn't feel tired so I got up and started my day.
After a lazy morning I went to see James. He kicked my butt!! Well actually before I met with him I did my body combat at home. I had planned on doing at least half an hour but my knee had other plans. I did make it 20 minutes before my knee started getting mad at me. So I stopped for that time being. THEN I went to James and he kicked my butt. I did the boxing and I felt it.
Sadly I hadn't been "good" this week. I ate out to many times. Apparently I didn't write down all my calories. And yes I missed sleep .. boy do I miss sleep :D It was time for damage control.
We got in some boxing in some of the routines we normally do. I was getting better form and I can tell my endurance is getting better, even just from when I starting the boxing. When I started it felt like forever doing two minute rounds. I am now doing three minutes round and it just don't feel like it's more. I finished out the last round with some hard hits and it felt good. Look down at my HRM and it was over 400 calorie burn. Yup that's what I needed.
Then off to lunch with a friend. Jason's deli was the choice because it has a great salad bar. Funny how misleading that word salad can be. Have you ever noticed that? I think it's sadly funny how people will order/make a salad then cover it with JUNK. And no I don't just mean tons of salad dressing. They think because the word salad is there they are eating healthy. Don't be deceived like that. Be careful on every choice you make.
I can say that I was really good on mine. I had lettuce, onions, beets, egg, just a lil bacon bits (I didn't say I was just perfectly good :D ) and a lil cheese. Ahh there are the jalapenos ooohh and the banana peppers, I love those things. Then was the lil garlic toast pieces, I didn't seem them til I look at my friends plate and had to have them. I know bread is a weakness but I only got a few ... the first time :D I did use my ranch dressing but I only drizzled it along the top. The salad was so good I had to have more, of the same stuff without the bacon bits and cheese.
As my friend and I finished and were talking about how much to write down for calories chart it hit, not me her. The "salad" bar had some naughty things on there too. Chocolate mousse and fruit "salad". Now the fruit salad sounded ok, it's fruit right? No,no it has "stuff" on it. And the mousse? Well it was BAD!! No I don't mean tasting bad, calorie bad. Just half a cup of this stuff was 360 calories. Sadly she had already eaten over twice that much AND the fruit salad. "yup it's off to spin class for me" she said.
We did talk about how, even if you don't plan in advance, at least review your choices before you eat. It has been a hard road for me to learn to do that. Not in the sense of making myself look but in the sense of actually finding something that I feel like I should be eating. I try not to get in the mindset of If I eat this I will need to do this much exercise to work it off. I ask myself is it worth it? When I do look at it that way before hand I usually make better choices. There have been a few times I just opted not to eat, not always the best choice either.
Friday I had planned on doing body combat with the ladies at class but after the morning workouts I wasn't sure it would have been the best idea. I knew I had planned to do the 5k for Saturday and I really wanted to save my knee for that. I felt good about the decision because I had already did two workouts that left me with a good 600+ calorie burn and my food choices were good.
Well that has us up to Saturday and the 5k but you will have to wait for that part. It's time to get ready for church so I can get my praise on. Have a super day all
Thursday, March 6, 2014
3-5-14
Looks like I have missed a few days and it's confession time. No that's not the confession, unfortunately. I haven't missed because I am not wanting to confess this but because I have been busy and tired. When I am done you'll see why.
After Sunday weigh in I was feeling good about my loss. I am happy to be down 31 lbs again and hoping an praying that I can keep it off this time. I feel better and I am happy about where I am headed. That being said comes the issues.
Monday night I didn't write because my long day was longer than normal. Not because I was feasting on the word or doing extra exercise. There is a group of ladies at church that we go out to dinner from time to time and it was that time again. I needed the fellowship. I had a good time and I made healthy choices on my food, despite what initially came out for my order.
Since this happened first I will talk about my victory night before the fall. Who goes to a steak house and orders fish? This chick!! I have to say I dearly love .. LOVE love a good rib eye. I have been doing my best to stay away from red meat because it takes longer to flush thru the body. I'm ok with that. I have come to really love the other choices.
Of course when before you order the set down the beautiful basket of fresh baked rolls. The were all glossy with melted butter. I resisted. I usually can chomped down a couple of these before the even take my order but I didn't that night.
I ordered my talipia ... mushrooms and baked sweet potato. I was proud of my choices. As we sat and talked I did finally, after a second basket of rolls were set down, took one that wasn't so loaded with butter. I nibbled it till the time my meal came out. That was my next challenge of the evening.
The fish looked great and smelled good too. Then I noticed it. My sweet potato was covered in butter and cinnamon sugar. Not wanting to be hard about this I started not to say anything. I could have just eat it like it was but that would have defeated my reason for ordering things the way I did. I sent it back but then the waiter came back saying they were out. :( At this point I opted for steam veggies, broccoli was the choice. It was really good and I did enjoy it. By the end of the meal he also gave me a sweet potato to take home. Actually I still had half my food to bring home and ate it the next day. I was feeling pretty good about that night.
Tuesday my son came into town with his sweetie and wanted to take me out to dinner. This is where the confession time comes in. I didn't write that night, not because of the choices, because the day passed and it was late. I had spent time with the kids through the day and really enjoyed it. When it came time to go to dinner the girls ended up talking me into Olive Garden with the promise of doing body combat when we got home. That was the start of the downfall for the evening.
So we get to seated and of course there are bread sticks on the table. No no don't get ahead of me ... I didn't have any. So far so good. I look at the lighter side of the menu and some of it really looked good but I was craving shrimp. There was a really good looking pasta and shrimp dish that I caved for. I told myself that I would eat the shrimp and just not eat much of the pasta. Still NO bread sticks :D
The salad comes out and I ate two plates full. I know I know the dressing, but I it's salad and I didn't have bread sticks :D Who does that at Olive Garden?
