Wow what a day yesterday. Nope don't NEED a gym to get a good workout.
Ok so can't remember what all I have said about how stressful this past few weeks have been but it has been pretty rough. Just about the time I think it's going to settle down for a bit it doesn't. I think I went a couple of days without anything major happening.
Tuesday night I got the call that no one likes to hear. The message was about my Momma Pat, she was gone. My best friend Sandy had a super mom. She had been like a mom to me as long as I knew here. When I lost my mom this year she was there to talk to and laugh with like I had my mom. It definitely helped me thru that time.
So my reason for saying I don't need a gym? What does that have to do with losing Momma Pat? We were working on Sandy's yard. Aside from the fact that they is a tree that is progress of getting cut down there had been lots high winds and storms over the past week. (just that time of the year in Texas) We wanted to help clean up around the house for when the rest of the family comes in for the funeral. The back yard was full of sticks, branches .. you know yard stuff that we could get rid of. Two FULL truck loads we took off. We had some younger kids helping with it, but you never think about how hard raking is on ya till you do this for some time. Two and a half hours we worked on picking limbs, sweeping the patio and organizing the porch. I think we did a good job.
Sandy always has a home improvement project going, now is no different. She had a stack of patio bricks, not the lil oblong bricks you put on the house, large ones that we could only move one at a time. Myself and one other adult moved these bricks and stacked them up where they had gotten knocked over. About half way thru I started laughing that it was ok that I didn't make it to the gym that day "this is a much better workout". So she said if I wanted I could come move them every day ... aahhm no!!
So just by helping out a friend with the yard work I got in as much weight/cardio workout as if I had gone to the gym for a power workout. I am SORE today but I love it.
Today I think we will be working on the inside, I am sure that I can get in good burn going then too :D I love helping friends out. For all the time I made the excuse I couldn't find time to exercise all I had to do was clean house or do yard work.
What can you find today, out side of the gym, that will give you a good workout?
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
5-30-12
ok so much for being on a roll for the everyday thing, we all knew it wouldn't last lol
I had a crazy,busy long weekend. Saturday I got up and hit the gym bright an early. I got in a good hour workout between the weight room and the pool. I wanted to do more but my body was just not feeling it. I don't know why but my muscles just felt aahhmm tired?. I just had no energy no matter what I did. Usually when I am in a sluggish feeling like that I can work it off in the gym and feel better but the past two weeks had taken its toll, physically and mentally.
After the gym I came home to work on photos and relax before the game. The game was great. The North Texas Falcons advanced to the semi-finals and I am already ready to see the game this weekend. It's going to be a tough one but I know the boys are up for it.
Sunday after church missed my afternoon nap. Normally this would have been no big deal but that night I drove to Graham to spend time with my friends and hit the double feature at the drive in. After the movies we went back to the house. It was such a nice night that we sat outside talking for hours. Before I knew it it was 4:30 in the morning and I still had an hour drive home. I managed to pull in and hit the bed by 6am (later than I usually sleep in the am lol) Monday, after my nap, spent the afternoon working up some photos then went to my sisters house for a cook out an swimming. The outside part was cut short but we had a lot of laughs anyway. By the time Tuesday came I needed to get back to my j.o.b to get some rest lol
With as busy as the long weekend was I still managed to get in exercise and keep an eye on what I ate. I did splurge a bit on the foods but nothing over board. This is something that CAN be done.
I am so excited that two more of my friends have started on this journey. I hear them saying some of the same things I said when I started. "I only lost 2lbs, but I don't want to find them" I remember saying something that like almost feeling discourage and happy in the same time. I had several people around me that had started before I did and I would hear them say they had lost 45-50 lbs and I would be jealous. I wanted to be that person that could say that. The day that I realized I HAD lost that 50 lbs was fantastic.
Right after I got back on track from the set back after losing mom it happened. I went to the dr for a follow up and bam .. there is was. I couldn't stop smiling. Now here I am 8 months later and looking at hitting that 100 lbs mark. Part of my wants to try an "run" to get there but my sensible side says "take it easy" and don't rush it. No I'm not not trying, I'm just not doing anything stupid to push to that mark. If there is one thing that I have learned (as many times I have tried it in the past), the quick fixes last about as long as it took to get the results. As hard as it is for me to make myself believe this at times I know it's true. I didn't get this way over night and I want to do this right and keep it off this time. It's not a diet it's a totally change in the way I think and act.
So anyone that is starting out keep trucking ( I know they don't say that any more but I just did :D ).
I love this, it fits perfect for those day I just don't feel like getting started. For those just getting started. For those that haven't started. Take that first step and the rest will follow. Just do it one step at a time.
Some of the NSV that I have loved to see in the past year. I know for those who have never been morbidly obese will think some of these things are crazy but for those that have you can laugh an celebrate with me :D and I will with you on yours
Some of my favs:
1.Not having to struggle getting a seatbelt on. I still don't like to wear them and if I can get by without them I do, but when I do its a lot easier.
2. Being able to buy that smaller size .. and the smaller one ..and ... ok ok you get it. (shoes too)
3. We all have those clothes that we "out grow" and hang on to for when we lose the weight again. Well I am past those now. I honestly don't have anything that really fits.
4. Being able to sit in any chair, any place and not be uncomfortable or worrying if it's going to break. ( a booth at a restaurant) oh and sitting at a booth with my legs crossed ... for that matter being able to cross my legs again lol
5. I can tie my shoe lol. No really some days it was a chore. Now I can pull my leg up in front of me (without getting winded) and tie my shoe. Stand up with ease and walk out the door.
An last one prob my fav of favs. I found my lap ... I know skinny people I laugh too .. but it's funny for me cuz I lost it for way to long.
