Ok so today was a good day. Did I go to the gym? No. I have decided if I go at least 3 times a week it's ok. I am not going to push myself to the point of obsession.
Do I want to be down 100lbs when I got back to the Dr on the 19th? Really? Do we need to ask that one?
Am I going to get upset and quit if I don't make? NO!!! I didn't give up when I missed my birthday goal by 4lbs. I didn't give up when I missed my one year goal by 35 lbs. I did not stay down when I feel back after I lost my mom. I am not going to stop now. I have come to far to go back. I love how I feel right now. I am not to my goal but every day is one step closer.
Today my friend Sean made a statement in his blog that is really where I am. He talked about did you find what works for you? It's not about a diet. It's about where you are at the moment. I am learning to be happy again. I'm happy with exercising on a regular basis. Crazy huh? Happy eating healthier. I am not starving myself nor I am in the gym 24-7 to try and make progress. I eat what I want and keep my calorie bank in check and it works for me. I am not losing weight to be the hot mom. (of course I will be even hotter now :D ) I want to be healthy.
So I am going back to where I started. As Bob Harper said "if you hit a plateau, change up what you are doing. If you do cardio first do it last. If you run the treadmill run it backwards. Do your routine backward to shock you body back into losing." It makes a lot of sense. If you do the same thing over and over your body gets use to it and it becomes the norm. Also you may put yourself on auto pilot and not really get the full workout your body needs to keep going.
This week I went back to my shakes. I eat a good breakfast an do shakes for two meals. I love to get the vanilla whey protein and mix with one of my water flavors. This gives me the added flavor and a wider variety of flavors.
On my gym days I have a shake before (or on my way and at) the gym. I make it as a slushy to keep from getting bored. When I am at work I make one for my morning break an put it in the freezer and drink when I go on break. ( I make it when I get to work :D)
This morning I stopped at Subway on my way to work. Yup its a healthier start than my burrito fix. I had the veggie and egg white on flat bread, footlong to get my day started. I had my morning shake. At lunch I fixed one more shake and then went for my walk. This is how I started last year and I am going back to that for a while.
I had a couple of apples during the afternoon and finished off with yet one more shake. All that under 1500 for the day and no I didn't ever really feel hungry. I was eating something going pretty much the whole day and stayed busy. The six meal a day thing works if you don't overeat at each time.
I am hoping this will get me to that milestone I am really wanting to hit. Yeah the first 100 lbs. Don't worry I'm not going to starve myself to get there. I am not going to push myself to the point of unhealthy. Put I am going to push myself. No one else will, I am doing this for me.
Oh yeah, I think I may try and get ready and do a 5k by my birthday. That would be in Sept. Wish me luck :D
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
2-27-12
Yup it's been a few days thought I would check in again. Came home to an empty house so I am taking advantage of it. Hear that? Listen ... nice huh. only sound right is the typing of the keys on the lap and my fan. It doesn't happen very often but it's nice tonight.
So my last report was the 86 lbs off. WOW. I am still kinda trippin on it. I don't see it for the most part but everyone else say they can. Sunday I seen a few friends that I had not see in a while. They really saw the difference. On walked up and hugged me and asked "where the rest of me was" After being a mom for over 20 I thought he was talking about my kids. He never seen me without at least one kid that wasn't to far behind. I started tell him where they were. "no no, where is the rest of YOU?" I hadn't seen him since before I started the journey this time. We had chats on FB but hadn't seen me. It really does feel good.
I have a really weird NSV but I love it. Sunday night I was at still another friend that I had not seen in about 7 months now. I was sitting at the table before we ate dinner and looked down an laughed. I looked at "mom" and said "hey Granny, I have a lap" rofl ... I know it's funny but I can remember a time when I couldn't see my lap.
Saturday when I was getting ready to go to the gym I picked up a t-shirt that I had not worn in a few months. Actually my son had taken it thinking it was his. He has the same shirt same size so it would have been an honest mistake. I didn't think to much about it will I was looking for something clean to wear. I had yet to do laundry. I tossed it in my bag for my after workout clothes and went on my way. I got in my workout and was feeling good. Went to dress after the shower and realized the t-shirt was now hanging lose. Not the baggy lose that most of my shirts are now, but I didn't have to pull an tug to get it to fit.... AWESOME!! NSV again. That's two weeks in a row that I have done that with clothes. Actually have been doing it all week really. The shirt I am wearing now my is hanging on me. I think I could probably fit my daughter in here with me. I didn't realize it had gotten this big. but it feels great.
Today I had a great surprise. One my very good friends, actually like a father to me. I just love him and his wife. He had to leave work a year ago for medical reasons and come back for his retirement day. I had not seen him since last summer when he moved to Kansas so that his daughter could help with him. I was so excited to see him. When he asked how I was doing I just laughed and said " I'm shrinking". I love it.
While I was in the room talking with him a couple of the other managers and I started talking. There was cake that I politely passed up. The subject came up that there were bad foods. I laughed and said "there are no bad food, there are just some food that are not as healthy for you and you shouldn't eat as much of them" I guess as much as I joke around at work she thought this was one of those time but I went farther. The on manager was understanding what I was saying cuz she is there with me losing too. But the second one wasn't seeing it yet. So I explained my "calorie bank". I said I eat what I want, but I learn to budget my calories so that I don't spend them all at the start of the day and I don't get hungry by the end of the day. Not sure she ever really got it but I do :D
Don't get me wrong I don't just over indulge at any time. I never really overate all the time. Most days I didn't eat enough and my body went into starvation mode and kept what I did eat. On top of that not getting exercise didn't help. By the time I got to that part I think she understood a lil better. I learn to budget my calories. Today was a good example. I really wanted to just run thru the drive thru of McDonalds on my lunch and just grab come chicken nuggets. I was in a hurry. I had several stops to make in just an hours time. It's chicken it's better for you than some of the other choices.. right? NO!!!! I ended up at Jack n Box and got a lil healthier option. Grilled chicken sandwich with NO bun ... ok ok and some curly fries. But since I didn't eat the bun I had the calories to spare. I am still within my calories for the day .... YEAH ME!!!
Today I had a nice workout. Short, for what I want to do, but nice. I got in 15 min on the bike and 50 min in the pool. And today I didn't even stop when I was swimming to rest at anytime. I kept thinking how the first few times I had to stop every few laps or so. Now I can go an hour without stopping. I AM getting better. STRONGER .... RRROOAARR .. hehehe :D
I have a full week still ahead of me. One more day at work and trying to get in a workout. Thursday starts with a power workout. Then lunch with a friend. House work and laundry. Then off for a photoshoot. That's just one day. Friday will be a lil more laid back. A short workout then off to work. Maybe one after work too since I won't make it to the gym Saturday. I will be doing photo at what I am calling a grung run. People are going to pay money to run thru all kind of stuff.... mud .. more stuff ... MUD!! I get to set back and watch them get dirty, laugh and take their pix :D That's gonna take up most of the day. Saturday night FOOTBALL!!! my favorite sport really. I just love working with this team. They are a great bunch of guys. And when I stand next to them they make me look small rofl ... I LOVE IT!!
Ok well house will be getting busy in a few. My son came in just a few minutes ago and my daughter is due here in 4 min so I need to wrap it up.
I did see something that made me think today. I know stop laughing I do think once in a while. I then take an aspirin for the headache. There was a picture of a lady with her son and grand baby. The caption was something to the words " I am doing it for them, what motivates you?" What does motivate you?? I want to be healthy an be there for my kids and some day grand kids. But my daughter graduates next year. At the end of football season they have what is called Sr Night. The kids are escorted by parents or others. I really want to look nice for my daughter. She doesn't come right out and say it but I know my size bothers her. I want her to be proud of me, not ashamed of me. My kids are really great.
So what motivates you? I know you want to be healthy I do too. But look past that.
So my last report was the 86 lbs off. WOW. I am still kinda trippin on it. I don't see it for the most part but everyone else say they can. Sunday I seen a few friends that I had not see in a while. They really saw the difference. On walked up and hugged me and asked "where the rest of me was" After being a mom for over 20 I thought he was talking about my kids. He never seen me without at least one kid that wasn't to far behind. I started tell him where they were. "no no, where is the rest of YOU?" I hadn't seen him since before I started the journey this time. We had chats on FB but hadn't seen me. It really does feel good.
I have a really weird NSV but I love it. Sunday night I was at still another friend that I had not seen in about 7 months now. I was sitting at the table before we ate dinner and looked down an laughed. I looked at "mom" and said "hey Granny, I have a lap" rofl ... I know it's funny but I can remember a time when I couldn't see my lap.
Saturday when I was getting ready to go to the gym I picked up a t-shirt that I had not worn in a few months. Actually my son had taken it thinking it was his. He has the same shirt same size so it would have been an honest mistake. I didn't think to much about it will I was looking for something clean to wear. I had yet to do laundry. I tossed it in my bag for my after workout clothes and went on my way. I got in my workout and was feeling good. Went to dress after the shower and realized the t-shirt was now hanging lose. Not the baggy lose that most of my shirts are now, but I didn't have to pull an tug to get it to fit.... AWESOME!! NSV again. That's two weeks in a row that I have done that with clothes. Actually have been doing it all week really. The shirt I am wearing now my is hanging on me. I think I could probably fit my daughter in here with me. I didn't realize it had gotten this big. but it feels great.
Today I had a great surprise. One my very good friends, actually like a father to me. I just love him and his wife. He had to leave work a year ago for medical reasons and come back for his retirement day. I had not seen him since last summer when he moved to Kansas so that his daughter could help with him. I was so excited to see him. When he asked how I was doing I just laughed and said " I'm shrinking". I love it.