The meal comes out. The waiter sets down the steaming hot bowl of shrimp pasta covered in creamy white sauce. Do I want cheese? Really you have to ask if I want cheese on pasta?? Silly waiter. This is where it began.
Now I didn't cover it in cheese, come to think about it I didn't have him put cheese on it at all. lol But I did end up eating all the shrimp AND pasta. I was stuffed. Still no break sticks ( I guess I am trying to tell myself I did something right) :D
ok meal done lets go ... right? Oh no, the kids have a sweet tooth tonight. UUUGGHH!! I did well Monday night can I do it two nights in a row with the sweets? Of course I can .... and I did. I didn't even take one bite when it was offered to me.
Even though I had some good points about the night I still left feeling stuffed and miserable really. I had tried to fill up on the salad so not to eat so much of the pasta that I caved on ordering and I felt like I was going to pop. I really needed body combat.
We get home and of course they bailed on me with the body combat. I was feeling so stuffed I knew I needed to do it but I convinced myself that I couldn't move and I wanted to visit with my son. I ended up going to sleep feeling stuffed and getting no exercise.
But today is a new day and I will get off my hinney and get it going.
Sunday, March 2, 2014
3-2-14
Yes I know I missed a day again. But I have a good reason for it.
no I don't. I just got to busy doing other things and didn't write yesterday. I spent time with family. :D
Today was an official weigh for the contest. I am happy to say I am down another four lbs. That means for the contest officially I am down seventeen pounds. Unofficially down 31 pounds since Dec 30 when I went to the Dr last. Hard work is paying off a lil at a time.
I try really hard not to focus on a number on the scale but since I am part of a contest I am forced to every other week. At the same time forced is kind of a strong word to use here. I am happy in the sense that this keeps me focused on moving forward. It's what I needed to get me back going and it's what I need to keep me going for now. I am hoping and praying that by the time this contest is over I will have strong enough habits that I won't slack off again. Yes if you are reading this I want you to keep me on my toes.
I know I have said this before but I was really surprised that I lost anything. When I weighed at church Wednesday night I was up three pounds. I wasn't terrible upset like I had been just before last weigh in. I knew it wasn't my normal weigh time and I had time to work on things. At the same time I was really hoping that I would at least break even with my last weigh in. I just didn't feel like I had worked that much. And I hadn't.
In prior weeks I had been hitting the gym for hours doing cardio and some weights. I would leave with having burned maybe 200-300 calories. I felt pretty good about it but wanted to do more. I am now burning MORE than twice that in less time.
I had decided that I wanted to add classes to my workout routine. I love boxing each week with my trainer and I get a great burn going in a short time. My next best love right now is Body Combat, I may have mentioned this a couple dozen times or two now ():D
I am lucky to burn 250 calories on the treadmill in an hour. Friday night when Tara got finished with us in the class I looked down at my HRM and seen 617!!! In 45 minutes of kicks, jabs, and squats, not to mention almost kicking my friend Yolanda once or twice, I had a better burn than hours on the treadmill. I knew that I burned more in the classes but it just really hit me then.
So when I say I haven't worked as much in a sense I haven't, time wise anyway. I have my CD's at home and love doing them in the evenings. I have my daughter interested in doing it. She went to class with me Friday and said once she got the hang of what to do she loved it. We all left drenched in sweat but it was with a lighter step :D My game plan is to get in at least 30 min of the CD each day after the gym.
This week I will probably do more gym time just to get try and get my pace up for the 5k next weekend. I am hoping I will do better than last time. Who knows I just like to go and be able to say I did it. Crazy? I don't care. Anyone that has know me more than 30 days knows I don't care. I do what I feel like is good for me. If you don't like the way I look doing it you don't have to look, I didn't ask you to :D I just like getting out there and feeling like I have accomplished something ... ya know?
As far as my nutrition I am still working on the right angle to keep it at. This 50% carbs ... 40% protein and 10% fat is different for me. My mind always turns to the starchy side of carbs when I think of them but there are more than those. My last post I put in a list of good carbs that aren't as bad. Some of them higher fiber and higher carbs that will help work on my body burning off the calories quicker. I plan to add at least one of these things from the list each week to broaden my food choices.
So with the body combat and the flip in the chart it's working slowly. I am taking it one day at a time .... impatiently lol
Who wants to join me?
no I don't. I just got to busy doing other things and didn't write yesterday. I spent time with family. :D
Today was an official weigh for the contest. I am happy to say I am down another four lbs. That means for the contest officially I am down seventeen pounds. Unofficially down 31 pounds since Dec 30 when I went to the Dr last. Hard work is paying off a lil at a time.
I try really hard not to focus on a number on the scale but since I am part of a contest I am forced to every other week. At the same time forced is kind of a strong word to use here. I am happy in the sense that this keeps me focused on moving forward. It's what I needed to get me back going and it's what I need to keep me going for now. I am hoping and praying that by the time this contest is over I will have strong enough habits that I won't slack off again. Yes if you are reading this I want you to keep me on my toes.
I know I have said this before but I was really surprised that I lost anything. When I weighed at church Wednesday night I was up three pounds. I wasn't terrible upset like I had been just before last weigh in. I knew it wasn't my normal weigh time and I had time to work on things. At the same time I was really hoping that I would at least break even with my last weigh in. I just didn't feel like I had worked that much. And I hadn't.
In prior weeks I had been hitting the gym for hours doing cardio and some weights. I would leave with having burned maybe 200-300 calories. I felt pretty good about it but wanted to do more. I am now burning MORE than twice that in less time.
