ok so today was ok .. it's halloween ... I didnt cave to bad. I've had a hunger for some chocolate for a few days now and had a mini kit kat ... and butterfinger .... oh and a hershey ... and .. nope that's all.
The day started off ok. I got up early enough to have breakfast. Yeah my good ole standby of eggs n wheat toast. Early break?? oh yeah bacon biscuit and a piece of sausage. I know I wanted to stay away from carbs but I'm still working on it.
Lunch I did walk for 20 minutes. I was thinking I would walk more but by that time my ankle was hurting and didn't want to push toooo much. I knew I would be on my feet for a while tonight at the church for the halloween carnival ... aahhmm sorry the trick or trunk :D I did stay there for about an hour n half. I'm getting too old to stay up to long ya know :D
Dinner I did come home and have some baked chicken, leftovers from Sunday lunch, then off to the church. Nope I didn't eat any candy there .. or any bad stuff... for that matter I didn't eat anything. I was good :D
So this is probably one of the shortest blogs I've done but here it is. I am trying to get back on track. I want to keep up with at least a short post if nothing else to be a reminder of where I am going and where I've been. I can look back and see the good an bad that has gotten me to where I am. I can chart where I am going. It all starts with a plan.
Say a prayer, stand back an cheer me on.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Tue 10-30-12 ... day 1
Yes you read that right. Day 1!!
I made the decision last night to kick my butt and get this going. This is probably short unless I find a rabbit to chase.
I started off ok. I had eggs and whole wheat toast for breakfast. My early morning break I had a few strips of bacon and a slice of sausage. I know not the best choice but if you had seen what the choices were you'd done the same thing.
By lunchtime I really didn't want to eat. I know it's not good to skip meals but I had a heavy heart and did something else. Just after my early morning break I heard the news that I lost someone that was dear to me. I called him "my hero" he called me the Chicken Lady. You would have to of known our relationship to get that one. He was like a Dad to me. He wife is super special too.
So by lunchtime I went outside to try and call the family but wasn't able to contact them. As I was sitting there I got up and just started to walk. My thoughts were on Garvin and how much he meant to me, and how much I've missed him and will miss him.
The afternoon was a bit of a blur to be honest and before I knew it it was time to come home. I was able to reach the family and got to talk the sweetest lady, his wife. They have been such a blessing in my life. She and I laughed and talked about Garvin how things had been the past few weeks. A much needed conversation.
Once I was home I really didn't feel like eating but I knew I needed to. Baked some parmesan chicken and peas. Nope that was two separate things :/. Thought my son would be home but found I was eating alone again. It's ok I use to do it all the time.
It would have been easy to do an emotional eating time tonight but I have been pretty good. I did go back and get an additional piece of chicken but then wrapped them an put them in the fridge. I don't like cold chicken all that well and I'm to lazy tonight to warm it up ... even in the microwave.
So the eating habits weren't the best today. The food choices were ok. I guess the best thing I did was actually get in my 30 min of exercise.
As I was walking I realized I had been doing what I use to do before I got started. I realized I need to get back to where I started this journey. When I started in Jan 2011 I did not go to the gym. I did not take stairs, up or down. I didn't do a lot of things. I did change my eating habits and felt better which lead me to start walking. It was a day much like today.
I have been using the excuse that I can not do the walking like I had been because of my ankle. Today I didn't care. At first it was I needed to walk off what I was feeling. Then it was like Garvin was walking with me. I could hear his laugh when I had "stupid" thoughts .. something like he did when we talked. I remembered how he was happy for me when I talked about how well I had been doing. Had been doing. HAD been doing. I had been walking when I couldn't bring myself to go to the gym. Several times I told myself I could walk thru the pain. When I was done I took something for it. So I kept going. Just me an Garvin :D
So today is day one. DAY ONE!! of getting back to where I started. When I don't make it to the gym in the am I will find a way to walk at least 30 min some time in the day. I will do this. Not for anyone else but me.
Say a prayer, stand back, and cheer me on.
I made the decision last night to kick my butt and get this going. This is probably short unless I find a rabbit to chase.
I started off ok. I had eggs and whole wheat toast for breakfast. My early morning break I had a few strips of bacon and a slice of sausage. I know not the best choice but if you had seen what the choices were you'd done the same thing.
By lunchtime I really didn't want to eat. I know it's not good to skip meals but I had a heavy heart and did something else. Just after my early morning break I heard the news that I lost someone that was dear to me. I called him "my hero" he called me the Chicken Lady. You would have to of known our relationship to get that one. He was like a Dad to me. He wife is super special too.
So by lunchtime I went outside to try and call the family but wasn't able to contact them. As I was sitting there I got up and just started to walk. My thoughts were on Garvin and how much he meant to me, and how much I've missed him and will miss him.
The afternoon was a bit of a blur to be honest and before I knew it it was time to come home. I was able to reach the family and got to talk the sweetest lady, his wife. They have been such a blessing in my life. She and I laughed and talked about Garvin how things had been the past few weeks. A much needed conversation.