I was making the long drive home from Dallas after a game one night and looked down an realized I could see my leg. Not around my belly. Not just from the knees down but my leg from toe to hip. I started laughing I couldn't help it :D A bit later and I was at Momma Doris' house. We were sitting at the table about to eat dinner. She looked over and saw me smiling and asked what was I smiling so big about. I didn't realize I was, but I was looking down at the floor, my lap, I looked up to her " Momma Doris I found my lap" She laughed with me cuz she too knows how that feels
We all take things for granted in life. Most of the time we don't realize what we have till its gone. As I sit here and type this I realize that is another reason for me not to rush through this journey. If I lose to fast I might miss some of the fun NSV in my life. Take that first step and then the next ... you'll get there and I will too. Enjoy all the victories no matter how big or small they may seem.
I had a crazy,busy long weekend. Saturday I got up and hit the gym bright an early. I got in a good hour workout between the weight room and the pool. I wanted to do more but my body was just not feeling it. I don't know why but my muscles just felt aahhmm tired?. I just had no energy no matter what I did. Usually when I am in a sluggish feeling like that I can work it off in the gym and feel better but the past two weeks had taken its toll, physically and mentally.
After the gym I came home to work on photos and relax before the game. The game was great. The North Texas Falcons advanced to the semi-finals and I am already ready to see the game this weekend. It's going to be a tough one but I know the boys are up for it.
Sunday after church missed my afternoon nap. Normally this would have been no big deal but that night I drove to Graham to spend time with my friends and hit the double feature at the drive in. After the movies we went back to the house. It was such a nice night that we sat outside talking for hours. Before I knew it it was 4:30 in the morning and I still had an hour drive home. I managed to pull in and hit the bed by 6am (later than I usually sleep in the am lol) Monday, after my nap, spent the afternoon working up some photos then went to my sisters house for a cook out an swimming. The outside part was cut short but we had a lot of laughs anyway. By the time Tuesday came I needed to get back to my j.o.b to get some rest lol
With as busy as the long weekend was I still managed to get in exercise and keep an eye on what I ate. I did splurge a bit on the foods but nothing over board. This is something that CAN be done.
I am so excited that two more of my friends have started on this journey. I hear them saying some of the same things I said when I started. "I only lost 2lbs, but I don't want to find them" I remember saying something that like almost feeling discourage and happy in the same time. I had several people around me that had started before I did and I would hear them say they had lost 45-50 lbs and I would be jealous. I wanted to be that person that could say that. The day that I realized I HAD lost that 50 lbs was fantastic.
Right after I got back on track from the set back after losing mom it happened. I went to the dr for a follow up and bam .. there is was. I couldn't stop smiling. Now here I am 8 months later and looking at hitting that 100 lbs mark. Part of my wants to try an "run" to get there but my sensible side says "take it easy" and don't rush it. No I'm not not trying, I'm just not doing anything stupid to push to that mark. If there is one thing that I have learned (as many times I have tried it in the past), the quick fixes last about as long as it took to get the results. As hard as it is for me to make myself believe this at times I know it's true. I didn't get this way over night and I want to do this right and keep it off this time. It's not a diet it's a totally change in the way I think and act.
So anyone that is starting out keep trucking ( I know they don't say that any more but I just did :D ).
I love this, it fits perfect for those day I just don't feel like getting started. For those just getting started. For those that haven't started. Take that first step and the rest will follow. Just do it one step at a time.
Some of the NSV that I have loved to see in the past year. I know for those who have never been morbidly obese will think some of these things are crazy but for those that have you can laugh an celebrate with me :D and I will with you on yours
Some of my favs:
1.Not having to struggle getting a seatbelt on. I still don't like to wear them and if I can get by without them I do, but when I do its a lot easier.
2. Being able to buy that smaller size .. and the smaller one ..and ... ok ok you get it. (shoes too)
3. We all have those clothes that we "out grow" and hang on to for when we lose the weight again. Well I am past those now. I honestly don't have anything that really fits.
4. Being able to sit in any chair, any place and not be uncomfortable or worrying if it's going to break. ( a booth at a restaurant) oh and sitting at a booth with my legs crossed ... for that matter being able to cross my legs again lol
5. I can tie my shoe lol. No really some days it was a chore. Now I can pull my leg up in front of me (without getting winded) and tie my shoe. Stand up with ease and walk out the door.
An last one prob my fav of favs. I found my lap ... I know skinny people I laugh too .. but it's funny for me cuz I lost it for way to long.
I was making the long drive home from Dallas after a game one night and looked down an realized I could see my leg. Not around my belly. Not just from the knees down but my leg from toe to hip. I started laughing I couldn't help it :D A bit later and I was at Momma Doris' house. We were sitting at the table about to eat dinner. She looked over and saw me smiling and asked what was I smiling so big about. I didn't realize I was, but I was looking down at the floor, my lap, I looked up to her " Momma Doris I found my lap" She laughed with me cuz she too knows how that feels
We all take things for granted in life. Most of the time we don't realize what we have till its gone. As I sit here and type this I realize that is another reason for me not to rush through this journey. If I lose to fast I might miss some of the fun NSV in my life. Take that first step and then the next ... you'll get there and I will too. Enjoy all the victories no matter how big or small they may seem.
Friday, May 25, 2012
5-25-12
No don't go into shock I am writing two days in a row. No I am not bored. No I am not avoiding exercising ... ok well maybe a lil lol. I just realized a few things today. After my overload this week I realized something really important. Something that I had fears about with my weight loss. But first I have to share something from 20ish years ago (ok maybe 30 now). I know I know some of you can't remember back that far and some .. well you weren't around then but stay with me for a minute.
As some of you know I have had a battle with my weight off an on all my life. It is something that I have come to grips with, well the idea of it any way. As some of you that have read earlier blogs, or knew me back then have heard that I use to be in much better shape. In my early 20's I hit it hard and kicked butt. I was working out and felt and looked good. Yes I gave myself a compliment, it's ok and I am working on taking them too.