I had decided that I wanted to add classes to my workout routine. I love boxing each week with my trainer and I get a great burn going in a short time. My next best love right now is Body Combat, I may have mentioned this a couple dozen times or two now ():D
I am lucky to burn 250 calories on the treadmill in an hour. Friday night when Tara got finished with us in the class I looked down at my HRM and seen 617!!! In 45 minutes of kicks, jabs, and squats, not to mention almost kicking my friend Yolanda once or twice, I had a better burn than hours on the treadmill. I knew that I burned more in the classes but it just really hit me then.
So when I say I haven't worked as much in a sense I haven't, time wise anyway. I have my CD's at home and love doing them in the evenings. I have my daughter interested in doing it. She went to class with me Friday and said once she got the hang of what to do she loved it. We all left drenched in sweat but it was with a lighter step :D My game plan is to get in at least 30 min of the CD each day after the gym.
This week I will probably do more gym time just to get try and get my pace up for the 5k next weekend. I am hoping I will do better than last time. Who knows I just like to go and be able to say I did it. Crazy? I don't care. Anyone that has know me more than 30 days knows I don't care. I do what I feel like is good for me. If you don't like the way I look doing it you don't have to look, I didn't ask you to :D I just like getting out there and feeling like I have accomplished something ... ya know?
As far as my nutrition I am still working on the right angle to keep it at. This 50% carbs ... 40% protein and 10% fat is different for me. My mind always turns to the starchy side of carbs when I think of them but there are more than those. My last post I put in a list of good carbs that aren't as bad. Some of them higher fiber and higher carbs that will help work on my body burning off the calories quicker. I plan to add at least one of these things from the list each week to broaden my food choices.
So with the body combat and the flip in the chart it's working slowly. I am taking it one day at a time .... impatiently lol
Who wants to join me?
Friday, February 28, 2014
2-28-14
Yeah yeah I know, I missed a few days. But I have a good reason. I guess come could say excuses but I don't. I have been having a hard time sleeping and it just finally hit me. I was so tired that even my eyes were not focusing very well. For that matter this is the first time today that I have been able to focus well so here I am.
I haven't been to the gym in the past few weeks bhhhuuutttt I have gotten in exercise. I have been doing my Les Miles Body Combat cd. It's a great burn in a short time. I almost feel like I'm not getting in enough time. I have spent so much time at the gym walking on the treadmill or riding bike to get a good burn only to find that I can get a better burn in less time.
My nutrition is something I am still working on. I am trying to get in enough calories. Been trying to work on a plan James and I talked about. He's great with nutrition and I am trusting him in this. It's just tough retraining my brain on how I have been doing it. Then again it's not working like I need it to right now. I need to shock my body into burning the calories again. For my weight I am suppose to be getting in at least 2300 calories. I am doing good to get in 1800. Half carbs is the hard part. When I think about carbs I think about pasta, bread, rice ya know the ones that aren't so good for you. So today I was reading up on the better ones here is what I have in case you are looking.
I haven't been to the gym in the past few weeks bhhhuuutttt I have gotten in exercise. I have been doing my Les Miles Body Combat cd. It's a great burn in a short time. I almost feel like I'm not getting in enough time. I have spent so much time at the gym walking on the treadmill or riding bike to get a good burn only to find that I can get a better burn in less time.
My nutrition is something I am still working on. I am trying to get in enough calories. Been trying to work on a plan James and I talked about. He's great with nutrition and I am trusting him in this. It's just tough retraining my brain on how I have been doing it. Then again it's not working like I need it to right now. I need to shock my body into burning the calories again. For my weight I am suppose to be getting in at least 2300 calories. I am doing good to get in 1800. Half carbs is the hard part. When I think about carbs I think about pasta, bread, rice ya know the ones that aren't so good for you. So today I was reading up on the better ones here is what I have in case you are looking.
Good Sources of Carbohydrate
- Vegetables (all kinds)
- Fruit
- Oats and oatmeal
- Brown Rice
- Seeds
- Nuts
- Quinoa
- Chia
- Yams
- Lentils
- Whole Grain Breads
- Whole Grain Pitas
- Whole Grain Cereals
- Potatoes
- Whole grain pastas
- Beans
I just want to get in the right carbs. No carbs aren't bad. Not paying attention to what you are doing isn't good for you. Eating anything to an extreme is what is not good for you. You have to have control in anything you do.
So it's late and I really just want to sleep. I am trying to stay awake for at least another hour in hopes that I will sleep tonight. Maybe since I got a good workout in it will help. If not I am going to not be a nice person to be around tomorrow. Wish me luck.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
2-25-14
ahh yes Day two of the challenge. No TV till I have exercised spiritually and physically.
I have to admit it's not easy but it's not as hard as you would think. God is defiantly doing all this today. I woke up this morning just after 3am and wasn't able to get back to sleep till almost time to wake up. I felt like I was dragging most of the day. It could have been tempted to come home and crash but I didn't even give myself time to think about it. I came in made one phone call that I had promised, it was short, and then turned on the TV ... for the Body Combat CD ... don't look at me like that :D Ok ok I may have looked at FB for just a few moments. I couldn't help it. The phone was still in my hand from the call I had to return. Geezz give me a break :D
Today wasn't to bad for the lil sleep that I had. The day actually went by pretty quickly. It was pretty busy at work. We had the usual dead hour and then about the time I was wanting to fall asleep it picked up and carried me through the rest of the day.
I am really wanting to NOT eat out but this morning it was all I could do just to get going, cooking wasn't even on my mind. Breakfast stop of choice? Joey's burritos. For lunch I had wanted to go to United and stock up on my fruits and some healthy snacks since I was out at work. I didn't go. I didn't want to do anything. I ended up eating a baked potato at work. At the same time this also left me without an afternoon snack. I got lucky and my neighbor had a banana. It made me be able to last till I got home.