While I was in the room talking with him a couple of the other managers and I started talking. There was cake that I politely passed up. The subject came up that there were bad foods. I laughed and said "there are no bad food, there are just some food that are not as healthy for you and you shouldn't eat as much of them" I guess as much as I joke around at work she thought this was one of those time but I went farther. The on manager was understanding what I was saying cuz she is there with me losing too. But the second one wasn't seeing it yet. So I explained my "calorie bank". I said I eat what I want, but I learn to budget my calories so that I don't spend them all at the start of the day and I don't get hungry by the end of the day. Not sure she ever really got it but I do :D
Don't get me wrong I don't just over indulge at any time. I never really overate all the time. Most days I didn't eat enough and my body went into starvation mode and kept what I did eat. On top of that not getting exercise didn't help. By the time I got to that part I think she understood a lil better. I learn to budget my calories. Today was a good example. I really wanted to just run thru the drive thru of McDonalds on my lunch and just grab come chicken nuggets. I was in a hurry. I had several stops to make in just an hours time. It's chicken it's better for you than some of the other choices.. right? NO!!!! I ended up at Jack n Box and got a lil healthier option. Grilled chicken sandwich with NO bun ... ok ok and some curly fries. But since I didn't eat the bun I had the calories to spare. I am still within my calories for the day .... YEAH ME!!!
Today I had a nice workout. Short, for what I want to do, but nice. I got in 15 min on the bike and 50 min in the pool. And today I didn't even stop when I was swimming to rest at anytime. I kept thinking how the first few times I had to stop every few laps or so. Now I can go an hour without stopping. I AM getting better. STRONGER .... RRROOAARR .. hehehe :D
I have a full week still ahead of me. One more day at work and trying to get in a workout. Thursday starts with a power workout. Then lunch with a friend. House work and laundry. Then off for a photoshoot. That's just one day. Friday will be a lil more laid back. A short workout then off to work. Maybe one after work too since I won't make it to the gym Saturday. I will be doing photo at what I am calling a grung run. People are going to pay money to run thru all kind of stuff.... mud .. more stuff ... MUD!! I get to set back and watch them get dirty, laugh and take their pix :D That's gonna take up most of the day. Saturday night FOOTBALL!!! my favorite sport really. I just love working with this team. They are a great bunch of guys. And when I stand next to them they make me look small rofl ... I LOVE IT!!
Ok well house will be getting busy in a few. My son came in just a few minutes ago and my daughter is due here in 4 min so I need to wrap it up.
I did see something that made me think today. I know stop laughing I do think once in a while. I then take an aspirin for the headache. There was a picture of a lady with her son and grand baby. The caption was something to the words " I am doing it for them, what motivates you?" What does motivate you?? I want to be healthy an be there for my kids and some day grand kids. But my daughter graduates next year. At the end of football season they have what is called Sr Night. The kids are escorted by parents or others. I really want to look nice for my daughter. She doesn't come right out and say it but I know my size bothers her. I want her to be proud of me, not ashamed of me. My kids are really great.
So what motivates you? I know you want to be healthy I do too. But look past that.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
2-24-12
Wow what a great day. I got to sleep in from my normal time. The alarm didn't go off till 7am, I was up shortly after that. I got my gym stuff ready, made my protein shake and I was out the door for my workout.
I was at the gym by 8 and was on the bike shortly after that. I was on the bike for hour and a half then swam for the same amount of time. Three hours of cardio to start out the day. Woohoo!!!
After my shower I decided to weigh again. I don't usually do this on a daily basis but I just felt good about the day and went for it. I am unofficially down 86 lbs. I say unofficially because the scale at the gym and the one at the Dr office are not together. Dr office weighs more than the gym, I don't like that one lol. :^D
I have three more weeks till I go in for my 3 month check up and I really want to be down 100 lbs by then. Only 14 more lbs, if I can lose 5 lbs a week I think that is a reasonable goal. Say a prayer for me :D
This past week I went back to what I started with. I am doing my protein shakes in the AM. I drink one before I go to the gym and when I am at work I drink one on my early break. More of a slush than I shake. I use the whey protein that Jillian promotes. I have my lil blender, like the magic bullet, and fill with ice, two scoops of powder and a drink mix. Blend and bamm it's good stuff and healthy for ya. The drink mix I use is like the packet that you put in your water. It adds some variety to it. Of course the powder is the vanilla flavor. I have also mixed with frozen fruit instead of ice and it's great too. They also have chocolate powder too. I like to mix in and set it in the freezer and let it get slushy. mm mmm good :D
Today after I left the gym I took my daughter and her b/f to lunch. I went with the fish and fries and was still able to keep my calorie count in check for the day. We had some good laughs and then I came home to take a short nap before the big game tonight.
In case I haven't mentioned it, my son plays for a local minor pro-league football team. Tonight was one of the rival games. Both team 4-0 for the season. I was really excited and ready to get some good shots. Yes I have to say I did accomplish that. Did we win?? Really??? Would I bring it up if we didn't? The score was 13-16 for the Falcons now in #1 place.
My day started off good and went good for the day. I even found out that my phone didn't die like I thought it had. I was not to happy about losing all the stuff I had on it, but it's just a phone right? When I went to the store one of my buddies showed me a lil trick and with in minutes it was back up an running. Yep it's been a good day. Tomorrow will be too :D
I was at the gym by 8 and was on the bike shortly after that. I was on the bike for hour and a half then swam for the same amount of time. Three hours of cardio to start out the day. Woohoo!!!
After my shower I decided to weigh again. I don't usually do this on a daily basis but I just felt good about the day and went for it. I am unofficially down 86 lbs. I say unofficially because the scale at the gym and the one at the Dr office are not together. Dr office weighs more than the gym, I don't like that one lol. :^D
I have three more weeks till I go in for my 3 month check up and I really want to be down 100 lbs by then. Only 14 more lbs, if I can lose 5 lbs a week I think that is a reasonable goal. Say a prayer for me :D
This past week I went back to what I started with. I am doing my protein shakes in the AM. I drink one before I go to the gym and when I am at work I drink one on my early break. More of a slush than I shake. I use the whey protein that Jillian promotes. I have my lil blender, like the magic bullet, and fill with ice, two scoops of powder and a drink mix. Blend and bamm it's good stuff and healthy for ya. The drink mix I use is like the packet that you put in your water. It adds some variety to it. Of course the powder is the vanilla flavor. I have also mixed with frozen fruit instead of ice and it's great too. They also have chocolate powder too. I like to mix in and set it in the freezer and let it get slushy. mm mmm good :D
Today after I left the gym I took my daughter and her b/f to lunch. I went with the fish and fries and was still able to keep my calorie count in check for the day. We had some good laughs and then I came home to take a short nap before the big game tonight.
In case I haven't mentioned it, my son plays for a local minor pro-league football team. Tonight was one of the rival games. Both team 4-0 for the season. I was really excited and ready to get some good shots. Yes I have to say I did accomplish that. Did we win?? Really??? Would I bring it up if we didn't? The score was 13-16 for the Falcons now in #1 place.
My day started off good and went good for the day. I even found out that my phone didn't die like I thought it had. I was not to happy about losing all the stuff I had on it, but it's just a phone right? When I went to the store one of my buddies showed me a lil trick and with in minutes it was back up an running. Yep it's been a good day. Tomorrow will be too :D
Friday, March 23, 2012
2-23-12
Looks like it's been almost a week since I checked in. So much for doing this every day huh?
The weekend was pretty rough for me. I had my early workout Saturday morning. Had a blast at the game Saturday night but ended up staying up WAY to late. Got up early for church on Sunday morning. Was going to take a short nap and then work on photos. That didn't happen. I just got to sleep when the phone started ringing. What is it about a ringing phone that I can't seem to ignore it. Oh well. Thought I would get to bed early, esp since Monday was my first day back from vacation. Nope that didn't happen either. I started working on my photos and couldn't pull myself away. Two late nights in a row not good. Remember last time I did that. Well I wasn't all bad but I wasn't as good as I could have been.
I don't regret the late night, for the most part, since I was actually working. My photos bring in extra money. Money that is much needed. I had the set of family photos that I really wanted to get finished. I also had pictures from the game that I had promised a few people too. Good news is that I have two more jobs lined up for this week woohoo!!
So Monday I had decided that was going to be my no gym day. This week it was a much needed thing too. After the late night, and sleeping in all week, it was all I could do to get up that morning. Monday night went much later than I intended too so nope Tuesday morning it didn't happen again. Wed morning is a no go anyway, since the pool is closed during the biggest part of the time I have to swim. Thursday I did make up for it.
Thursday was a chore to get going but once I was at the gym it was game on. I hit the bike running, or should I say pedaling :D. Spent one hour an fifteen minutes on it. Then went to swim. I had planned on swimming for two hours. Just past the one hour mark I got a major cramp in my leg and it was all I could to get to the shallow end to stretch it out.
I was trying a new way of swimming, nope I can't even begin to explain it. I was working more of my body the whole time and it was feeling good. Well ... till the cramp hit me. I got to the end and worked it out and swam for half more. All considered it was a pretty good workout. But the best was yet to come.
I finished up my swim and limped my way back to the locker room for a shower. This week I had not only missed three days of workout (that in itself not that bad) but I had also ate things I normally didn't eat. I really was going to skip the scale that day but Thursday are usually my day to log my weight, I was going to let it happen like it should. I was happy to say that all the extra work that I put in last week paid off. I am now down 80 lbs in the past fifteen months. YEAH me:D
This morning I still didn't want to get up and get moving but it had to be done. To tell the truth had my daughter not gone with me I probably would have gone back to bed. I am really glad that I didn't. I got in a small workout, at least small to what I had been doing the past week, biking thirty minutes and swim for one hour.
Today when I got to work I found out my new work schedule for the next quarter. I am still going to be doing four ten hour days but it's the early shift. I will be working 7AM to 6PM off on Wednesday and weekends. I am really going to have to battle myself to make it to the gym. When I put off the gym till the end of the day I can find A LOT of excuses not to go. My days off will be power times. Even if I do only go on my days off that is three days of really hard time.
I would love to say that I could make it to the gym in the AM BEFORE work, but who'm I kidding? Even if I am at the gym at 5 am when it opens that really only leaves me an hour. I know you are saying two hours, but don't forget driving time and shower time. Of course I will need to have breakfast somewhere along the way. At the same time I have decided to do my shakes again, this could be the solution, still gotta have a shower.
This morning I had a protein shake before I went to the gym. After it was Subway. At work I had another shake for lunch. hhhmm maybe this is why I am hungry, I missed dinner tonight. Well that's not good. Esp since I have almost 700 calories left in my bank.