I did really well with keep my weight "under control" till I hit a depression. I broke off with a guy that I "thought" I loved. I had a"career change" and I moved from my apartment that I had been in for the past year. Oh did I mention wrecked my car? It crashed down around me and I stopped going to the gym. I used the excuse it's a 30 min drive to the gym. When I moved I moved into a lil country town, nice but not close to anything really. I could have found other ways to get in exercise, but hey I was depressed, remember?
Before I knew it I had been putting weigh back on. At the point I tried to pull myself up and get it together I met yet another prince charming. This time it was different. Twenty years later I had two kids with him (which that in itself can toss the body around) and we are divorced and ... well you can fill in the blanks.
So now lets fast forward back to now. I realized that the "life stuff" that has been tossing me around is the things that use to get me off track. I realized today that hasn't been happening. I know that it's only been six week that I have been "off the wagon" (kids ask you parents what that means lol ) I have been in sight of my choices. Even in all the pain and stress that I have been going thru the past few weeks, even the past year, I have kept moving forward. Over the past few weeks I have been able to maintain my weight with in a 5-6 lbs margin. I am really ok with it too. I am glad it went like this now so that I don't have to keep worrying if I can do this for the rest of my life. I know part of it is I am older and more mature (lol I know I laughed as soon as I wrote it, me mature? rofl) and can deal with thing better than I did. But isn't that the point. By this time in my life I should be able to do that. I should be able to say no when I need to. I do believe this time. I believe in me.
I love to hear that you have been motivate, cuz that makes me wanna work harder to show others that it can be done. Please don't anyone think they have to say or, nor think that I am putting myself on a pedstal. I am just doing what I need to do to live, LIVE my life. I would love to have everyone see it CAN be done. I am motivated by my friends that are on this road and I am so glad you decided to share with me. Thanks so much ... not lets live guys. P.S. I did not proof read this cuz I have work to do. You can give me a grammar lesson later or call an laugh at me :D
Thursday, May 24, 2012
5-24-12
So I have come to the conclusion that no matter how hard I try this is not going to be an every day thing. But hey I'm here now right?
So what I have I done since we last talk? I don't rememeemberrr lol There has been so much of lifes drama that I don't know. I have had all kinds of emotions from good to bad. I have had a few laughs but seems I have had more tears. Seems every corner that I go around something else happens. This person is hurting, that person has an illness not to mention "my wife left me for another man". I cry for these people that are hurting. Some days I almost don't want to get outta bed ... naaa I'll never be like that ... bathroom calls rofl
ok you see that I am trying to find something fun about all the crap life seems to show me ... this too will pass
So yesterday I was just not feeling it. Wednesday is usually the day I do my power work outs but I had to work. I took off time on other days and had to work four hours so I wasn't able to get to the gym till noon. By the time I got there I was really wishing I could go boxing, but I don't think they have it at the gym. So I hit the weight room. (not like that, but that would have been a punny one rofl) I pushed more than I had in a long time. Legs, thighs, abdomen ... I pushed it all pretty hard. Then hit the bike for some cardio. They say that if you want to feel good workout. Normally I agree with this, but I didn't feel good. My body was happy with me ok but my heart didn't feel the same. I still wanted to cry.
Today I ended up taking a vacation day. My initial intent (other than I was really to tired to hear people whine about their bills) was that I would make up time from what I didn't do yesterday at the gym. Before I got out of the house my daughter had asked if I could drop her off at school and pick her up two hours later. Really?? Ok ok I did better at this point than I have in the past. I did go and got some time in the weight room then hit the pool for some cardio but only for half an hour.
See before I made it to the gym, after I dropped my daughter I had some of the drama hit again. Something that left me really upset because I dont like to see people hurt and sometime there is nothing I can do but stand back and watch it all happen. So no the workout didn't make me feel better. Even after the workout when I weighed and realized I am only 8 lbs from my 100 lbs milestone I felt a heavy heart. But enough about that.
Yes, yes you heard me right ... after my workout I realized I have lost NINETY-TWO lbs ... that is only EIGHT lbs off from my first BIG goal. So even though I still felt clouded and had a heavy heart that passed. I went shopping with my daughter and felt "lighter" all the way around. I feel a refuel of energy that I am really going to be able to do this. You would think that they idea of all my clothes literally HANGING on me would make me realize how far I have come but it wasn't cutting it. I did finally have a fire flame back up in me today. I have come so far, and even though I have this much more to go, I AM going to make it this time.
I hit the plateau over the past month and even that didn't make me feel bad. I know partly that it was my lack of "going the extra mile". So I started challenging myself by challenging others. So next time you see me hit you up with a challenge know that I am out there trying to be the good example and do it too. I am walking daily and drinking more water.
So whos with me? I have taken this one step at a time. Baby steps. If I can do it anyone can.
So what I have I done since we last talk? I don't rememeemberrr lol There has been so much of lifes drama that I don't know. I have had all kinds of emotions from good to bad. I have had a few laughs but seems I have had more tears. Seems every corner that I go around something else happens. This person is hurting, that person has an illness not to mention "my wife left me for another man". I cry for these people that are hurting. Some days I almost don't want to get outta bed ... naaa I'll never be like that ... bathroom calls rofl
ok you see that I am trying to find something fun about all the crap life seems to show me ... this too will pass
So yesterday I was just not feeling it. Wednesday is usually the day I do my power work outs but I had to work. I took off time on other days and had to work four hours so I wasn't able to get to the gym till noon. By the time I got there I was really wishing I could go boxing, but I don't think they have it at the gym. So I hit the weight room. (not like that, but that would have been a punny one rofl) I pushed more than I had in a long time. Legs, thighs, abdomen ... I pushed it all pretty hard. Then hit the bike for some cardio. They say that if you want to feel good workout. Normally I agree with this, but I didn't feel good. My body was happy with me ok but my heart didn't feel the same. I still wanted to cry.
