One of the days I hope to get it all together. One of these day I hope that I can live a happy free life. A life free of food addiction. A life where I don't have to take meds for depression. A life where I can just be happy to be alive. I know that not all of these can be. I know that I will have to deal with them for the rest of my life. Lets face I am pushing 50, if I was going to "get it all together" I would have done so by now. God has me here, where I am, for a reason and I accept that. Even at my age I am still learning to deal with all this. I will never "get there".
I have not been writing cuz I don't feel like I have anything to say that would motivate anyone. I didn't feel like I had anything to say that anyone wants to hear. I know that I started this to keep me on track and hopefully motivate someone along the way. I just don't feel like I have been doing that.
Now that I have my confession out what have I been doing? I have been bouncing back and forth with exercise and nutrition. It seems if I get going on my nutrition I miss it with exercise and vise a versa. I told someone today, jokingly, that I need someone to keep me on track. Even though I said it as a joke I probably do need someone to keep me accountable. It is tooooo easy for me to find an excuse not to do the right things. I love motivating people and helping them but some days I need it too. Everyone needs someone to motivate them, me included.
I was on a roll with the gym till last week. Somehow I hurt my arm and there is pain that I don't know what to do with it. I had hoped that it would be better by now by not using it to much. Tomorrow I am going to attempt the gym. I NEED my swim. I just don't feel the same when I don't get some type of exercise. REAL exercise not just the lil things I do for the extra stuff. I still park towards the back of the parking lot at work. I take the stairs .... going down all the time but been lazy about it going up.
Tomorrow ... no today I will get in some kind of exercise, even if its just walking on my lunch. I NEED to regain control of the road I have been walking the past two years. It was not for nothing. It is for my life. A healthier life that I deeply desire. We all do.
If you do not have an accountability partner look for one. If you need give me a call, even if you don't live close, we can call and talk or text or whatever you need to keep on track. I'm ready for this are you?
Stand back, say a prayer and cheer me on. WE CAN do this!!!
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