Once I was home I did my CD and sat down for my evening bible study that I am doing. I had wanted to do the cd one more time but by this time the kids had come in and it wasn't going to happen. I could probably done it but I let it be an excuse. Shame on me!!!
So that was my day. Nothing really out of the ordinary but I feel like I have accomplished something.
How bout you guys? What did you do to get healthy?
I have to admit it's not easy but it's not as hard as you would think. God is defiantly doing all this today. I woke up this morning just after 3am and wasn't able to get back to sleep till almost time to wake up. I felt like I was dragging most of the day. It could have been tempted to come home and crash but I didn't even give myself time to think about it. I came in made one phone call that I had promised, it was short, and then turned on the TV ... for the Body Combat CD ... don't look at me like that :D Ok ok I may have looked at FB for just a few moments. I couldn't help it. The phone was still in my hand from the call I had to return. Geezz give me a break :D
Today wasn't to bad for the lil sleep that I had. The day actually went by pretty quickly. It was pretty busy at work. We had the usual dead hour and then about the time I was wanting to fall asleep it picked up and carried me through the rest of the day.
I am really wanting to NOT eat out but this morning it was all I could do just to get going, cooking wasn't even on my mind. Breakfast stop of choice? Joey's burritos. For lunch I had wanted to go to United and stock up on my fruits and some healthy snacks since I was out at work. I didn't go. I didn't want to do anything. I ended up eating a baked potato at work. At the same time this also left me without an afternoon snack. I got lucky and my neighbor had a banana. It made me be able to last till I got home.
Once I was home I did my CD and sat down for my evening bible study that I am doing. I had wanted to do the cd one more time but by this time the kids had come in and it wasn't going to happen. I could probably done it but I let it be an excuse. Shame on me!!!
So that was my day. Nothing really out of the ordinary but I feel like I have accomplished something.
How bout you guys? What did you do to get healthy?
Monday, February 24, 2014
2-24-13
Has today been a challenge? Hhhmm?? Isn't every day a challenge of some kind? I had a good day. I was really tired. Still having trouble sleeping. But today I was determined to keep it going.
I did manage to get up in time to eat without being overly rushed. Not that I got myself going ... I walked into work at the last possible second. Whew, I need to stop cutting it that short.
I have not finished up my nutrition yet but I am pretty sure I am under calories for the day. I will probably get something else to snack on before bed ... maybe not it's getting late.
I am really excited today. I got my new Les Mills body combat CD so I can do that workout at home. Yup you know I broke it in today. I had planned on going to the gym. This morning I even pack my bag and was ready for it. At the same time the "whatever monster" was trying to talk me outta going.
I check my email shortly before getting off work and found out my CD had been delivered. WOOHOOO!!!! It was all I could do not to rip into when I got home and get my burn going. I had a few things to do and almost let it go to long. But I got in a good 30 min burn, 223 calories off. That's about what I get with an hour on the bike at the gym.
Yesterday at church I was challenged to "die to self". It got me to thinking about my goals that I have for this year. Not my goals but ones I feel God wants for me. I had said no less than 30 minutes of physical and spiritual "exercise" each day. Let's face it as lil as I watch TV in the evening it's on. I don't always pay attention to but it can be a distraction. No more.
My new goal is no TV/internet, yes this means FB lol or games on my phone. I don't just sit around with one or the other of them but I have let them be what entertains me at times. Today I came home and got all that done and now here I am with this. I haven't even turned on the tv since I came home. I got my workout in and my quiet time too.
I feel good about it. I hope that I sleep better tonight. Even if I don't know God will give me what I need to make it through another day. nite all.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
2-22 an 2-23
yesterday was just a day. I didn't do make a trip to the gym or do anything for the extra effort. Sadly I didn't even write down all my foods. overall I did ok with it. Even when I was thinking about blowing it off and just eating what I wanted to I ended up making healthy choices.
Today I didn't plan on any workout. Sunday is my day to just do what ever. With that being said even my "whatever" days I usually end up with a much better choice of nutrition than I use to. Today wasn't really any different. I did well but I also had a couple indulging moments.
After church stopped off at United for some lunch items. In case you haven't noticed it's that time of the year. Girl Scout cookies. I was a girl scout back in my day and I will always buy at least on box. My guilty please? Of course the mint cookies. I had only ONE serving which is four cookies. Granted that was a whopping 160 calories but worth ever bite of it.
Today after lunch we went to Lucy Park and I did a lot of walking. Even though I didn't make it to the gym I got in as much exercise as if I had gone to the gym. I even got to spend time with my family and it was great. Then back to house for dinner, sandwiches. I would like to say that I had something healthy but let's face it, lunch meat is not one of the healthiest choices I could have made. I did add a lot of veggies and wheat bread but the sodium in that stuff isn't a really good choice.
The for the second indulging moment. My daughter had wanted to bake a cake and it was that time. While I did eat some I have only a small portion. This was a great thing in itself that I didn't eat more, she did a really good job with it.
So I am totally ok with the day. Overall my nutrition, even with the indulging moments, were a lot better than I use to do. I can remember a time when I would have eaten a lot more and not gone to the park for that walk. I was pretty happy at the park too, not just because I was with my family.
As I was walking up to the falls it felt good. On the way back we decided to walk to the basketball court too. Not that long ago when I walked just to the waterfall I would have to stop a few times to catch my breath. Today here I was we walked that and was on the way to the swinging bridge and I was still going. I didn't even feel winded at any time. The knee on the other hand was starting to bothering me but I still felt really good. By the time we had walked back to the car I was still not feeling even half as tired as I use to in just the walk to the falls. NSV!!! It was a good day.
Today I didn't plan on any workout. Sunday is my day to just do what ever. With that being said even my "whatever" days I usually end up with a much better choice of nutrition than I use to. Today wasn't really any different. I did well but I also had a couple indulging moments.