Today I ended up taking a vacation day. My initial intent (other than I was really to tired to hear people whine about their bills) was that I would make up time from what I didn't do yesterday at the gym. Before I got out of the house my daughter had asked if I could drop her off at school and pick her up two hours later. Really?? Ok ok I did better at this point than I have in the past. I did go and got some time in the weight room then hit the pool for some cardio but only for half an hour.
See before I made it to the gym, after I dropped my daughter I had some of the drama hit again. Something that left me really upset because I dont like to see people hurt and sometime there is nothing I can do but stand back and watch it all happen. So no the workout didn't make me feel better. Even after the workout when I weighed and realized I am only 8 lbs from my 100 lbs milestone I felt a heavy heart. But enough about that.
Yes, yes you heard me right ... after my workout I realized I have lost NINETY-TWO lbs ... that is only EIGHT lbs off from my first BIG goal. So even though I still felt clouded and had a heavy heart that passed. I went shopping with my daughter and felt "lighter" all the way around. I feel a refuel of energy that I am really going to be able to do this. You would think that they idea of all my clothes literally HANGING on me would make me realize how far I have come but it wasn't cutting it. I did finally have a fire flame back up in me today. I have come so far, and even though I have this much more to go, I AM going to make it this time.
I hit the plateau over the past month and even that didn't make me feel bad. I know partly that it was my lack of "going the extra mile". So I started challenging myself by challenging others. So next time you see me hit you up with a challenge know that I am out there trying to be the good example and do it too. I am walking daily and drinking more water.
So whos with me? I have taken this one step at a time. Baby steps. If I can do it anyone can.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
5-19-12
Well my plan to get a good nights sleep didn't happen but no regrets. I got to bed around 3ish. I know that they last time I looked at the clock it was 3 and it wasn't long after that that I don't remember much. My alarm went off at 7am and I woke up aaaaannnd set it for another hour. I never went back to sleep but I did lay there for about 30 more minutes. After laying there for that time I decided to pack my gym and get going. When I went it my room, which was a MESS, decided to go thru some of my clothes. I had several loads laying on my bed to hang up. Yes I said sever LOADS. I know I know but I am on the run so much that I just didn't get it done. That and I really keep thinking I am going to go thru all this stuff to get rid of what I can wear. The good thing about the statement "things I can't wear" is not a good thing for me. I have now gone thru all the "I'm going to hang on to these till I lose weight" clothes and realized I have nothing that really fits me. I do have a few things that my friend Sandy got me when she went on one of her shopping sprees, but they are just not there yet. I can wear them but I am not comfortable in them ... and they are long sleeve. I am sure that they will make good come colder weather, if it ever gets cold again.
After getting all my clothes hung up or in the laundry I realized that most of the shirts I have to wear are T-shirts. For those who know me very well know I never really like wearing T-shirts. Why do I have so many now? My best choice, they are cheap lol. I can get one for a couple of bucks at Wal-Mart and I have the really special ones that have some kind of event logo on them and were FREEE :D
With the way I am losing I really don't want to go shopping and spend any REALLY big amount of money right now. I really don't have money like that right now either. I am not at the weight I want to be so why spend a lot on something that, hopefully, won't fit me in a month. Ok and I am not the normal woman. Don't tell anyone this, but I really don't like shopping. Even when I was at my best and didn't have a hard time finding things to fit, I just never like shopping.
Anyway, after I got the clothes hung up and a load in the washer I was off to Wal-Mart an to the gym. Nope I didn't get another t-shirt :D I spent 30 min in weight room and then 30 min on bike and swam for an hour. Not what I really wanted for today ( I say that to much, does that mean I am a quiter or I set my goal to high? hhhmm) but a good workout just the same.
My day started off from what I wanted it to be and just keeps going. Late start, skipped breakfast, workout less than I wanted to. This is not a good pattern. But I keep moving I guess that is better than sitting around doing nothing. I will be on my feet all night at the game so all in all I will have had a really active day.
Aside from my challenge this week I am trying to set a goal of sleeping. Remember when we were younger and we use to make a game outta who could stay away longer? I think I did that way to much. I remember thinking it was funny to say " I was up for 18 hrs without sleep". I realize more and more just how important sleep is for you. No, not just cuz I'm getting old >:/
I have read it, heard it and lived this: You can't run a car on empty and you can't push your body like that either. I know this usually geared toward eating habits but lets think about that for a moment. Think about the last time that you didn't get a good night sleep, can't sleep-toss n turn- not feeling well, how did you really feel the next day. I'm not talking after your 8th cup of coffee or your 3rd energy drink. I am talking just getting up and going. You can't function like you need to. Even if you do stimulate yourself with these things you are still not at your best. You may be awake, but you are not really alert.
I am realizing from the journey this time that when I do not get enough rest I usually make poor choices. I don't take time to plan my meals. I don't feel like exercising (which would actually wake me up, but that is another blog). I grab food on the run usually not thinking about better choices, more so because I am running late and I don't have the time to find the right foods. We walk in the convience store and grab a cup of coffee or soda and there it is ... junk food ... donuts, chips, hot dogs, danish. Not say it never ok to eat these things but take time to plan when you are going to do them. When you didn't sleep the night before is not the best time to grab and run and lets face it, that is what we do. Or worse, like I did this morning, skip eating all around. I tried to run my body on empty an by the time I was done with my workout I didn't feel the same satisfaction as I do when I am resting the way my body needs. We need rest, exercise and watch what we eat, it's a package deal.