This is not a good time to eat though. I came in and caught up on a few things and realized I am bored. Not that I don't have anything to do, just nothing I really want to do tonight. I try to make it a rule to never eat when I am bored. I don't know what I want. I will eat something thinking "this sounds good" then realize that's not what I wanted. Then I will look at something else thinking the same thing and ... well you get the point. Maybe I shoulda listened to my body and ate two hours ago. hhhmmm :D
I think I will call a friend and see if they want to go eat and then for a walk after ... night all.
The weekend was pretty rough for me. I had my early workout Saturday morning. Had a blast at the game Saturday night but ended up staying up WAY to late. Got up early for church on Sunday morning. Was going to take a short nap and then work on photos. That didn't happen. I just got to sleep when the phone started ringing. What is it about a ringing phone that I can't seem to ignore it. Oh well. Thought I would get to bed early, esp since Monday was my first day back from vacation. Nope that didn't happen either. I started working on my photos and couldn't pull myself away. Two late nights in a row not good. Remember last time I did that. Well I wasn't all bad but I wasn't as good as I could have been.
I don't regret the late night, for the most part, since I was actually working. My photos bring in extra money. Money that is much needed. I had the set of family photos that I really wanted to get finished. I also had pictures from the game that I had promised a few people too. Good news is that I have two more jobs lined up for this week woohoo!!
So Monday I had decided that was going to be my no gym day. This week it was a much needed thing too. After the late night, and sleeping in all week, it was all I could do to get up that morning. Monday night went much later than I intended too so nope Tuesday morning it didn't happen again. Wed morning is a no go anyway, since the pool is closed during the biggest part of the time I have to swim. Thursday I did make up for it.
Thursday was a chore to get going but once I was at the gym it was game on. I hit the bike running, or should I say pedaling :D. Spent one hour an fifteen minutes on it. Then went to swim. I had planned on swimming for two hours. Just past the one hour mark I got a major cramp in my leg and it was all I could to get to the shallow end to stretch it out.
I was trying a new way of swimming, nope I can't even begin to explain it. I was working more of my body the whole time and it was feeling good. Well ... till the cramp hit me. I got to the end and worked it out and swam for half more. All considered it was a pretty good workout. But the best was yet to come.
I finished up my swim and limped my way back to the locker room for a shower. This week I had not only missed three days of workout (that in itself not that bad) but I had also ate things I normally didn't eat. I really was going to skip the scale that day but Thursday are usually my day to log my weight, I was going to let it happen like it should. I was happy to say that all the extra work that I put in last week paid off. I am now down 80 lbs in the past fifteen months. YEAH me:D
This morning I still didn't want to get up and get moving but it had to be done. To tell the truth had my daughter not gone with me I probably would have gone back to bed. I am really glad that I didn't. I got in a small workout, at least small to what I had been doing the past week, biking thirty minutes and swim for one hour.
Today when I got to work I found out my new work schedule for the next quarter. I am still going to be doing four ten hour days but it's the early shift. I will be working 7AM to 6PM off on Wednesday and weekends. I am really going to have to battle myself to make it to the gym. When I put off the gym till the end of the day I can find A LOT of excuses not to go. My days off will be power times. Even if I do only go on my days off that is three days of really hard time.
I would love to say that I could make it to the gym in the AM BEFORE work, but who'm I kidding? Even if I am at the gym at 5 am when it opens that really only leaves me an hour. I know you are saying two hours, but don't forget driving time and shower time. Of course I will need to have breakfast somewhere along the way. At the same time I have decided to do my shakes again, this could be the solution, still gotta have a shower.
This morning I had a protein shake before I went to the gym. After it was Subway. At work I had another shake for lunch. hhhmm maybe this is why I am hungry, I missed dinner tonight. Well that's not good. Esp since I have almost 700 calories left in my bank.
This is not a good time to eat though. I came in and caught up on a few things and realized I am bored. Not that I don't have anything to do, just nothing I really want to do tonight. I try to make it a rule to never eat when I am bored. I don't know what I want. I will eat something thinking "this sounds good" then realize that's not what I wanted. Then I will look at something else thinking the same thing and ... well you get the point. Maybe I shoulda listened to my body and ate two hours ago. hhhmmm :D
I think I will call a friend and see if they want to go eat and then for a walk after ... night all.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
3-17-12
Luck o the Irish to all .. I know it's really Sunday by now .. it this is about Saturday :D
Today was a good day. Well considering I only got four hours of sleep and it is now 2:25 in the morning.
Woke up after four hours of sleep at 7AM. Why? I am not sure. Had a couple slices of toast and I was off to the gym. I made it to there shortly after 8:00. In the pool by 8:25 and swam for an hour and forty minutes. I usually feel refreshed by the time I am done but today I just felt tired.
I was still tired when I got home but a bit hungry so I fixed me two more slices of toast and sat down to work on my photos. That is where I was for the next few hours.
Today was also a game day which meant I would be on my feet for a few hours taking pictures there. I realized it was almost five, the game started at seven, so I took a nap. Not the smartest choice of the day cuz now here it is 2:34 in the AM and I am wide awake. The nap was only thirty minutes, but it was followed by half a energy drink. I am sure church in the morning will be a sleepy one.
I will probably miss my Sunday nap tomorrow too. I have a photo job to finish up and then work up pix from the game. I love taking pix of the games. I only had two close calls tonight, but they missed me ..hehehe :D
As sleepy as I felt today I still managed my calories. I wanted to stay away from carbs for a bit but today was a toast kind of day. I did get a few small oranges in there too. After the game the kids wanted to have something to snack on and the chips came out. I was a lil hungry still so, yes I had some. Even that I was still under my calories for the day.
Oh my NSV :D
When I was getting ready this morning for the gym, it was really humid and I wanted to find something cool to wear. I was looking thru my hidden clothes and found a tank top that I had not worn since last summer. The last time I wore this shirt it was on the verge of being snug on me. Today when I put the shirt on it was hanging.
gym membership $35
waking up at 4am to go to the gym ... most days hard
putting on that shirt like that ... PRICELESS!!!This past year has had some really hard time. I have been up and down on the scale. But today it feels really good to know that I am down 70lbs and I am not done yet. Set back and watch me shrink :D
Friday, March 16, 2012
3-16-12
Today was a pretty good day. My daughter and I went to the gym. I had a good workout today. My plans were that I would get there an hour before the water fitness class started so that I could ride bike. I didn't get going soon enough. I did get in 30 minutes instead of an hour.
When I got to the pool I found that no one was there for the class. A couple of the ladies showed up late but no instructor so I just swam. I told myself since I had already planned on being in the class for an hour and then swimming for an hour, I would just swim for the whole two hours. Since my daughter was with me I wasn't as focused as I usually was, but I was having fun with her. One of the ladies from the class had stayed and swam a lil bit. At the end of one of the laps when I stopped to breath for a moment she asked me "how can you keep going like that?" " I have just worked my way up to it" was my response. And that is what I have done. When I started back in Nov 2011 I couldn't hardly swim two laps without having to stop and really catch my breath, now I make myself swim 20 mins before I stop for a minute. And I do mean a MINUTE. :D
I felt like the tortoise and the hare. My daughter started out actually swimming some but it didn't last long. She would wait till I was about half way done the pool then take off an catch up to me. She would laughingly tell me that she could swim faster than I did and I would happy grin and say " I don't have to stop after each lap". It was all in fun with her, but there are times I've had to tell myself that. Some days I see these other swimmers pass me back an forth. In my mind sometimes I think they are thinking that I am wasting my time. I know they could probably care less about what I am doing.
I did have a nice chat with one of these guys. Remember last week, the guy that I challenged myself to swim longer than he did, it was him. I had about 30 minutes left in my swim and I took a moment to breath. I looked over and jokingly said " some days I think I am getting old". We both had a laugh and started talking about how long we would swim. I swim on a time clock. He swims on a distance clock. I tried that in the beginning but I lost count so many time. I knew that they last time I had counted on a regular basis that I could do a 1/4 mile in 20, average 20 min. When we compared our times, mine really wasn't much slower than his. He had some encouraging words that made me feel good. And no I didn't tell him about the "challenge" ... yet ... maybe some day :D I only had 30 minutes till the pool closed and I wanted to make good of that time.
After we left the gym we were Subway bound. Enjoyed laughing more with my daughter at lunch. My goal when I got home was to clean on the house. I did some, but not as much as I wanted to. I had photos I needed to get done and my daughter went to her boyfriends house for a while.
I did good on my food today till it came to dinner time. I didn't want to get out, I wanted to stay home and work and get the photos done. I called Papa John to help me. Who is Papa John? He brings my pizza. I did good as far as my choice on pizza. I had a veggie pizza, thin crust (cracker thin) and easy sauce. Each slice was only 210 calories. I figured I could have 4 slices and still be under my 2,000 for the day. I did good ... at first.
Once I had the 4 slices I pushed the box away. I sat here working on photos and listening to my daughter and BF be silly playing the Wii. I did give it at least 20 min for my brain and stomach to talk it out, but my stomach said it was still hungry. I had one more piece. This piece put me at 2,030. I turned back to work and tried to get into it. I got frustrated at the program that I was using and walked away from it for a lil bit. Unfortunately this gave my stomach time to talk to me. It wanted one more piece. I argued that it had enough because I wanted to keep close to my calorie count but I lost that battle. I had one more slice. I was glad my son had eaten the rest.
I know at this point you're probably thinking I am feeling bad about it, but I didn't. I didn't eat it because I was bored. I had plenty going on. I didn't do it just because I like the flavor of it. Although I have to say it was one of my better creations. I did it because I still felt hungry. If I had sat home all day and gotten no exercise, or had I stuffed myself all day after doing nothing, I would probably feel guilty. But I have worked hard this week and I don't feel guilty. No I'm not using that as an excuse to eat more. I keep in my calorie count, most days under 1,500. I am just saying that I have worked hard and I was still hungry. It had been 8 hours since lunch and I knew I was going to be up for a while.