After church stopped off at United for some lunch items. In case you haven't noticed it's that time of the year. Girl Scout cookies. I was a girl scout back in my day and I will always buy at least on box. My guilty please? Of course the mint cookies. I had only ONE serving which is four cookies. Granted that was a whopping 160 calories but worth ever bite of it.
Today after lunch we went to Lucy Park and I did a lot of walking. Even though I didn't make it to the gym I got in as much exercise as if I had gone to the gym. I even got to spend time with my family and it was great. Then back to house for dinner, sandwiches. I would like to say that I had something healthy but let's face it, lunch meat is not one of the healthiest choices I could have made. I did add a lot of veggies and wheat bread but the sodium in that stuff isn't a really good choice.
The for the second indulging moment. My daughter had wanted to bake a cake and it was that time. While I did eat some I have only a small portion. This was a great thing in itself that I didn't eat more, she did a really good job with it.
So I am totally ok with the day. Overall my nutrition, even with the indulging moments, were a lot better than I use to do. I can remember a time when I would have eaten a lot more and not gone to the park for that walk. I was pretty happy at the park too, not just because I was with my family.
As I was walking up to the falls it felt good. On the way back we decided to walk to the basketball court too. Not that long ago when I walked just to the waterfall I would have to stop a few times to catch my breath. Today here I was we walked that and was on the way to the swinging bridge and I was still going. I didn't even feel winded at any time. The knee on the other hand was starting to bothering me but I still felt really good. By the time we had walked back to the car I was still not feeling even half as tired as I use to in just the walk to the falls. NSV!!! It was a good day.
Friday, February 21, 2014
2-21-14
Oh I so wish I wasn't feeling so tired, at least today I got something accomplished. I did my fasting last night so that I could get blood work done this morning. That took longer than I had planned for so it was after 10 before I got anything to eat. Subway here I come. Egg white on flat bread with veggies.
After a stop off at the house to change into my gym clothes I treated myself to a few things that I am sure I could live without ... but I wanted them. I got me a timer so that I don't have to look at the clock or lose count when I am doing timed exercises. And my favorite. Boxing gloves :D
The gloves aren't the big fat ones you have seen me using in my the pix I did for the contest but the fun ones that I can have my fingers free. The gloves made their debut at my next stop. I had a session with James and I got them broke in really well. I did learn a bit better how I needed to use my hands. I had a lot more "feel" with them and realized how much I had been relying on the gloves to do part of the work. I was forced to get better position with my body as well as throwing the punches. On top of the extra effort, since I confessed to not working out all week, James decided I needed to work harder. I just thought I was tired last night when I left. Everything he threw at me I pushed back with. I was tired, drenched and felt half dead but great at the same time.
I had planned on going to BodyCombat but after coming home to rest I realized I was exhausted. It was all I could do to run one more errand. Dr Office for blood work. Tag office, that was crazy. Ended up leaving cuz of a line out the door and then realized I could get them at United. Got home in time to sit down to eat before I got the call to pick up Afton, my daughter. I made the mistake after finally getting back home falling asleep before I had to drop her off for the evening. The plan when I dropped her off was to head off to class but it was all I could do to get her dropped off. I came back home and rested.
So even though I didn't get in a second workout in I feel good about the day. My nutrition was good. I am getting there slowly but surely and I feel good.
After a stop off at the house to change into my gym clothes I treated myself to a few things that I am sure I could live without ... but I wanted them. I got me a timer so that I don't have to look at the clock or lose count when I am doing timed exercises. And my favorite. Boxing gloves :D
The gloves aren't the big fat ones you have seen me using in my the pix I did for the contest but the fun ones that I can have my fingers free. The gloves made their debut at my next stop. I had a session with James and I got them broke in really well. I did learn a bit better how I needed to use my hands. I had a lot more "feel" with them and realized how much I had been relying on the gloves to do part of the work. I was forced to get better position with my body as well as throwing the punches. On top of the extra effort, since I confessed to not working out all week, James decided I needed to work harder. I just thought I was tired last night when I left. Everything he threw at me I pushed back with. I was tired, drenched and felt half dead but great at the same time.
I had planned on going to BodyCombat but after coming home to rest I realized I was exhausted. It was all I could do to run one more errand. Dr Office for blood work. Tag office, that was crazy. Ended up leaving cuz of a line out the door and then realized I could get them at United. Got home in time to sit down to eat before I got the call to pick up Afton, my daughter. I made the mistake after finally getting back home falling asleep before I had to drop her off for the evening. The plan when I dropped her off was to head off to class but it was all I could do to get her dropped off. I came back home and rested.
So even though I didn't get in a second workout in I feel good about the day. My nutrition was good. I am getting there slowly but surely and I feel good.
2-20-14
yes I know it's Friday 2-21 but I was so tired when I tried to write this last night I feel asleep ... read why :D
ok so this has been a crazy week. No workouts since last Friday. Yes this shocked even my trainer when I said this. I always get in no less than 4-5 days of at least simple cardio. After talking with him things made sense. Things that I knew were right but just kept pushed in the back of my mind ... or some place.
Last week, after the devastating finding that I was up in weight, I pushed myself even harder than I had been. Wednesday is usually my day I don't go to the gym. Last week I pushed myself to do at least half a class of body combat before I went off to church. Don't worry remember I sat in the back by myself where no one could smell me lol
Thursday I went to the gym. I was feeling a little defeated and challenged all in one. I was fighting that battle of do it don't do it. I got in my two hours of cardio. Friday I hit it hard with my trainer and body combat class. By the end of the day I was tired, but I feel like I had accomplished something. I put in a lot of work last week and my body knew it. So when I took a break on Saturday and Sunday my body didn't know what to do with itself.