Today, when I was lifting weights, I thought about the Myths and Truths of weight training. I am think my next weeks blogs will be over some of that. Whadda ya think?
After getting all my clothes hung up or in the laundry I realized that most of the shirts I have to wear are T-shirts. For those who know me very well know I never really like wearing T-shirts. Why do I have so many now? My best choice, they are cheap lol. I can get one for a couple of bucks at Wal-Mart and I have the really special ones that have some kind of event logo on them and were FREEE :D
With the way I am losing I really don't want to go shopping and spend any REALLY big amount of money right now. I really don't have money like that right now either. I am not at the weight I want to be so why spend a lot on something that, hopefully, won't fit me in a month. Ok and I am not the normal woman. Don't tell anyone this, but I really don't like shopping. Even when I was at my best and didn't have a hard time finding things to fit, I just never like shopping.
Anyway, after I got the clothes hung up and a load in the washer I was off to Wal-Mart an to the gym. Nope I didn't get another t-shirt :D I spent 30 min in weight room and then 30 min on bike and swam for an hour. Not what I really wanted for today ( I say that to much, does that mean I am a quiter or I set my goal to high? hhhmm) but a good workout just the same.
My day started off from what I wanted it to be and just keeps going. Late start, skipped breakfast, workout less than I wanted to. This is not a good pattern. But I keep moving I guess that is better than sitting around doing nothing. I will be on my feet all night at the game so all in all I will have had a really active day.
Aside from my challenge this week I am trying to set a goal of sleeping. Remember when we were younger and we use to make a game outta who could stay away longer? I think I did that way to much. I remember thinking it was funny to say " I was up for 18 hrs without sleep". I realize more and more just how important sleep is for you. No, not just cuz I'm getting old >:/
I have read it, heard it and lived this: You can't run a car on empty and you can't push your body like that either. I know this usually geared toward eating habits but lets think about that for a moment. Think about the last time that you didn't get a good night sleep, can't sleep-toss n turn- not feeling well, how did you really feel the next day. I'm not talking after your 8th cup of coffee or your 3rd energy drink. I am talking just getting up and going. You can't function like you need to. Even if you do stimulate yourself with these things you are still not at your best. You may be awake, but you are not really alert.
I am realizing from the journey this time that when I do not get enough rest I usually make poor choices. I don't take time to plan my meals. I don't feel like exercising (which would actually wake me up, but that is another blog). I grab food on the run usually not thinking about better choices, more so because I am running late and I don't have the time to find the right foods. We walk in the convience store and grab a cup of coffee or soda and there it is ... junk food ... donuts, chips, hot dogs, danish. Not say it never ok to eat these things but take time to plan when you are going to do them. When you didn't sleep the night before is not the best time to grab and run and lets face it, that is what we do. Or worse, like I did this morning, skip eating all around. I tried to run my body on empty an by the time I was done with my workout I didn't feel the same satisfaction as I do when I am resting the way my body needs. We need rest, exercise and watch what we eat, it's a package deal.
Today, when I was lifting weights, I thought about the Myths and Truths of weight training. I am think my next weeks blogs will be over some of that. Whadda ya think?
Friday, May 18, 2012
5-18-12
ok so I am going to do my best to get things back on track. never gonna give it up again :D
A few weeks ago I challenged everyone to park at far locations to walk a few extra steps. I personally park my car at the back of the lot at work. Doing this gives me at least 200 extra steps a day, 400 if I leave for lunch. Last week challenged everyone to drink at least 6 8oz glasses of water each day.
This week has become a challenge for me. As you guys know I went on a new shift three weeks ago. As much as I love the hours I don't like them at the same time. I love going in early, but when I have to be at work at 7AM it makes it a bit harder to get in a workout before work. Yes I know I could go in for a short workout BUT I can also do this challenge too. This weeks challenge? Walk at least 30 minutes a day. For anyone that hasn't been working out/exercising of any kind it's a place to start. Start out with walking 3 10 min walks or 2 15 minutes walks. It goes by pretty fast and you feel better when you are done.
So this week I have walked on my breaks and my lunch. Well today I didn't walk on my lunch but I did get in my 30 minutes.
Tomorrow my plans are to get up early and hit the gym. Work out at least 2 hrs of cardio and weight toning. Having a rest an then off the the Falcons game. I love working with these guys. Some of the drive me crazy acting like lil babies at times but I love FOOTBALL!! This will be the guys first game of play offs and hoping for a play off ring this year. I hope they make ... not just cuz I get to do more pix :D
With the gym and the game I will make up some extra extra exercise. Bring it on :D
Today my eating habits are not totally what I could have done to be on track but it's all good. I didn't over eat and I kept in my calorie count. Breakfast stopped for a breakfast burrito with eggs, bacon, potatoes and JALAPENOS :D love it. Lunch turned out to be mexican food. Street tacos (no the best choice but the best of what they had) salad and beans. I really wanted to something sweet but lucky for me they didn't have what I was looking for. I ended up with BIG bowl of fruit, watermelon-pineapple- canteelope - stawberries ... mmm mmm good :D Dinner.. well if you call it dinner. Air popped popcorn ... and all day lots of water.
All in all this week went much better. Don't stop, keep going :D
A few weeks ago I challenged everyone to park at far locations to walk a few extra steps. I personally park my car at the back of the lot at work. Doing this gives me at least 200 extra steps a day, 400 if I leave for lunch. Last week challenged everyone to drink at least 6 8oz glasses of water each day.
This week has become a challenge for me. As you guys know I went on a new shift three weeks ago. As much as I love the hours I don't like them at the same time. I love going in early, but when I have to be at work at 7AM it makes it a bit harder to get in a workout before work. Yes I know I could go in for a short workout BUT I can also do this challenge too. This weeks challenge? Walk at least 30 minutes a day. For anyone that hasn't been working out/exercising of any kind it's a place to start. Start out with walking 3 10 min walks or 2 15 minutes walks. It goes by pretty fast and you feel better when you are done.