I feel good about today. I am not going to sit around beating myself up, cuz I have done really good this week. I worked out 2-3 hours each day at the gym alone. I have become pretty active outside of the gym too. So I can honestly say I am proud of myself. Anyone that really knows me knows that this not easy for me to say, much write for the whole www.com world to see, but I am proud of the work I have done this week. I am proud of the work I have done over the past year. I am 70 lbs less than I was Jan 2011 and I am not done yet. I will get back to the 199. I can't wait for everyone to see me as half the woman I started out as :D
Thursday, March 15, 2012
3-15-12
ok so I had another great day. Hour and half on the bike and hour and a half in the pool. I stayed with just a cardio day. Calorie count great. I didn't eat what some would think I would eat to lose weight but I am just over my 1,500 calories. Since I keep my calorie range 1,500-2,000, I could still have a snack but it's after 10:00 and I really don't like to eat this late.
I woke up wanting a sandwich. Not a breakfast sandwich, but something I would normally pack in a lunch. When I got home from the gym I was tired and didn't really feel like cooking so I had an apple ... no wait two small apples. The were just the right sweetness. So juicy that it would almost drip down my chin every time I took a bite. And some peanut butter and diet jelly. I had the same for dinner minus the apple but added a handful of Spicy Doritos. And drank lots. One thing you can count on, if you drink enough water it will help you feel full. It is also good for you :D
Since I am still on vacation, I am still on MY time :^D Yes I slept in. Well for my normal week day hours. For the normal person not going to the gym I got up WAY to early. My internal clock went off just before 7am. I didn't get myself moving for about an hour.
It was 9:30 before I got to the gym but it didn't take long to get going. And the two people that said they wanted to go with me were not there :( I got the "TV bike" today and set up my hour to get going. I got into the show that was on and before I knew it my hour had gone by and my 5 min cool down was flashing on the bike. I felt good but when I got up I did walk funny for a few steps. I don't know why but my legs felt a lil jelly like.
The swim was nice. I got there and the pool was empty. Yes I said EMPTY. I never seen it empty at that time of the day but I welcomed it. Well other than the life guard had some funky music playing louder than I cared for. I guess had it been something that I liked it would have been ok. I think I am getting old. lol It was long before someone came in, but the water was still pretty smooth.
The first hour went by pretty quick. Well the first 40 minutes did. I only had 1.5 hours to start with and I planned on making the best of ALL that time. I am really going to miss this when I have to go back to work next week. I realized the more I swim the less I stop. I was thinking about the first time I went, just this past November. I use the excuse that I was battling with an upper respiratory infection that kept my breath short to start with. But I had to stop every few laps to catch my breath. Now my goal is to be able to swim 20 minutes minimum before I stop more than I few seconds on my turn around. "don't stop keep going"
If you are reading this and you are struggling to get it going hang in there. I still have my days that I really don't want to go. If I really was 100% truthful about it I would say there is a part of that in me every day. Some days I actually look forward to it. It's hard to get going but once I do feel so much better. I hate to miss a day. When I get in a good workout I feel more energized and I sleep better at night. I don't wake up tired like I use to. Some weeks I only get in a day or two in the gym but even those days are better than sitting on the couch all the time. I am up an moving. Not to mention it's a great time to pray and get rid of the depression.
My plans when I got home was to work on the house. That didn't happen. I did get some junk in the back yard hauled off, but really want to get some spring cleaning done inside too. Tomorrow is my last day that I had planned to get this stuff done. I think I can safely say that I will not get to painting my kitchen this week. It's ok, because I did accomplish my health goals on going extra time to the gym every day. I did what I wanted, workout. This week has been about me.
I know to some who may read this might say I am being selfish, and I am. Sometimes you just have to be selfish. Like anything else there is a time an place for it. I spent to many days, weeks, months and even years always putting everyone else in front of me. I have no problem doing for others. Well that is my problem. I use to feel guilty when I didn't do for others in some cases. It's the good and bad about me. I am a giving person, I just have to remember to give to myself too. This time around it is about me. It should have been about me other times but it wasn't. I tried to do it for my husband, now ex husband. I tried to do it for my kids so they would not be ashamed to be seen with me. I tried it for many reason, really not ones about me.
I still want my kids to be proud of me, not ashamed to be seen with me. I still want to look good. Most of all I want to feel good. I want to be able to walk and not get out of breath. I want to be around to see my kids grow up, get married and give me grand-babies. I want to live a healthy life :D It comes one choice at a time. What's your choice these days?
I woke up wanting a sandwich. Not a breakfast sandwich, but something I would normally pack in a lunch. When I got home from the gym I was tired and didn't really feel like cooking so I had an apple ... no wait two small apples. The were just the right sweetness. So juicy that it would almost drip down my chin every time I took a bite. And some peanut butter and diet jelly. I had the same for dinner minus the apple but added a handful of Spicy Doritos. And drank lots. One thing you can count on, if you drink enough water it will help you feel full. It is also good for you :D
Since I am still on vacation, I am still on MY time :^D Yes I slept in. Well for my normal week day hours. For the normal person not going to the gym I got up WAY to early. My internal clock went off just before 7am. I didn't get myself moving for about an hour.
It was 9:30 before I got to the gym but it didn't take long to get going. And the two people that said they wanted to go with me were not there :( I got the "TV bike" today and set up my hour to get going. I got into the show that was on and before I knew it my hour had gone by and my 5 min cool down was flashing on the bike. I felt good but when I got up I did walk funny for a few steps. I don't know why but my legs felt a lil jelly like.
The swim was nice. I got there and the pool was empty. Yes I said EMPTY. I never seen it empty at that time of the day but I welcomed it. Well other than the life guard had some funky music playing louder than I cared for. I guess had it been something that I liked it would have been ok. I think I am getting old. lol It was long before someone came in, but the water was still pretty smooth.
The first hour went by pretty quick. Well the first 40 minutes did. I only had 1.5 hours to start with and I planned on making the best of ALL that time. I am really going to miss this when I have to go back to work next week. I realized the more I swim the less I stop. I was thinking about the first time I went, just this past November. I use the excuse that I was battling with an upper respiratory infection that kept my breath short to start with. But I had to stop every few laps to catch my breath. Now my goal is to be able to swim 20 minutes minimum before I stop more than I few seconds on my turn around. "don't stop keep going"
If you are reading this and you are struggling to get it going hang in there. I still have my days that I really don't want to go. If I really was 100% truthful about it I would say there is a part of that in me every day. Some days I actually look forward to it. It's hard to get going but once I do feel so much better. I hate to miss a day. When I get in a good workout I feel more energized and I sleep better at night. I don't wake up tired like I use to. Some weeks I only get in a day or two in the gym but even those days are better than sitting on the couch all the time. I am up an moving. Not to mention it's a great time to pray and get rid of the depression.
My plans when I got home was to work on the house. That didn't happen. I did get some junk in the back yard hauled off, but really want to get some spring cleaning done inside too. Tomorrow is my last day that I had planned to get this stuff done. I think I can safely say that I will not get to painting my kitchen this week. It's ok, because I did accomplish my health goals on going extra time to the gym every day. I did what I wanted, workout. This week has been about me.
I know to some who may read this might say I am being selfish, and I am. Sometimes you just have to be selfish. Like anything else there is a time an place for it. I spent to many days, weeks, months and even years always putting everyone else in front of me. I have no problem doing for others. Well that is my problem. I use to feel guilty when I didn't do for others in some cases. It's the good and bad about me. I am a giving person, I just have to remember to give to myself too. This time around it is about me. It should have been about me other times but it wasn't. I tried to do it for my husband, now ex husband. I tried to do it for my kids so they would not be ashamed to be seen with me. I tried it for many reason, really not ones about me.
I still want my kids to be proud of me, not ashamed to be seen with me. I still want to look good. Most of all I want to feel good. I want to be able to walk and not get out of breath. I want to be around to see my kids grow up, get married and give me grand-babies. I want to live a healthy life :D It comes one choice at a time. What's your choice these days?
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
3-14-12
Today was a really good day. I started off by sleeping in. Well sleeping in for me. For some reason my internal clock went off at 6am today. I tried to make myself get up and going, since I was awake, but it didn't happen at that time. I was at the gym about 8:30, after my stop at Subway for a healthy start.
Yesterday I added what I call my thigh machine :D and added stationary bike to my cardio. I start out with a set in the weight room and then to stationary bike. After an hour on the bike I head back to the weight room, then to the pool. Now if you didn't read my blog yesterday, I will add that going to the pool means going to a different gym. I don't mind cuz it's on my way back home. The swim relaxes me while I get in exercise. Don't get me wrong I am tired after a swim and days like today my arms start to hurt. But the water is relaxing to me
Today I only did two sets in the weight room (one set before and one after bike) and 45 min on the bike. I didn't get to watch TV today. :( There is only one bike that has the TV, and it was taken when I went it, the rest you have to entertain yourself. lol. I wouldn't have minded it so much if I could have figured out how to set it. I thought I had it set for an hour but it turned off at 15 min. Of course this got me out of my rhythm that I had found for myself. I started again, thinking this time I had it figured out this time. Nope again it stopped at fifteen minutes. Finally after starting and stopping three times I toss in the towel and went back for my second set of weights.
So now I have made my way to the pool. I found I was sharing half the pool with the life saving class, but since they didn't mind I didn't either. (anything is better than dolphin boy) Surprisingly enough the first hour went by pretty quick. I had planned on doing two hours, at least one and a half. My mistake was looking at the clock. You know what they say about a watched pot never boils? I find that it true with clocks stopping too. I thought it was just my clock at worked that stopped the last 15-20 minutes of the day :D
Once I realized what time it was I also started realizing I was getting tired. I kept pushing myself, I really wanted to make it two hours again. Nope it didn't happen. I stopped at 1.5 hours. All in all it was a good day of exercise and I am by no means upset that I didn't make it two hours. I know that I set my daily goal a bit higher than I probably should have too.
When I stopped and counted my calorie burn it had hit just under 4,ooo. This count did not include the times I wasn't sure of my count when I was lifting and I started over. Also the parking away from the door at the back of the lot.
BTW ... did you know that if I park at the back of the lot, instead of the first row, at the gym I will have an extra 50 steps to my walk each day? I have been doing this at work for most of the past year also but never thought about counting the extra steps. Maybe I will do that when I go back next week. AND... Did you know if you just park at the back of the lot, instead of circling around and around looking for a close spot, you will save gas too. At the prices I need all the help I can get. It's a win win situation.