As I was talking with my trainer last night he commented he has times like that too. When he is training for a meet he put in a lot of hard work. He pushes his body to it's limits to be ready for the meet. After the meet when he backs off the harder training he said that for a while it's almost like he has insomnia, this is what I have felt like the past few days.
The body gets so use to being able to get rid of a higher amount of energy and it doesn't know just to turn it back. The past few days I knew in the back of my mind that I feel better when I get in exercise but it was like I was tired and couldn't make myself do it. I woke yesterday morning knowing I HAD to get in some exercise. I know that a class or boxing session with James makes for a hard burn of calories. I contacted him and my luck was he had an opening just as I got off work. Perfect!! I got a good 30 minute burn boxing. I felt this burn in every part of my body. I could feel that my endurance had gotten so much better than I had months ago. I left there drenched and tired but it was the best nights sleep I have had all week.
Today I have planned to go back for more torture with James and then, what has come my Friday night date, Bodycombat with the ladies. I feel it when I am done but I love it after. Have a super day everyone.
ok so this has been a crazy week. No workouts since last Friday. Yes this shocked even my trainer when I said this. I always get in no less than 4-5 days of at least simple cardio. After talking with him things made sense. Things that I knew were right but just kept pushed in the back of my mind ... or some place.
Last week, after the devastating finding that I was up in weight, I pushed myself even harder than I had been. Wednesday is usually my day I don't go to the gym. Last week I pushed myself to do at least half a class of body combat before I went off to church. Don't worry remember I sat in the back by myself where no one could smell me lol
Thursday I went to the gym. I was feeling a little defeated and challenged all in one. I was fighting that battle of do it don't do it. I got in my two hours of cardio. Friday I hit it hard with my trainer and body combat class. By the end of the day I was tired, but I feel like I had accomplished something. I put in a lot of work last week and my body knew it. So when I took a break on Saturday and Sunday my body didn't know what to do with itself.
As I was talking with my trainer last night he commented he has times like that too. When he is training for a meet he put in a lot of hard work. He pushes his body to it's limits to be ready for the meet. After the meet when he backs off the harder training he said that for a while it's almost like he has insomnia, this is what I have felt like the past few days.
The body gets so use to being able to get rid of a higher amount of energy and it doesn't know just to turn it back. The past few days I knew in the back of my mind that I feel better when I get in exercise but it was like I was tired and couldn't make myself do it. I woke yesterday morning knowing I HAD to get in some exercise. I know that a class or boxing session with James makes for a hard burn of calories. I contacted him and my luck was he had an opening just as I got off work. Perfect!! I got a good 30 minute burn boxing. I felt this burn in every part of my body. I could feel that my endurance had gotten so much better than I had months ago. I left there drenched and tired but it was the best nights sleep I have had all week.
Today I have planned to go back for more torture with James and then, what has come my Friday night date, Bodycombat with the ladies. I feel it when I am done but I love it after. Have a super day everyone.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
2-19-14
ok so the past few days have been really weird. Today isn't really any different. I don't know why I am not sleeping well which ends up making me tired the next day. Sadly I have not been to the gym all week. I am eating well but not any "exercise". Not the best idea but I am going to push myself tomorrow no matter what it takes.
Ok so if you have been following you know my new favorite thing is boxing. I LOVE it. I get a great calorie burn going and it's ... well I love it. I love the body combat as well. So much so that I ordered me a CD that is going to AWESOME!!! I am so looking forward to getting it. The sleepless nights I can get up and put it on and wear myself out till I drop. Then maybe I will get some sleep.
On other note I have had been really bothered with my knee. I don't know what to do. I want to be able to keep going and not completely blow it out. At the same time if I back off too much I won't be any good for the contest. Yeah I know healthy first, but that IS part of what the contest is about.
Since I have been a bit lazy this week so far, I don't really have a lot to write. That an my eyes are starting blur again. That's why I just popped in and out of here last night. Little sleep after staring at the computer for ten hours I guess is making my eyes tired too. Tomorrow is my 4th an final day for the week. Tomorrow WILL be better.
Ok so if you have been following you know my new favorite thing is boxing. I LOVE it. I get a great calorie burn going and it's ... well I love it. I love the body combat as well. So much so that I ordered me a CD that is going to AWESOME!!! I am so looking forward to getting it. The sleepless nights I can get up and put it on and wear myself out till I drop. Then maybe I will get some sleep.
On other note I have had been really bothered with my knee. I don't know what to do. I want to be able to keep going and not completely blow it out. At the same time if I back off too much I won't be any good for the contest. Yeah I know healthy first, but that IS part of what the contest is about.
Since I have been a bit lazy this week so far, I don't really have a lot to write. That an my eyes are starting blur again. That's why I just popped in and out of here last night. Little sleep after staring at the computer for ten hours I guess is making my eyes tired too. Tomorrow is my 4th an final day for the week. Tomorrow WILL be better.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
2-17 and 2-18
oh knee oh knew why doth thou botherth me? Sleepless nights ... this is killing me. I got nuttin right now ... it's been several days since I have had any energy to even go to the gym. I hate this waking up at 3ish every morning ... staying away for hours .... and then being tired all day. AAAUUUGGHHHH!!!
This bites that I can't get it all going at one time. The nutrition has been good but now getting exercise isn't happening. I come home from work and all I want to do is sleep. Sadly I can't sleep. My eyes are even tired and this is getting blurred. I'm calling it a day.
This bites that I can't get it all going at one time. The nutrition has been good but now getting exercise isn't happening. I come home from work and all I want to do is sleep. Sadly I can't sleep. My eyes are even tired and this is getting blurred. I'm calling it a day.
Sunday, February 16, 2014
2-16-14
For the
first time since I started this contest I feel good. And it’s not because of a number on the
scale. I hate scales. I just feel good. I had a breakthrough and I feel like
smiling.