So this week I have walked on my breaks and my lunch. Well today I didn't walk on my lunch but I did get in my 30 minutes.
Tomorrow my plans are to get up early and hit the gym. Work out at least 2 hrs of cardio and weight toning. Having a rest an then off the the Falcons game. I love working with these guys. Some of the drive me crazy acting like lil babies at times but I love FOOTBALL!! This will be the guys first game of play offs and hoping for a play off ring this year. I hope they make ... not just cuz I get to do more pix :D
With the gym and the game I will make up some extra extra exercise. Bring it on :D
Today my eating habits are not totally what I could have done to be on track but it's all good. I didn't over eat and I kept in my calorie count. Breakfast stopped for a breakfast burrito with eggs, bacon, potatoes and JALAPENOS :D love it. Lunch turned out to be mexican food. Street tacos (no the best choice but the best of what they had) salad and beans. I really wanted to something sweet but lucky for me they didn't have what I was looking for. I ended up with BIG bowl of fruit, watermelon-pineapple- canteelope - stawberries ... mmm mmm good :D Dinner.. well if you call it dinner. Air popped popcorn ... and all day lots of water.
All in all this week went much better. Don't stop, keep going :D
Thursday, May 17, 2012
5-17-12
What to say what to say. I am here guys. Day wasn't what I wanted it to be but it could have been worse.
Today my work schedule was an hour later than my normal day due to training. This would have been a perfect time to get in a workout before I go in. Nope it didn't happen. I could come up with some great excuses but you know what they say about excuses :D
I seem to keep letting "life" get in my way. Thing here is that if I keep letting life get in the way at some point it will cut my life short. Lets face it, I want to be around for a while ... if no other reason but to prove it can be done :D
Things going on around my house, we will say life drama, had my sleeping habits off from what I would like it to be. No regrets on what I have done, it's just the way things go at times. I know I will shake it off and get back on the ball and get it going. I have come to far to go back now.
I slept in, I didn't eat the breakfast that I should have and grabbed stuff on the run. My lunch, well it again was on the run and it was hot outside so I didn't do my walk. I did however walk a lil bit on my two breaks not as much as I would have liked to but it was something .. right? does that sound like an excuse?
I am cutting this short tonight my computer is just not being nice to me. Also since my sleeping habits have been off I have been again making poor choice. I have said it before and when I stop and look at the root of my problems I will say it again "you GOTTA you rest". This helps to restore you body. You are more alert and are able to make better choices. Doesn't matter how old you are, you need rest to keep the body going and be healthy.
Check back with me tomorrow :D
Today my work schedule was an hour later than my normal day due to training. This would have been a perfect time to get in a workout before I go in. Nope it didn't happen. I could come up with some great excuses but you know what they say about excuses :D
I seem to keep letting "life" get in my way. Thing here is that if I keep letting life get in the way at some point it will cut my life short. Lets face it, I want to be around for a while ... if no other reason but to prove it can be done :D
Things going on around my house, we will say life drama, had my sleeping habits off from what I would like it to be. No regrets on what I have done, it's just the way things go at times. I know I will shake it off and get back on the ball and get it going. I have come to far to go back now.
I slept in, I didn't eat the breakfast that I should have and grabbed stuff on the run. My lunch, well it again was on the run and it was hot outside so I didn't do my walk. I did however walk a lil bit on my two breaks not as much as I would have liked to but it was something .. right? does that sound like an excuse?
I am cutting this short tonight my computer is just not being nice to me. Also since my sleeping habits have been off I have been again making poor choice. I have said it before and when I stop and look at the root of my problems I will say it again "you GOTTA you rest". This helps to restore you body. You are more alert and are able to make better choices. Doesn't matter how old you are, you need rest to keep the body going and be healthy.
Check back with me tomorrow :D
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
5-15-12
ok soooo I have not kept up with like I wanted to. My no excuses isn't working hhhmm.
I tell myself "write even if you feel like no one reads" ok.
"Yeah but why waste my time?"
"It will help to keep ya on track"
"eehh really?? no one cares what I have to say"
"aahh not true rarely goes by a day that someone doesn't comment you on your journey"
Do you have these conversations with yourself? Not just about this but anything in your life. I don't know why I argue with myself so much. Have a I lost my mind? Naaa that's not possible, I never had one :D
So what have I been up to? Working on getting off the "maintain" wagon and hit the trail again. The past few days I have walked on my lunch. Back where I started last year. Not back to that weight but back to how I started off with exercising. I haven't stopped going to the gym but I let life get in my way with "stuff" Why?? Let's face it happens. We all have those days, weeks and general times that it happens.
I could use the excuse that I have not kept up with this because I have not been on the "normal diet" foods that people would think I could lose weight one. I didn't want to get any one off beat for what I am doing. If you read my last post you will see that I have been eating what I want within reason. If I want a donut, slice of pizza or something else I eat it and keep within my calorie count. I didn't do it for a purpose it just eroded to that. I did find that I believe my fear, one I am sure most "losers" have, "what if I don't keep the weight off this time" will not happen. I have, for the past month, been in maintain mode. I have gone to the gym less and ate what I wanted and was still able to keep within a 5lb variation of what I have been at. I am able to hold around the 86lb mark and I am happy about that. But it's time to move forward. I want to hit that 100 lbs down mark by summer. oh man that's just weeks away ..yikes!!
Last year when I started this journey my goal was just to get up and move. On my breaks I would make a few laps around the floor and on my lunch a few laps around the parking lot. I was moving and it was helping. So this week I started using my lunch time to do my 30 min walk. Since I have not been getting to the gym like I had been I HAVE to do something and I feel better when I do. I am more alert, I sleep better and lets face it the long term rewards are there too.