Once I was home I really didn't feel like eating but I knew I needed to. Baked some parmesan chicken and peas. Nope that was two separate things :/. Thought my son would be home but found I was eating alone again. It's ok I use to do it all the time.
It would have been easy to do an emotional eating time tonight but I have been pretty good. I did go back and get an additional piece of chicken but then wrapped them an put them in the fridge. I don't like cold chicken all that well and I'm to lazy tonight to warm it up ... even in the microwave.
So the eating habits weren't the best today. The food choices were ok. I guess the best thing I did was actually get in my 30 min of exercise.
As I was walking I realized I had been doing what I use to do before I got started. I realized I need to get back to where I started this journey. When I started in Jan 2011 I did not go to the gym. I did not take stairs, up or down. I didn't do a lot of things. I did change my eating habits and felt better which lead me to start walking. It was a day much like today.
I have been using the excuse that I can not do the walking like I had been because of my ankle. Today I didn't care. At first it was I needed to walk off what I was feeling. Then it was like Garvin was walking with me. I could hear his laugh when I had "stupid" thoughts .. something like he did when we talked. I remembered how he was happy for me when I talked about how well I had been doing. Had been doing. HAD been doing. I had been walking when I couldn't bring myself to go to the gym. Several times I told myself I could walk thru the pain. When I was done I took something for it. So I kept going. Just me an Garvin :D
So today is day one. DAY ONE!! of getting back to where I started. When I don't make it to the gym in the am I will find a way to walk at least 30 min some time in the day. I will do this. Not for anyone else but me.
Say a prayer, stand back, and cheer me on.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Monday 11-29-12
I'm ashamed to say I fell. I thought by making myself do this blog it would help me to keep up and stay on track. It didn't. As most things in my life I do start off really well but seem to lose it before I make it to my goal. I don't know why I do this but I get really upset with myself about it. For anyone that had been following this I am sorry. I wanted this to be an encouragement for me to keep on track as well as help someone else see it can be done, even with all the struggles. I lost my way for a while and am struggling but I am coming back.
I wish I could say that I have stayed within my 5-10 lb range that I said I was ok with but I bumped up over that a bit. I do have it back down now, at least when I was at the gym last time. When was that? Almost a week ago. I know I am shaking my head too.
I believe deep in my that this can be done. I am tired of stopping at the gate of where I want to be. I want this to be something that I actually open the gate and make it home. The last big thing I did like that was when I went AND finished college. I almost did it then. I HAD to take off for a session and was so tempted to not finish, just two course short of graduating. I did it. I found that inner umph and pushed myself to get back in and finish what I started. I WILL do it again. This time it's a matter of life an death.
I have made plans and going to do my best to make it to the gym AT LEAST 2-3 times a week. I am not sure I can do more right now with my schedule like it is. I am sure if I tried hard enough I could find time for all of it, but right now I just want to get back in. I had been hitting the gym 4-5 times a week for months and then I let life step in and I missed once. Then twice. An so on an so on. You know the story, we have all had our variations of it. Some several times, like me now. I am not done.
I have had some set back that keep my sleep patterns off but I am working on them. It is time to think about myself for me. Not for anyone but me. I need to be healthy to be all God created me to be and I have sold myself short on this. I have not given it my all. That IS going to change starting now.
I will do my best to keep a daily record, even when it seems that I haven't done anything to write about. If nothing else you may hear about what I ate for the day. Or maybe how work went ( I can always find something funny to write about on that one). I am rededicating myself to this and I will get it right. Stand back, say a prayer an cheer me on.
I wish I could say that I have stayed within my 5-10 lb range that I said I was ok with but I bumped up over that a bit. I do have it back down now, at least when I was at the gym last time. When was that? Almost a week ago. I know I am shaking my head too.
I believe deep in my that this can be done. I am tired of stopping at the gate of where I want to be. I want this to be something that I actually open the gate and make it home. The last big thing I did like that was when I went AND finished college. I almost did it then. I HAD to take off for a session and was so tempted to not finish, just two course short of graduating. I did it. I found that inner umph and pushed myself to get back in and finish what I started. I WILL do it again. This time it's a matter of life an death.
I have made plans and going to do my best to make it to the gym AT LEAST 2-3 times a week. I am not sure I can do more right now with my schedule like it is. I am sure if I tried hard enough I could find time for all of it, but right now I just want to get back in. I had been hitting the gym 4-5 times a week for months and then I let life step in and I missed once. Then twice. An so on an so on. You know the story, we have all had our variations of it. Some several times, like me now. I am not done.
I have had some set back that keep my sleep patterns off but I am working on them. It is time to think about myself for me. Not for anyone but me. I need to be healthy to be all God created me to be and I have sold myself short on this. I have not given it my all. That IS going to change starting now.
I will do my best to keep a daily record, even when it seems that I haven't done anything to write about. If nothing else you may hear about what I ate for the day. Or maybe how work went ( I can always find something funny to write about on that one). I am rededicating myself to this and I will get it right. Stand back, say a prayer an cheer me on.
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