As I had
said earlier this week I was feeling a cloud that wouldn’t let me celebrate
even the little accomplishments. After
doing a bible study yesterday and a few other things over the past few days I
realized something. It’s not my victory to
celebrate.
Yes I did
the work. I am the one that kept up with
my nutrition. I am the one that planned
meals. I am the one that was out there
sweating. And as much as I knew, and
even said it, that God was helping me with this, I wasn't really giving him the
credit. I am nothing without him. He is
the one that helped me with all those things.
I have tried this many times in the past and I failed without him.
Ok so if you
are still with me great. If you left because
you felt I was preachy then … well you probably aren't reading this far anyway. I make no apologies for it, this is who I
am. I am desperately looking for that
balance between physical, emotional and
spiritual. It’s all very important. It’s the balance that works for me.
So yesterday
I didn't really write like I had wanted to, I was tired.
But part of what I had to say yesterday was what I have just written
about.
I woke up this morning feeling good. I didn't really even fret about the weigh in. I never like scales but it’s part of the contest. I had already said God this is in your hands and let me accept whatever happens. Of course I wanted to do well, but I had done the work and I was at peace about it.
I woke up this morning feeling good. I didn't really even fret about the weigh in. I never like scales but it’s part of the contest. I had already said God this is in your hands and let me accept whatever happens. Of course I wanted to do well, but I had done the work and I was at peace about it.
I had talked
with my trainer about changing up some of my nutrition to possibly get my metabolism
cranked up. I don’t know what made me start
this theory the day before a weigh in but I did. From a competition stand point that could
have been a big mistake. At the same
time I didn't really think about it being the day before contest.
Earlier in
the week I had planned on getting every possible moment that I could in on
working out. I slept in yesterday and
decided to go see my son in Lawton. I
don’t get to see him as often as I would like and that is what mattered most to
me at the time.
On the way
out of town we, my daughter and I, stopped for breakfast, Carl’s Jr. I know what you are thinking but I had
already decided I wasn't going to get upset over all this. I would eat what I wanted in moderation and I would start to
work on the change so yes I had a loaded biscuit and small hash browns. Yes I know this took up about half my calorie
count for the day. At the same time I
enjoyed every bite. I know you’re
thinking this probably made my weigh in go bad today. Keep in mind I had already told God it’s in
His hands and I accept whatever came my way.
For lunch yesterday the kids wanted to go to an Italian restaurant that they really like. I’m thinking worst of worsts I could order a
salad and enjoy the time with the kids.
At the same time over the past three years I have learned to be creative
in many ways, even in ordering food at a restaurant like this.
Chicken Marsala
sounded pretty good. I considered all
the elements of the way of looking at food.
I had the pasta put on the sideand didn't eat any of it. The rest was pretty good.
I did have some bread but I have to say it looked much better than it tasted. It wasn't bread sticks like you would get at Olive Garden or other places. It was more of a biscuit with some Italian flavors sprinkled on top. I had one and munched on it through the full meal. I can remember a time when would have easily had two or three of these. Not to mention who goes to an Italian restaurant and not have some form of pasta? Well this crazy girl that’s who.
I did have some bread but I have to say it looked much better than it tasted. It wasn't bread sticks like you would get at Olive Garden or other places. It was more of a biscuit with some Italian flavors sprinkled on top. I had one and munched on it through the full meal. I can remember a time when would have easily had two or three of these. Not to mention who goes to an Italian restaurant and not have some form of pasta? Well this crazy girl that’s who.
Lunch was
great. Time with the kids was
great. I did a little bit of shoe
shopping at the store where my future daughter in law works. I was hoping to find another pair of running
shoes but nothing really hit me at just what I was looking for.
By the time
we left my son’s home I was tired and all I was thinking about is getting home and
call it a day. I still had about 200
calories that I could have used but to be honest I was more tired than I was
hungry. We did stop for gas and a hot dog, mine no bun, and it homeward bound.
So this
morning I woke up just feeling like it was going to be a good day. I didn't dread the weigh in. I didn't think too much about it. I went to church and had a great time. I had worked hard this week and I was
done. It was time for the results.
Ok now I don’t
know if you remember on Tuesday night I was upset about being up in weight, but
I never told you how much. Well from the
last official weigh in till that night I was back up 5 lbs. That was what I was down from the last weigh
in. Today I was just hoping that I had “broke
even”.
So what
happened? I was down 11 lbs since the
weigh in on Tuesday night that had me so upset.
This meant that I put 5 lbs down for my official weigh in this
time. That was the most I had posted toward the contest yet.
So now since Dec 30th I am down 27 lbs. And on the contest I am officially down 13 lbs. I may not win the contest but one lb at a time I am winning back my life. And it feels good. Who’s with me?
So now since Dec 30th I am down 27 lbs. And on the contest I am officially down 13 lbs. I may not win the contest but one lb at a time I am winning back my life. And it feels good. Who’s with me?
Saturday, February 15, 2014
2-15-14
Tonight was short is going to be short and sweet. I traveled to Lawton to see my son and daughter in law to be. After having a "short" night and the rest of the difference of the day I am tired.
I haven't been feeling great today. This tummy thing kicking in again. I could say it's bothering me ... at the same time maybe it will help my weigh in tomorrow lol
I didn't do any last change workout today. It may come back to bite me but I'm not worried about it. I have push harder this week and I'm ok. Today is the first day in a while that I have really felt good. I have a peace again that I haven't felt in a while. I had a breakthrough today that made me realize somethings. I'm not really in this journey for me. I'll write more about it tomorrow.
I did ok with my nutrition. I was in my calorie range. I ate some things that was outta my norm but again, I'm ok with that too.