I have to say that I am happy about how far I have come. I know I am not where I want to be for the long term but I have not forgotten that. But something that makes me feel guilty at times is when people comment on how good I am looking and how I look happier now. Well for the most part of this I won't argue, at the same time there are days I feel a pressure to perform. Sounds weird to some, but any one that is a "loser" and have had people say that "you inspire me" know what I am talking about. For that matter anyone that has been .. well singled out ... good grade, good athlete, etc. may have felt this same pressure in different ways.
I have to say first off, I am NOT doing this for anyone but me. I never intended for this to be putting myself on for a show, I just wanted to change my life. I am happy to be able to say "if I can do so can you" because I know how hard it is to walk the road. The reason that I say I feel the pressure to perform because some days I know that I do not make the best choices. I don't want to make any one stumble. I want to be someone that will encourage. This is not all a bad thing, it does help to keep me on track. But the past month since I have not been at the top of my game I feel a lil ashamed when people say things like "keep up the good work". Part of me wants to shout " ok I know I didn't go to the gym today but I didn't want to, don't judge me". Now I know that is probably more me and my self critical thoughts than anything (remember I am harder on myself that anyone else could ever be when I get my mind set on something like this) but it's part of my walk right now. I guess that is part of the reason I feel guilty about not keep up with my blog. I know I would have been doing more/better if I had. I haven't written because, well I didn't do anything other than get up, go to work, eat lunch (sometimes) work some more and come home and do it all over again the next day. Who wants to read that every day. I didn't want to say that I got up had donuts for breakfast, pizza for lunch and chili dogs for dinner (and no I never did that all in ONE day :D ), cuz then someone would say if she can do it an still lose weight so can I. Everyone is different, some can do that and some can't some aren't far enough along that they can do this. Everyone has to find what works for them. Trust me I have changed my eating habits several times in this journey to shock my body back into losing mode.
When I started off with this blog my goal was to be totally honest and I have not done that in the sense I stopped writing when I stopped making the EXTRA effort. Everyone has to examine where they are and whats works for them. I am happy to talk about what works for me and see what I can to do help you find what works for you. I will swim with you. I will go to the gym with you. I will walk with you, but don't ask me to run :D it's not gonna happen ok :D I will be there to cheer you on an encourage you in anyway that I can. I will celebrate with you on the good and cry with you on the bad. Just keep in mind I there will be times I will let you down because I am human.
I want to thank all the people that have been cheering me on for the past year. Even though at times when I am not doing my best it still helps me to keep from getting WAY off track. Anyone reading this feel free to hold me accountable for keep on track. If you see me doing "the wrong thing" call me on it. If you read on a regular basis and don't see a blog for a while stop and say "what's up?" I may get defensive at first, but in the long run I will be thanking you for it.
To all my fellow losers lets get going :D
I tell myself "write even if you feel like no one reads" ok.
"Yeah but why waste my time?"
"It will help to keep ya on track"
"eehh really?? no one cares what I have to say"
"aahh not true rarely goes by a day that someone doesn't comment you on your journey"
Do you have these conversations with yourself? Not just about this but anything in your life. I don't know why I argue with myself so much. Have a I lost my mind? Naaa that's not possible, I never had one :D
So what have I been up to? Working on getting off the "maintain" wagon and hit the trail again. The past few days I have walked on my lunch. Back where I started last year. Not back to that weight but back to how I started off with exercising. I haven't stopped going to the gym but I let life get in my way with "stuff" Why?? Let's face it happens. We all have those days, weeks and general times that it happens.
I could use the excuse that I have not kept up with this because I have not been on the "normal diet" foods that people would think I could lose weight one. I didn't want to get any one off beat for what I am doing. If you read my last post you will see that I have been eating what I want within reason. If I want a donut, slice of pizza or something else I eat it and keep within my calorie count. I didn't do it for a purpose it just eroded to that. I did find that I believe my fear, one I am sure most "losers" have, "what if I don't keep the weight off this time" will not happen. I have, for the past month, been in maintain mode. I have gone to the gym less and ate what I wanted and was still able to keep within a 5lb variation of what I have been at. I am able to hold around the 86lb mark and I am happy about that. But it's time to move forward. I want to hit that 100 lbs down mark by summer. oh man that's just weeks away ..yikes!!
Last year when I started this journey my goal was just to get up and move. On my breaks I would make a few laps around the floor and on my lunch a few laps around the parking lot. I was moving and it was helping. So this week I started using my lunch time to do my 30 min walk. Since I have not been getting to the gym like I had been I HAVE to do something and I feel better when I do. I am more alert, I sleep better and lets face it the long term rewards are there too.
I have to say that I am happy about how far I have come. I know I am not where I want to be for the long term but I have not forgotten that. But something that makes me feel guilty at times is when people comment on how good I am looking and how I look happier now. Well for the most part of this I won't argue, at the same time there are days I feel a pressure to perform. Sounds weird to some, but any one that is a "loser" and have had people say that "you inspire me" know what I am talking about. For that matter anyone that has been .. well singled out ... good grade, good athlete, etc. may have felt this same pressure in different ways.