On my way home I stopped at the grocery store. I would like to say it was to buy only healthy foods, but the reason I stopped initially was to get a diet soda. Yup I don't drink sodas of any kind very often, but here lately Coke Zero has been tasting pretty good. Pepsi Max will do in a pinch. I don't recommend making it a habit, diet or not. Sodas are really not good for you. Anything that can eat the acid off a battery on my car really isn't the best thing to drink. I did get in all my water for the day ... YEAH ME!!
While I was at the store I did good. The fresh produce isle was calling my name. I stopped there first. Well after I got my fountain soda, after I just worked out three hours and I was thirsty for more than water. Now off to the produce isle.
I love a sweet juicy apple and with the smaller ones at 3/$1 that's cheaper than chips. An the lil baby oranges are so easy to "peel and pop" as my daughter says so I had to get them too. I didn't buy a bunch of junk food like I have been known to in the past. I did get the kids ramen noodles. I would like to work on that stuff with them, they don't like when I get on my "healthy kick". I guess they haven't realized that this time around has lasted over a year now. Possible cuz I don't limit myself to "diet" foods. I eat what I want and keep in my calorie count for the day. They know that I am doing this and see how I have changed. My son, the one I am most concerned about, will just go buy what he wants anyway.
Ok so this brings up my question of the night. How do you get your family on board with you? (Keeping in mind I am a single mom.)
I would love to have my kids "eat healthy" but how do I get this across to them. They are now 17 and 20. I have tried fixing some "good stuff" as well as the stuff I know they will eat, what I call unhealthy. If I buy only things that I think are healthy my son will go to the fast food spot of his choice. My daughter is not as picky about some of the stuff I buy, but she does love her sweets and carbs. (at the same time she doesn't have a real weight problem like her brother and I do)
How do you handle cooking for a family that really isn't where you are in the journey? I could do like my dad use to do. He would tell us this is what is here if you don't like it go hungry. But then if they don't eat it I end up tossing it in the trash an wasting my money. When the kids were younger I did this to some degree, but they still chose other foods now.
Another draw back with our family like it is we rarely seem to eat a meal together. I work late and don't like to eat after 6ish in the evenings. My daughter eats when she gets home from school. My son goes from work to classes in the evening and eats on the run most of the time. I remember when I was growing up we all sat down to eat a meal together as a family. I miss that.
What do I do? What are you suggestions?
And as I finish up this my daughter walks in wanting pickles. I really believe some day she will turn into one. Yes I will post pix when that happens.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
3-13-13
Ok so it looks like this is going to be an every other day thing. My days have been anything but boring. I do have to say that the last few days of having the house to myself has been strange. My daughter has been at D-Now with the youth group. My son,... well he's doing his usual things and we catch up here and there. The past few nights I have found myself home alone. I am still trying to decide if I like it :D
The past couple of days have been busy. I didn't ever make it to the gym yesterday but I tried and I did get my workout in. My morning I slept in, since I had no time I HAD to be any place at any certain time. I got ready to go swim for a few hours only to get there and find the pool was closed. The first time I don't take my other workout clothes and I needed them. I never got motivated to get back there.
After I left the gym I went to scout of some new places to do a photo-shoot. I don't know if you have ever really paid attention to someone doing photos on location but they don't stand still. I get in more squats when I am doing photos than I do in the gym. Ahhh who'm I kiddin I don't do squat at the gym. I do however get plenty in when doing photos, esp when I am working with kids. At one point I was actually laying in the street taking photos of them walking. One of the younger boys pointed out that he didn't think it was safe. It was at a dead end block where cars RARELY go at this time of the day. For that matter even less for this time of the year. I had five boys from the age two to ten to work with on this shoot, and they kept me working. But they are so cute, it was the second time I got to shoot them :D
Today, again, I slept in cuz ... well cuz I could. It's my vacation and I am doing what I want for the most part. I have things I want to accomplish but I will do them at the times I chose to. After paying a few bills and dropping my daughter off at her baby sitting job, I was off to the gym.
I went to a different gym today, actually just a different location of the Y. I usually go the the downtown location since, till now, my cardio is in the pool. The downtown has an indoor heated pool. I find this to be a plus in the winter time. I like going to the family Y because I like it's weight room better.
I had not been in this gym in a LONG time, least not actually doing anything in it. I walked thru the weight room to try an figure out what machines I was going to use while trying to not look too stupid about it. I found my two stand by machines that I do every time I go. One for my adominals and then leg curls. I usually do 2-3 sets at 200 reps/50lbs on each. This was a given today. As I am sitting down to do my second set of leg curls an older gentleman started to talk. I had been watching him and it seemed he knew his way around pretty well, I took advantage of that. When I was younger, much younger, I had a go to machine that worked my thighs. I had not seen anything that resembled this at the downtown gym that I usually go to. So this guy pointed it out to me. He told me to come an get him when I was ready to do them and he would help me. I ended up doing a set of 100 @40lbs for each of those then I was off to the cardio room.
Since the pool was not an option I decided I would ride stationary bike for at least an hour. I love these new ones they have, it's much nicer than the boring one I have at home. I took my earplugs, popped into the panel, tuned in a station I wanted to watch and off I went. Joyce Myer was on to start off the ride and it got me going. I found my inner strength real quick. About 25 minutes into the ride she was going off. For the next 5 mins or so I was flipping thru channels, while ridding the whole time. I ended up on the local noon news and that took me thru the next half hour. Before I knew it it had been an hour and the panel was telling me to hit my 5 min cool down. In that hour I kept a pretty steady pace most of the time, while increasing the intensity of it, and tossed in a sprint here and there to keep the heart rate up. I ended up going 11 miles. When I was done on the bike my legs felt like jelly for a few steps, I can only imagine how funny I probably looked trying to walk to soon after stopping.
I left the cardio room and decided I wanted to do one more set in the weight room. By the time I did those four stations one more time I was feeling tired, but it was that good tired. I went to pick up my daughter and drop her back off at the church, stopped by the house to get my swimsuit and headed to the downtown Y. After a few short stops later, I was in the pool. Yes I know that was my second workout for the day. If they had a heated pool at the first one, or the machines I want at this one, I could have done it all at one time. did you get all that? good now tell me what I just said :D
I only swam for 50 minutes. There were some kids came in (they are off for Spring Break this week) and swimming laps was not on their agenda. I had a nice enough swim and was starting to feel tired. I had a really good workout today and going to try it again tomorrow. For that matter I want to do it every day at least till I go back to work on Monday.
When I got home this time I sat down an worked up the photos from the shoot yesterday. They looked great. Did you have any doubts about it?? lol In all that I realized I hadn't eaten since I stopped to get my daughter. She had wanted a snack to hold her over till later, so we split some popcorn chicken from Sonic. Then, at 8pm, after my son returned from football practice came home asking to order pizza. At this time I realized I had not eaten much at all today. We ordered pizza. Even after having three slices I was still in my calorie range for the day. I burned over twice the amount that I ate today. YEAH ME :D I am going to work really hard to be down that thirty pounds by the time I go for my three check-up with my Dr next month. I can do this
So today I was thinking about a bucket list. Everyone has them don't they? What is your bucket list? I want to drive RT66 coast to coast some day and do photos. I also want to drive hwy1 in along the Calif coast line. I tell everyone if I die before I make it all of those places don't put me in a box but scatter my ashes along the places I didn't get to so they can say I made it there.
I have my goal long term goal set at hitting 199. No not 200, 199. I just like the one better :D When I hit that goal I have a list of things I want to do then too. I want to go sky diving. I want to climb a rock wall (this one I may not wait till I hit that goal to attempt) And I want to an amusement park and ride all the roller-coasters I can get to. Oh and run at least a 5K :D
What's on your bucket list?
The past couple of days have been busy. I didn't ever make it to the gym yesterday but I tried and I did get my workout in. My morning I slept in, since I had no time I HAD to be any place at any certain time. I got ready to go swim for a few hours only to get there and find the pool was closed. The first time I don't take my other workout clothes and I needed them. I never got motivated to get back there.
After I left the gym I went to scout of some new places to do a photo-shoot. I don't know if you have ever really paid attention to someone doing photos on location but they don't stand still. I get in more squats when I am doing photos than I do in the gym. Ahhh who'm I kiddin I don't do squat at the gym. I do however get plenty in when doing photos, esp when I am working with kids. At one point I was actually laying in the street taking photos of them walking. One of the younger boys pointed out that he didn't think it was safe. It was at a dead end block where cars RARELY go at this time of the day. For that matter even less for this time of the year. I had five boys from the age two to ten to work with on this shoot, and they kept me working. But they are so cute, it was the second time I got to shoot them :D
Today, again, I slept in cuz ... well cuz I could. It's my vacation and I am doing what I want for the most part. I have things I want to accomplish but I will do them at the times I chose to. After paying a few bills and dropping my daughter off at her baby sitting job, I was off to the gym.
I went to a different gym today, actually just a different location of the Y. I usually go the the downtown location since, till now, my cardio is in the pool. The downtown has an indoor heated pool. I find this to be a plus in the winter time. I like going to the family Y because I like it's weight room better.
I had not been in this gym in a LONG time, least not actually doing anything in it. I walked thru the weight room to try an figure out what machines I was going to use while trying to not look too stupid about it. I found my two stand by machines that I do every time I go. One for my adominals and then leg curls. I usually do 2-3 sets at 200 reps/50lbs on each. This was a given today. As I am sitting down to do my second set of leg curls an older gentleman started to talk. I had been watching him and it seemed he knew his way around pretty well, I took advantage of that. When I was younger, much younger, I had a go to machine that worked my thighs. I had not seen anything that resembled this at the downtown gym that I usually go to. So this guy pointed it out to me. He told me to come an get him when I was ready to do them and he would help me. I ended up doing a set of 100 @40lbs for each of those then I was off to the cardio room.
Since the pool was not an option I decided I would ride stationary bike for at least an hour. I love these new ones they have, it's much nicer than the boring one I have at home. I took my earplugs, popped into the panel, tuned in a station I wanted to watch and off I went. Joyce Myer was on to start off the ride and it got me going. I found my inner strength real quick. About 25 minutes into the ride she was going off. For the next 5 mins or so I was flipping thru channels, while ridding the whole time. I ended up on the local noon news and that took me thru the next half hour. Before I knew it it had been an hour and the panel was telling me to hit my 5 min cool down. In that hour I kept a pretty steady pace most of the time, while increasing the intensity of it, and tossed in a sprint here and there to keep the heart rate up. I ended up going 11 miles. When I was done on the bike my legs felt like jelly for a few steps, I can only imagine how funny I probably looked trying to walk to soon after stopping.