I don't know what will happen for the weigh in but what ever happens I will give God the glory because he gives me the peace I need. Of course I want to see a lower number. I would be so EXCITED if it were a double digit. I just don't see that happening. After all earlier this week it was showing me back up. It bothered me at the time but I am getting past that. I am better in many ways that I have not been in a while. Overall I am starting to feel better. I have more endurance in the gym and my nutrition is on the right track. I am working on tweaking some of this stuff but that will all happen in time.
Well maybe this wasn't as short as I thought but I had plenty more but I need some rest for now. nite all
I haven't been feeling great today. This tummy thing kicking in again. I could say it's bothering me ... at the same time maybe it will help my weigh in tomorrow lol
I didn't do any last change workout today. It may come back to bite me but I'm not worried about it. I have push harder this week and I'm ok. Today is the first day in a while that I have really felt good. I have a peace again that I haven't felt in a while. I had a breakthrough today that made me realize somethings. I'm not really in this journey for me. I'll write more about it tomorrow.
I did ok with my nutrition. I was in my calorie range. I ate some things that was outta my norm but again, I'm ok with that too.
I don't know what will happen for the weigh in but what ever happens I will give God the glory because he gives me the peace I need. Of course I want to see a lower number. I would be so EXCITED if it were a double digit. I just don't see that happening. After all earlier this week it was showing me back up. It bothered me at the time but I am getting past that. I am better in many ways that I have not been in a while. Overall I am starting to feel better. I have more endurance in the gym and my nutrition is on the right track. I am working on tweaking some of this stuff but that will all happen in time.
Well maybe this wasn't as short as I thought but I had plenty more but I need some rest for now. nite all
Friday, February 14, 2014
2-14-14
Today was a good day. It's been a while since I was able to say that. I had a really good talk with my trainer and he has given me a few new things to try. I'm hoping this kicks me up a notch.
The day did start sluggish. Last night was another sleepless time. I probably pushed harder than I should have. I knew it when I was doing it. I knew it when I felt the twinges in my knee. I know it when it popped. Even though I knew I should have stopped I kept going till the knee would hold up and I had to make myself stop.
I was so tired I didn't take my calcium/magnesium before bed. I have found a couple of those at bed time really helps. Then again I am not sure even that would help much last night. I was so tired when I came in I never even got off the couch when I was done eating. Fell asleep and there I stayed till about 3 this morning. Then, once again, I couldn't get back to sleep for a while. I could not get comfortable because my knee was hurting.
When I woke up this morning, after finally getting back to sleep, I was still have mild pain in it. I kept thinking I had done gone to far. I was letting it get to me. I was using as an excuse not to do anything. I had planned on getting to the gym for some cardio before my training session. That didn't happen. I made excuse and then remembered I need to stop by the Dr office for my meds. By the time I had gotten myself to move and do this it was time for training with James.
When I got there we had a good talk about everything that was going on. And then it was off to grab the boxing gloves. I had plenty I wanted to get punched out. The plan was doing an hour but I had something come up that I had to cut it short at 30 minutes. The great part about it though was when I realized I had burned 336 calories in just 30 minutes of training. That's almost twice what I do on a bike in the same time. I also realized that my knee wasn't bothering me to bad at that time.
After that I had came home for a nap. Well lunch and a nap. I was sleepy tired from last night and the great workout. I had told a friend that I would be going to Bodycombat class but after the nap I wasn't motivated. I was back to looking for excuses but it wasn't meant to be. My friend contacted me to make sure I was going to meet her there. So at the last possible minute I was off for class and was really glad I did. I am still struggling with keeping up but I just keep moving. I did manage to burn off another 527 calories and I really did feel good when I was done. I think the cloud is starting lift up a bit. I actually can say I feel good. I am really happy about the day. Good nutrition and two good workouts. Tomorrow last chance workout :D
The day did start sluggish. Last night was another sleepless time. I probably pushed harder than I should have. I knew it when I was doing it. I knew it when I felt the twinges in my knee. I know it when it popped. Even though I knew I should have stopped I kept going till the knee would hold up and I had to make myself stop.
I was so tired I didn't take my calcium/magnesium before bed. I have found a couple of those at bed time really helps. Then again I am not sure even that would help much last night. I was so tired when I came in I never even got off the couch when I was done eating. Fell asleep and there I stayed till about 3 this morning. Then, once again, I couldn't get back to sleep for a while. I could not get comfortable because my knee was hurting.
When I woke up this morning, after finally getting back to sleep, I was still have mild pain in it. I kept thinking I had done gone to far. I was letting it get to me. I was using as an excuse not to do anything. I had planned on getting to the gym for some cardio before my training session. That didn't happen. I made excuse and then remembered I need to stop by the Dr office for my meds. By the time I had gotten myself to move and do this it was time for training with James.
When I got there we had a good talk about everything that was going on. And then it was off to grab the boxing gloves. I had plenty I wanted to get punched out. The plan was doing an hour but I had something come up that I had to cut it short at 30 minutes. The great part about it though was when I realized I had burned 336 calories in just 30 minutes of training. That's almost twice what I do on a bike in the same time. I also realized that my knee wasn't bothering me to bad at that time.
After that I had came home for a nap. Well lunch and a nap. I was sleepy tired from last night and the great workout. I had told a friend that I would be going to Bodycombat class but after the nap I wasn't motivated. I was back to looking for excuses but it wasn't meant to be. My friend contacted me to make sure I was going to meet her there. So at the last possible minute I was off for class and was really glad I did. I am still struggling with keeping up but I just keep moving. I did manage to burn off another 527 calories and I really did feel good when I was done. I think the cloud is starting lift up a bit. I actually can say I feel good. I am really happy about the day. Good nutrition and two good workouts. Tomorrow last chance workout :D
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