I have to say first off, I am NOT doing this for anyone but me. I never intended for this to be putting myself on for a show, I just wanted to change my life. I am happy to be able to say "if I can do so can you" because I know how hard it is to walk the road. The reason that I say I feel the pressure to perform because some days I know that I do not make the best choices. I don't want to make any one stumble. I want to be someone that will encourage. This is not all a bad thing, it does help to keep me on track. But the past month since I have not been at the top of my game I feel a lil ashamed when people say things like "keep up the good work". Part of me wants to shout " ok I know I didn't go to the gym today but I didn't want to, don't judge me". Now I know that is probably more me and my self critical thoughts than anything (remember I am harder on myself that anyone else could ever be when I get my mind set on something like this) but it's part of my walk right now. I guess that is part of the reason I feel guilty about not keep up with my blog. I know I would have been doing more/better if I had. I haven't written because, well I didn't do anything other than get up, go to work, eat lunch (sometimes) work some more and come home and do it all over again the next day. Who wants to read that every day. I didn't want to say that I got up had donuts for breakfast, pizza for lunch and chili dogs for dinner (and no I never did that all in ONE day :D ), cuz then someone would say if she can do it an still lose weight so can I. Everyone is different, some can do that and some can't some aren't far enough along that they can do this. Everyone has to find what works for them. Trust me I have changed my eating habits several times in this journey to shock my body back into losing mode.
When I started off with this blog my goal was to be totally honest and I have not done that in the sense I stopped writing when I stopped making the EXTRA effort. Everyone has to examine where they are and whats works for them. I am happy to talk about what works for me and see what I can to do help you find what works for you. I will swim with you. I will go to the gym with you. I will walk with you, but don't ask me to run :D it's not gonna happen ok :D I will be there to cheer you on an encourage you in anyway that I can. I will celebrate with you on the good and cry with you on the bad. Just keep in mind I there will be times I will let you down because I am human.
I want to thank all the people that have been cheering me on for the past year. Even though at times when I am not doing my best it still helps me to keep from getting WAY off track. Anyone reading this feel free to hold me accountable for keep on track. If you see me doing "the wrong thing" call me on it. If you read on a regular basis and don't see a blog for a while stop and say "what's up?" I may get defensive at first, but in the long run I will be thanking you for it.
To all my fellow losers lets get going :D
Friday, May 11, 2012
5-11-12
Wow, embarrassed to see how long it has been since I wrote my blog. Guess you thought I had just gave up huh? No I just haven't been doing anything :D Nope not the same keep reading.
I didn't do this on purpose but all things happen for a reason. I knew this shift change was going to be a challenge for me. Yup to some degree I have let it be an excuse in a no excuse time of my life. My bad. At the same time I have to say there have been times that I am concerned that when I do meet my goal that I could fall back into the life that I have been living over the past years that got me to over 400 lbs. I don't know if everyone that has every lost a big amount of weight has had this fear but it's real.
So I am three weeks into this schedule and for the most part love it. I work two days off a day work two days off two days and then start it over again. A ten hour day for me is no biggie when you go to doing that from being at the gym at 5am and not going to be till 10-11 o'clock at night. I sleep in, nope that's not a good thing I am still tired. I realize if I go more than two days without a good workout, I don't sleep well. I can sleep all day but it's not good sleep. I changed from going to the gym 4-5 times a week to going 2-3 times a week. Still keeping in my calorie range for the most part. How'm I doing? ok .. no really ok.
I really want to make myself get to the gym more and some days get onto myself for not doing this .. BUT I am not falling back at the same time. I know I know, excuses ... blah blah :D
Yes you may have seen me eating that slice of yummy pizza. Yes I had a couple of cookies tonight with the ladies. At the same time as I was talking with a fellow "loser" I realized something. I can do these things, within reason, and still keep the weight from coming back on. I have been maintaining this weight for 4 weeks now. Yes I would like to keep moving down the scale but at least I'm not moving up it again. I know I know excuses again blah blah :D
I take walks on my lunch a few times a week to make up for less gym time during the week, so I am not just sitting around. I can do this. Yes lots of prayer, but that is how I got here any way :D
I know I could make more time to do this blog but I have been keeping busy. So if you are one of the few that really read this I am sorry. I have had many things happening in my life and been doing more photos too. Things keep me busy :D I know in some ways this is an excuse but it's a valid one... isn't it?
ok so where are things with you? who's gonna join in and keep me on track? :D
I didn't do this on purpose but all things happen for a reason. I knew this shift change was going to be a challenge for me. Yup to some degree I have let it be an excuse in a no excuse time of my life. My bad. At the same time I have to say there have been times that I am concerned that when I do meet my goal that I could fall back into the life that I have been living over the past years that got me to over 400 lbs. I don't know if everyone that has every lost a big amount of weight has had this fear but it's real.
So I am three weeks into this schedule and for the most part love it. I work two days off a day work two days off two days and then start it over again. A ten hour day for me is no biggie when you go to doing that from being at the gym at 5am and not going to be till 10-11 o'clock at night. I sleep in, nope that's not a good thing I am still tired. I realize if I go more than two days without a good workout, I don't sleep well. I can sleep all day but it's not good sleep. I changed from going to the gym 4-5 times a week to going 2-3 times a week. Still keeping in my calorie range for the most part. How'm I doing? ok .. no really ok.
I really want to make myself get to the gym more and some days get onto myself for not doing this .. BUT I am not falling back at the same time. I know I know, excuses ... blah blah :D
Yes you may have seen me eating that slice of yummy pizza. Yes I had a couple of cookies tonight with the ladies. At the same time as I was talking with a fellow "loser" I realized something. I can do these things, within reason, and still keep the weight from coming back on. I have been maintaining this weight for 4 weeks now. Yes I would like to keep moving down the scale but at least I'm not moving up it again. I know I know excuses again blah blah :D
I take walks on my lunch a few times a week to make up for less gym time during the week, so I am not just sitting around. I can do this. Yes lots of prayer, but that is how I got here any way :D
I know I could make more time to do this blog but I have been keeping busy. So if you are one of the few that really read this I am sorry. I have had many things happening in my life and been doing more photos too. Things keep me busy :D I know in some ways this is an excuse but it's a valid one... isn't it?
ok so where are things with you? who's gonna join in and keep me on track? :D
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)