I left the cardio room and decided I wanted to do one more set in the weight room. By the time I did those four stations one more time I was feeling tired, but it was that good tired. I went to pick up my daughter and drop her back off at the church, stopped by the house to get my swimsuit and headed to the downtown Y. After a few short stops later, I was in the pool. Yes I know that was my second workout for the day. If they had a heated pool at the first one, or the machines I want at this one, I could have done it all at one time. did you get all that? good now tell me what I just said :D
I only swam for 50 minutes. There were some kids came in (they are off for Spring Break this week) and swimming laps was not on their agenda. I had a nice enough swim and was starting to feel tired. I had a really good workout today and going to try it again tomorrow. For that matter I want to do it every day at least till I go back to work on Monday.
When I got home this time I sat down an worked up the photos from the shoot yesterday. They looked great. Did you have any doubts about it?? lol In all that I realized I hadn't eaten since I stopped to get my daughter. She had wanted a snack to hold her over till later, so we split some popcorn chicken from Sonic. Then, at 8pm, after my son returned from football practice came home asking to order pizza. At this time I realized I had not eaten much at all today. We ordered pizza. Even after having three slices I was still in my calorie range for the day. I burned over twice the amount that I ate today. YEAH ME :D I am going to work really hard to be down that thirty pounds by the time I go for my three check-up with my Dr next month. I can do this
So today I was thinking about a bucket list. Everyone has them don't they? What is your bucket list? I want to drive RT66 coast to coast some day and do photos. I also want to drive hwy1 in along the Calif coast line. I tell everyone if I die before I make it all of those places don't put me in a box but scatter my ashes along the places I didn't get to so they can say I made it there.
I have my goal long term goal set at hitting 199. No not 200, 199. I just like the one better :D When I hit that goal I have a list of things I want to do then too. I want to go sky diving. I want to climb a rock wall (this one I may not wait till I hit that goal to attempt) And I want to an amusement park and ride all the roller-coasters I can get to. Oh and run at least a 5K :D
What's on your bucket list?
Sunday, March 11, 2012
3-11-12
Ok, time to catch up. I know I had planned on doing this everyday but my life as a single my is just crazy. I know my son is pretty much on his own at 20yrs old and my daughter can do things for herself. Spending time with this is the catch. Some days I feel like I am wearing to many hats to be a blogger too. I have my gym time. My work time. My photo times. My weekly football game that I attended. My house work time, which some days gets neglected too. My family time. and. and. and. oh yeah some place in there I try to get in at least eight hours of sleep.
As I had said in one of my earlier blogs this week my back has been bothering me. I have not spent the extra time on exercise, my gym time, in three days. Yesterday I was so ready for my gym time. My body wasn't, but I needed it. I wanted to spend some time in the gym but by the time I got there I knew that was not going to happen. I made the decision that I would swim for two hours. Ok at least an hour. No at least hour an half. ok ok just get in the pool and start swimming.
I get to the pool and there was an open lane. I couldn't use the excuse that the pool was crowded. I got in and did a few stretches and I was off. I used my normal think things out to keep my mind off the pain in my back/shoulder. I really wanted to make it an hour. I thought, prayed, sang (in my head of course) and said my encouragement phrases to keep me going. Before I knew it the first hour was over. I decided I WAS going to do another thirty minutes, I could make it. I had to. There was a guy, just older than myself that was swimming when I came in. I tapped into my competitive side. I told myself that I would swim longer than he did, even though I didn't know how long he had been there, I wold go at least ten minutes after he did.
After the hour mark and talking myself into another thirty minutes, I went back into my zone. The next half hour went by pretty quick and that guy was still there. I can go ten more minutes, yeah I can do that. Then ten minutes went by, oh I will do five more minutes and take it to the quarter of an hour. I have come this far I will swim a few more laps. Oh by this time the guy had left and I was just playing the game with myself.
Did I make it? The whole two hours? Of course I did. I had come this far I might as well finish out the hour. Now this two hour swim was not swim a few laps and sit and rest for the time it takes to swim a few laps. I swam the whole time. The most amount of time that I rested at any given time was less than a minute. My shoulder/back would start to hurt and I would stretch some more and go again. This was a record for me. Two hours. Did you hear me?? TWO HOURS? Yes my body hurt last night, but it was that good hurt. The one that you know will pay off in the end.
This morning I got the kids ready. I had my 2 y/o great niece and my 5y/o great nephew to get ready for church. I made it up for the time change but was not use to getting them ready. After church it was time for Chuckie Cheese. I think some didn't like parents. They its a place where a kid can be a kid... oh it is... I am tired from that.
So my normal Sunday afternoon nap time has passed and I still have to go help a friend remodel their house. Something about hanging sheetrock does not sound like fun but I need the "exercise" and I want to help my friend cuz she's always there for me when I really need her.
I hope all is well ... have a great Sunday.
As I had said in one of my earlier blogs this week my back has been bothering me. I have not spent the extra time on exercise, my gym time, in three days. Yesterday I was so ready for my gym time. My body wasn't, but I needed it. I wanted to spend some time in the gym but by the time I got there I knew that was not going to happen. I made the decision that I would swim for two hours. Ok at least an hour. No at least hour an half. ok ok just get in the pool and start swimming.
I get to the pool and there was an open lane. I couldn't use the excuse that the pool was crowded. I got in and did a few stretches and I was off. I used my normal think things out to keep my mind off the pain in my back/shoulder. I really wanted to make it an hour. I thought, prayed, sang (in my head of course) and said my encouragement phrases to keep me going. Before I knew it the first hour was over. I decided I WAS going to do another thirty minutes, I could make it. I had to. There was a guy, just older than myself that was swimming when I came in. I tapped into my competitive side. I told myself that I would swim longer than he did, even though I didn't know how long he had been there, I wold go at least ten minutes after he did.
After the hour mark and talking myself into another thirty minutes, I went back into my zone. The next half hour went by pretty quick and that guy was still there. I can go ten more minutes, yeah I can do that. Then ten minutes went by, oh I will do five more minutes and take it to the quarter of an hour. I have come this far I will swim a few more laps. Oh by this time the guy had left and I was just playing the game with myself.
Did I make it? The whole two hours? Of course I did. I had come this far I might as well finish out the hour. Now this two hour swim was not swim a few laps and sit and rest for the time it takes to swim a few laps. I swam the whole time. The most amount of time that I rested at any given time was less than a minute. My shoulder/back would start to hurt and I would stretch some more and go again. This was a record for me. Two hours. Did you hear me?? TWO HOURS? Yes my body hurt last night, but it was that good hurt. The one that you know will pay off in the end.
This morning I got the kids ready. I had my 2 y/o great niece and my 5y/o great nephew to get ready for church. I made it up for the time change but was not use to getting them ready. After church it was time for Chuckie Cheese. I think some didn't like parents. They its a place where a kid can be a kid... oh it is... I am tired from that.
So my normal Sunday afternoon nap time has passed and I still have to go help a friend remodel their house. Something about hanging sheetrock does not sound like fun but I need the "exercise" and I want to help my friend cuz she's always there for me when I really need her.
I hope all is well ... have a great Sunday.
Friday, March 9, 2012
3-8-10 / 3-9-12
- Don't stop keep going.
- Don't give up cuz the storm is here, the reward is just around the corner.
- It doesn't matter what you do just keep moving.
- I can do all things thru Christ.
- You deserve the best.
- I must have lost my mind.
- Do I really want this or am I bored?
- "wow you are looking really good"
- "I bet you feel a lot better"
- "I am jealous of how much you have lost"
- "what are you doing you look like you have lost weight"
- "You are doing such a good job, way to go"
- "I am proud of you"
- "you have such courage to do this"
- What would people think if I stopped now?
- Would the people that said I inspired them stop if I did?
- If my weight was to go back up my health would go back down.
These are things that go thru my mind when I feel like giving up. Don't get me wrong I am doing this for me. I want this. I need this. I want to be able to "live" without all the drawbacks of being obese. I never asked for anyone to put me on a pedestal but I have people that are obese like me that see it can be done. To be honest I never thought I would come this far. I wanted it. Anyone that has attempted weight loss will understand that. I had tried it so many times and had some progress only to fall back and gain even more back. When I started I didn't really tell anyone what I was doing it. It wasn't until about five months in when I did start talking about it, about the time people started noticing that I had made progress. Until that point I had only talked to maybe two or three people about what I was doing. They seen me walking at work and would smile, but no one really said anything about it, probably because they had seen it before.
I had started out just by cutting out whites and sugars, you know the good stuff. I had heard about a book called Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst. It is about a spiritual journey as well as a physical. We are not just a physical being or a mental being we are spiritual as well. All these things work together. For me to say I did this on my own would not be true. You have heard the term "body, mind and soul" yep we have it all. We have the strength inside us we just have to learn to unlock it. God gives us that strength. We can cry out to Him to help us, or get us outta of where we are, but even then we have to chose to take that help. I use to ask to get me out of this.. about a lot of things in my life. When I started asking for strength to make it thu, like when dolphin boy makes waves, I find that strength and get stronger. If I never push my limits I will never grow. It's like when I started in the gym. I didn't have the strength in my knee to do weights, but with pain an perseverance I do now. If I had just sat back and asked someone to carry me away I would never have gotten that strength. Baby steps, it where you have to start.
I can't say that I keep a consistent focus on one thing from day to day. I have tweaked and changed my habits and thoughts. Some days I focus on my body and how I feel. Some days I get focused on my thoughts, and that is not always a good thing. But every day I focus on the spiritual side because for me that is where my strength comes from. I know it's my choice on everything I do, but without the wisdom and strength to make those choices I would .... well I would be where I have been for too long ... obese.
