I can't believe it's been a month since I last wrote. I would like to say it's because I've been busy working out and doing the right thing. Just the opposite, I've had my melt down. I lost my motivation. I can come up with plenty of excuse two big ones this past month, the one year anniversary or losing my mother the other the trouble that I have had with my ankle. The past few weeks I have felt miserable. I am really uncomfortable with the way I feel in my body.
I had not had a really good workout on a regular basis in a few months, again I can come up with some valid excuse but excuse do not get me where I need/want to be. In this time I had not stepped foot on a scale and really didn't know if I wanted to. I felt awful but Saturday made my way to the gym. I did get in a some cardio and weights an finished off with a swim before my ankle started to bother me to much.
After I showered and was about to leave something stopped me and I went back to weigh. I was only 6 lbs up from the last time I had charted. I don't like the idea of being up anything but I have been bouncing up an down with 5-10 lbs for a few months now. Thing is at this time I "feel" heavy. I don't like how I am feeling right now. I HAVE to make that change. With prayer and determination I am going to make this work.
I talked with my orthopedic dr today and know a lil more about what is going on with the ankle and some direction on what I can do in the gym. I still have to go back for MRI on it to better determine what is happening with it, but I have an ok to hit the gym as long as I am not in pain. "Use common sense and if it hurts pull back or stop" was the advice. I'm going with it.
I am going to start a detox this week, once I finish reading more on the best way to approach it. I am not giving up. I still have that first 100 lb goal I want to hit. I am now 15 lbs from it but I WILL hit it soon.
Anyone out there still with me I talk to me. Tell me what challenges you have faced and how you have overcome it.