I know, today my thought were all over the place, probably cuz I have not been to the gym today yet. Remember that is where I collect my thoughts? But today starts the first of my ten days off. Yeah VACATION :D Or should I say my staycation? I am not going anywhere. I have jobs around the house, paint the kitchen, spring cleaning ... stuff. I do plan on getting to get to the gym everyday. I want to be down 30 lbs by my next Dr visit. It's not an over achiever goal, it's my three month check up. Wish me luck
What are you short term goals? What are your thoughts? Have you made a goal, of anything, not just weight lose? How are you going to make it there? Start with baby steps.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
3-7-12
Today would have been a good day if my back wasn't hurting me. I have been having a spasm and I am not happy with it. :( I guess I should have gotten to the gym and did the treadmill cuz now I don't really feel like moving much less working out. I didn't do any extra exercise for the day and I feel sluggish. I don't know if it's from that or my back but as soon as I get done with this I am going to bed.
I know I said this before but I am saying it again. The more I blog the more I see about myself. If there is anyone reading this that is struggling with anything give it a try. You don't have to post it on line but do it for you. It helps to clear out your thoughts and keep them in some sort of order. I have tried to think about stuff at times but my mind goes all over the place. My ADD kicks in and I get lost on some bunny trail and may never get back. I do it some on here but when I realize it I can go back and get on track.
This morning I took my daughter to breakfast. She had biscuits an gravy, I really wanted that but I didn't want to eat that much on carbs. I don't know that what I had was any less carbs but it did have more protein. Chicken fried steak platter. It was a small steak,biscuit, eggs, and hash browns. I enjoyed every bite. My lunch I had some roasted chicken again, same for dinner with some mixed veggies. When I got home I did have my PBJ in a bowl ... yyuummmyy. I still stayed in my calories for the day. I did keep count on my water. I have a 32 oz glass that I filled, and drank, three times at work. I think I may be floating lol.
If I can make it thru the work day tomorrow I get to start my vacation on Friday. I will be off for 10 days. I plan on hitting the gym extra time every day. I want to paint my kitchen and do my carpets. I know, I know, not what some would call a vacation but that's when I do my best work. I also have at least one photo job to do. hhmmm I think I am going to post a Spring Break special to stay busy, as if I didn't have anything lined up already lol.
Now it's time to get some rest if I am going to make it to the gym in the morning. Have a good night all.
I know I said this before but I am saying it again. The more I blog the more I see about myself. If there is anyone reading this that is struggling with anything give it a try. You don't have to post it on line but do it for you. It helps to clear out your thoughts and keep them in some sort of order. I have tried to think about stuff at times but my mind goes all over the place. My ADD kicks in and I get lost on some bunny trail and may never get back. I do it some on here but when I realize it I can go back and get on track.
This morning I took my daughter to breakfast. She had biscuits an gravy, I really wanted that but I didn't want to eat that much on carbs. I don't know that what I had was any less carbs but it did have more protein. Chicken fried steak platter. It was a small steak,biscuit, eggs, and hash browns. I enjoyed every bite. My lunch I had some roasted chicken again, same for dinner with some mixed veggies. When I got home I did have my PBJ in a bowl ... yyuummmyy. I still stayed in my calories for the day. I did keep count on my water. I have a 32 oz glass that I filled, and drank, three times at work. I think I may be floating lol.
If I can make it thru the work day tomorrow I get to start my vacation on Friday. I will be off for 10 days. I plan on hitting the gym extra time every day. I want to paint my kitchen and do my carpets. I know, I know, not what some would call a vacation but that's when I do my best work. I also have at least one photo job to do. hhmmm I think I am going to post a Spring Break special to stay busy, as if I didn't have anything lined up already lol.
Now it's time to get some rest if I am going to make it to the gym in the morning. Have a good night all.
3-6-12
I missed this last night, but for good reasons. My daughters friend came by to ask if he could take her to the prom. I think I like this guy, but don't tell him that ...yet :D It was pretty late when he left, since I didn't get home till 8:30 but he cleared that with me before hand, and I had been up since 4 yesterday morning. Remember last week when I stayed up way to late at the ER, yea don't need a repeat of that.
Yesterday I had a great day. I got up and was at the gym by 5ish, I was waiting on my daughter to get up :D. I got in a good workout. There was a few laps that I wanted to toss in the towel and go when dolphin boy came in. I kept telling myself that I can't stop just because it gets hard. I have done that with too many things in the past and I am determined that I am not going to do it this time. One of my larger victories with that was when I went back to college, at over 40, and finished. I was two classes away from finishing and had to take off a session. I was so tempted to not go one with it, but I made it. Granted I now have a degree in Graphic Design that I can not completely use like it was intended, but I have transitioned it to my photography.
Ok so back to my day, now that I caught that rabbit.
My day started out with a great workout. I was feeling the burn. Breakfast? I have been craving peanut butter. Don't know why but I have. Breakfast I wasn't really that hungry but I know I need to eat. Since peanut butter was there I had some. I love to mix some peanut butter and jelly, diet jelly only 10 calories per serving, in a bowl and eat it. No, no bread just the pb&j. Lunch I had roasted chicken and brussel spouts. I actually only ate a few of them, they were done enough. I had the leftovers of the same thing for my dinner. I have found on the days I get to the gym I make healthier choices all around. I guess working out gets my mind set for that, I'll have to keep note of that. See this is why I blog. I think things out better. The rest of the time my mind races to much to keep it all in line. :D
Today was a sleep in day. The pool is closed to a class on Wednesdays for SIX weeks. I know I could go and ride stationary or treadmill after I do weights, but I just don't like sitting still or walking an getting no where. I can do that at home. So on Wednesdays I will walking. I love to walk around the neighborhood and around the parking lot at work on my lunch. I can't believe I said love to walk, a year ago I would never had said that. What a difference a year makes huh?
My NSV yesterday? I had been walking on one of my breaks and two of the other ladies that walk, rarely at the times I do, were walking. Now usually anyone walking at the same time as I am will tend to lap me at some point. When I was go around the corner I could see them at times getting closer but didn't think anything about it till I heard "wow it doesn't seem like she is walking that fast but we can't catch up to her unless we run" They had been trying to catch up and walk with me but I was walking too fast. I didn't even realize it till then. Of course at this point I walked faster just to have fun with it. I laughed and did a funny walk for a minute and told them "catch me if you can". Last year it was all I could do to walk around like that without passing out, now I can do this at a fairly good pace without huffing an puffing like a crazy person. It feels GOOD!!
Yesterday I had a great day. I got up and was at the gym by 5ish, I was waiting on my daughter to get up :D. I got in a good workout. There was a few laps that I wanted to toss in the towel and go when dolphin boy came in. I kept telling myself that I can't stop just because it gets hard. I have done that with too many things in the past and I am determined that I am not going to do it this time. One of my larger victories with that was when I went back to college, at over 40, and finished. I was two classes away from finishing and had to take off a session. I was so tempted to not go one with it, but I made it. Granted I now have a degree in Graphic Design that I can not completely use like it was intended, but I have transitioned it to my photography.
Ok so back to my day, now that I caught that rabbit.
My day started out with a great workout. I was feeling the burn. Breakfast? I have been craving peanut butter. Don't know why but I have. Breakfast I wasn't really that hungry but I know I need to eat. Since peanut butter was there I had some. I love to mix some peanut butter and jelly, diet jelly only 10 calories per serving, in a bowl and eat it. No, no bread just the pb&j. Lunch I had roasted chicken and brussel spouts. I actually only ate a few of them, they were done enough. I had the leftovers of the same thing for my dinner. I have found on the days I get to the gym I make healthier choices all around. I guess working out gets my mind set for that, I'll have to keep note of that. See this is why I blog. I think things out better. The rest of the time my mind races to much to keep it all in line. :D
Today was a sleep in day. The pool is closed to a class on Wednesdays for SIX weeks. I know I could go and ride stationary or treadmill after I do weights, but I just don't like sitting still or walking an getting no where. I can do that at home. So on Wednesdays I will walking. I love to walk around the neighborhood and around the parking lot at work on my lunch. I can't believe I said love to walk, a year ago I would never had said that. What a difference a year makes huh?
My NSV yesterday? I had been walking on one of my breaks and two of the other ladies that walk, rarely at the times I do, were walking. Now usually anyone walking at the same time as I am will tend to lap me at some point. When I was go around the corner I could see them at times getting closer but didn't think anything about it till I heard "wow it doesn't seem like she is walking that fast but we can't catch up to her unless we run" They had been trying to catch up and walk with me but I was walking too fast. I didn't even realize it till then. Of course at this point I walked faster just to have fun with it. I laughed and did a funny walk for a minute and told them "catch me if you can". Last year it was all I could do to walk around like that without passing out, now I can do this at a fairly good pace without huffing an puffing like a crazy person. It feels GOOD!!
Monday, March 5, 2012
3-5-12
If you have been following me on a regular basis you will see that I did not make any posts on the weekend. It's probably going to be like that for the next month or more. Saturday is football and that means a LONG day, esp for the out of town games. Late night on Saturday night and early Sunday morning for church means I need a nap on Sunday night. Games also mean photos, the more I do the more jobs I get. I can always use the money. I love doing photos.
NSV Saturday night. I love doing sports photos, action photos. This year I can move up and down the field much better than I did last year. I can also get down on the field better than I could last year. Oh, with the help of a couple of the guys on the team, I can dodge the players that are coming at me better too. :D I got a lot of really good shots.
The past few days have been pretty good. I kept my calories in check. Saturday I got exercise at the game but nothing extra on Sunday. I have decided thru football season I am going to sleep in on Monday. With the weekends late night and early mornings it's my one day that I will not feel bad for not going to the gym. I feel good today, I got the rest I need. I had a good meal day. Not to bad for a Monday.
I really don't have much to say about today. Over all it was pretty uneventful. I slept in, worked, grocery store and home for my blog and work on photos.
What's NSV have you had?
NSV Saturday night. I love doing sports photos, action photos. This year I can move up and down the field much better than I did last year. I can also get down on the field better than I could last year. Oh, with the help of a couple of the guys on the team, I can dodge the players that are coming at me better too. :D I got a lot of really good shots.
The past few days have been pretty good. I kept my calories in check. Saturday I got exercise at the game but nothing extra on Sunday. I have decided thru football season I am going to sleep in on Monday. With the weekends late night and early mornings it's my one day that I will not feel bad for not going to the gym. I feel good today, I got the rest I need. I had a good meal day. Not to bad for a Monday.
I really don't have much to say about today. Over all it was pretty uneventful. I slept in, worked, grocery store and home for my blog and work on photos.
What's NSV have you had?
Friday, March 2, 2012
3-2-11
Today was a good day. Since my daughter doesn't have to be at school till 30 minutes later now I didn't have to rush at the gym. When the alarm went off at 4:15 I really wanted to hit that snooze, but I didn't. I was hungry this morning when I woke up so I had a couple of boiled eggs before I left. I grabbed my gym bag and was out the door.
By 5:00 I was in the locker room getting ready for my workout. I had extra time and I made the most of it. I did an extra set of everything and added a one. Yeah my legs were a lil wobble when I stood up the last time to head to the pool but I felt good.
I was able to get in a full hour in the pool today even though it opened up 15 minutes late. I know I know the time clock isn't set with the rest of the world. I really get tired of hearing that one, but since I had the extra time I didn't make a big deal about it. In you are new with that news there have been issue with the pool being open on time. It's suppose to be open at 5:30 but it's not on a regular basis. I had several talks with the director and I ended up with a free month. Now the month is over and I guess that means being on time is too. I had such high hopes, silly me.
When I was done I added up my calorie burn and I was already at 2,955 the day was going to be good. On my way home I stopped to pick up a few things at the store and the smell of the freshly cooked bacon was more than I could resist. I had bacon and some scrambled eggs and got a biscuit for my daughter. So now I am off to a good start on both levels.
The rest of the day went equally as well. My lunch that I forgot yesterday, yeah I remembered it today. Hey no carbs today, yeah me. I find I do better on lil or no carbs. Oh did I mention that even though I missed three days at the gym I still managed to lose 4 lbs? Yeah counting calories had some to do with that. hhmmm I wonder how much I could have lost if I had gone those day? AAahh I am not going to go there I had a good week.
So I had an epiphany, revelation, or maybe just a reaction to the boiled eggs, but while I was swimming I realized something. I realized just why this blog is so important to me right now. Anyone that knows me well enough knows I am always hard on myself. I have a tendency to be it all or nothing. I guess that is why I missed three days of workout. See what I mean? I lost 4 lbs but I am still focused on the missed days. EEEEyiyiyi I realize this more when I am blogging. I realize that the things I am probably beating myself up
for, or at least feeling kind of bad for, come to me when I am writing. But I have been like this for 47 years, I dont' think I will be changing this over night. Usually when I start to write I am focused on what I didn't do right, or feel I did wrong, by the end I realize that I didn't have such a bad day. So even if I am the only one that reads this, which I now know I'm not, I clear my head to see how things really are. You ever do that?
I have been on the journey since Jan 2011. I have now lost 75 lbs and I feel sooo much better than I did a year ago. I have only begun. Stand back and watch me, I may melt before you very eyes.
By 5:00 I was in the locker room getting ready for my workout. I had extra time and I made the most of it. I did an extra set of everything and added a one. Yeah my legs were a lil wobble when I stood up the last time to head to the pool but I felt good.
I was able to get in a full hour in the pool today even though it opened up 15 minutes late. I know I know the time clock isn't set with the rest of the world. I really get tired of hearing that one, but since I had the extra time I didn't make a big deal about it. In you are new with that news there have been issue with the pool being open on time. It's suppose to be open at 5:30 but it's not on a regular basis. I had several talks with the director and I ended up with a free month. Now the month is over and I guess that means being on time is too. I had such high hopes, silly me.
When I was done I added up my calorie burn and I was already at 2,955 the day was going to be good. On my way home I stopped to pick up a few things at the store and the smell of the freshly cooked bacon was more than I could resist. I had bacon and some scrambled eggs and got a biscuit for my daughter. So now I am off to a good start on both levels.
The rest of the day went equally as well. My lunch that I forgot yesterday, yeah I remembered it today. Hey no carbs today, yeah me. I find I do better on lil or no carbs. Oh did I mention that even though I missed three days at the gym I still managed to lose 4 lbs? Yeah counting calories had some to do with that. hhmmm I wonder how much I could have lost if I had gone those day? AAahh I am not going to go there I had a good week.
So I had an epiphany, revelation, or maybe just a reaction to the boiled eggs, but while I was swimming I realized something. I realized just why this blog is so important to me right now. Anyone that knows me well enough knows I am always hard on myself. I have a tendency to be it all or nothing. I guess that is why I missed three days of workout. See what I mean? I lost 4 lbs but I am still focused on the missed days. EEEEyiyiyi I realize this more when I am blogging. I realize that the things I am probably beating myself up
for, or at least feeling kind of bad for, come to me when I am writing. But I have been like this for 47 years, I dont' think I will be changing this over night. Usually when I start to write I am focused on what I didn't do right, or feel I did wrong, by the end I realize that I didn't have such a bad day. So even if I am the only one that reads this, which I now know I'm not, I clear my head to see how things really are. You ever do that?
I have been on the journey since Jan 2011. I have now lost 75 lbs and I feel sooo much better than I did a year ago. I have only begun. Stand back and watch me, I may melt before you very eyes.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
3-1-12
Pretty sure no one will read this and if they do I will never know cuz they don't comment. That's ok I am doing this for me. If you stumble across it I hope that you find something that will encourage you or help you on your journey.
Today did not go as planned. I had everything lined up to have a good day. I was going to get an early start at the gym. I had my lunch prepared and ready to go. It was going to be a good day. My alarm went off at 4:15 and my body was not happy with me, not that it ever is getting up that early. I could not make myself move. So now for the third day in a row I did not make it to the gym. I will say it again, rest is super important. My Monday that lasted 22 hours really did me in. I really am getting old. On top of not getting to the gym I left my lunch at home. I did use my stand by at Subway. The guys see me coming and already start making it for me. I guess I am a creature of habit :D
Over all I had a good day. The only thing I missed was getting in a workout. I know that it's very important, it's up there with sleep and eating healthy. As soon as I get done writing I will get to bed a lil earlier than I have the past few nights. I will make it to the gym in the morning. As it look right now it might be the only other time I make it this week. I had been asked about doing photo at the MDA walk on Saturday morning and then off for another two hour drive for the football game. I do love football and taking photos. Even better than I get to see my son playing in the game.
Even though the day didn't go as planned I pulled off a victory tonight. I really wanted to come home and eat. I had to stop and get food for the kids and I was a bit hungry but really hate eating this late at night. I had my oatmeal for breakfast. Had fruit and raisin bran (I sometimes snack on that instead of chips) and then Subway. I get the FT ham, no cheese, with LOTS of veggies and eat half for lunch and half for dinner. Today I had some baked lays chips with dinner. If you have not had a chance to try them you should, they are really good. Nope I'm not just saying that. I really do like them.
Ok so what was the victory? I didn't eat. Well sort of. I came home and got in my comfy clothes for the evening. Keep in mind with the schedule I have at work, and that I stopped for food, it was 9:oo by this time. I was really determined that I would not eat anything. So I sat down to write this. My son came home with some chicken bites. Spicy chicken bites. There were pretty small, really this isn't just an excuse. I did eat one. Just one. It was enough to quench my craving for something. I really wanted some peanut butter. It's seems to be what I have been craving lately. I eat a spoonful here and there, but it was late so I didn't need it. The chicken bite was the better choice.
Yesterday I forgot to mention my NSV (no scale victory). I had gone to my daughters band concert contest. They had the normal theater seats. Not only did I sit comfortably in the seats, I didn't have to turn and wiggle my way to it. It felt really good. I joked with my friend about it and had a good laugh. When we went to dinner I also sat comfortably in a booth. I actually had some room between my tummy and the table, with out me sucking it in. (my tummy not the table lol )
Since 4:15 is early for this shrinking old lady I will say good night. Thanks for stopping in. Hope you have much success with your journey.
Today did not go as planned. I had everything lined up to have a good day. I was going to get an early start at the gym. I had my lunch prepared and ready to go. It was going to be a good day. My alarm went off at 4:15 and my body was not happy with me, not that it ever is getting up that early. I could not make myself move. So now for the third day in a row I did not make it to the gym. I will say it again, rest is super important. My Monday that lasted 22 hours really did me in. I really am getting old. On top of not getting to the gym I left my lunch at home. I did use my stand by at Subway. The guys see me coming and already start making it for me. I guess I am a creature of habit :D
Over all I had a good day. The only thing I missed was getting in a workout. I know that it's very important, it's up there with sleep and eating healthy. As soon as I get done writing I will get to bed a lil earlier than I have the past few nights. I will make it to the gym in the morning. As it look right now it might be the only other time I make it this week. I had been asked about doing photo at the MDA walk on Saturday morning and then off for another two hour drive for the football game. I do love football and taking photos. Even better than I get to see my son playing in the game.
Even though the day didn't go as planned I pulled off a victory tonight. I really wanted to come home and eat. I had to stop and get food for the kids and I was a bit hungry but really hate eating this late at night. I had my oatmeal for breakfast. Had fruit and raisin bran (I sometimes snack on that instead of chips) and then Subway. I get the FT ham, no cheese, with LOTS of veggies and eat half for lunch and half for dinner. Today I had some baked lays chips with dinner. If you have not had a chance to try them you should, they are really good. Nope I'm not just saying that. I really do like them.
Ok so what was the victory? I didn't eat. Well sort of. I came home and got in my comfy clothes for the evening. Keep in mind with the schedule I have at work, and that I stopped for food, it was 9:oo by this time. I was really determined that I would not eat anything. So I sat down to write this. My son came home with some chicken bites. Spicy chicken bites. There were pretty small, really this isn't just an excuse. I did eat one. Just one. It was enough to quench my craving for something. I really wanted some peanut butter. It's seems to be what I have been craving lately. I eat a spoonful here and there, but it was late so I didn't need it. The chicken bite was the better choice.
Yesterday I forgot to mention my NSV (no scale victory). I had gone to my daughters band concert contest. They had the normal theater seats. Not only did I sit comfortably in the seats, I didn't have to turn and wiggle my way to it. It felt really good. I joked with my friend about it and had a good laugh. When we went to dinner I also sat comfortably in a booth. I actually had some room between my tummy and the table, with out me sucking it in. (my tummy not the table lol )
Since 4:15 is early for this shrinking old lady I will say good night. Thanks for stopping in. Hope you have much success with your journey.
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