Yes you read that right. Day 1!!
I made the decision last night to kick my butt and get this going. This is probably short unless I find a rabbit to chase.
I started off ok. I had eggs and whole wheat toast for breakfast. My early morning break I had a few strips of bacon and a slice of sausage. I know not the best choice but if you had seen what the choices were you'd done the same thing.
By lunchtime I really didn't want to eat. I know it's not good to skip meals but I had a heavy heart and did something else. Just after my early morning break I heard the news that I lost someone that was dear to me. I called him "my hero" he called me the Chicken Lady. You would have to of known our relationship to get that one. He was like a Dad to me. He wife is super special too.
So by lunchtime I went outside to try and call the family but wasn't able to contact them. As I was sitting there I got up and just started to walk. My thoughts were on Garvin and how much he meant to me, and how much I've missed him and will miss him.
The afternoon was a bit of a blur to be honest and before I knew it it was time to come home. I was able to reach the family and got to talk the sweetest lady, his wife. They have been such a blessing in my life. She and I laughed and talked about Garvin how things had been the past few weeks. A much needed conversation.
Once I was home I really didn't feel like eating but I knew I needed to. Baked some parmesan chicken and peas. Nope that was two separate things :/. Thought my son would be home but found I was eating alone again. It's ok I use to do it all the time.
It would have been easy to do an emotional eating time tonight but I have been pretty good. I did go back and get an additional piece of chicken but then wrapped them an put them in the fridge. I don't like cold chicken all that well and I'm to lazy tonight to warm it up ... even in the microwave.
So the eating habits weren't the best today. The food choices were ok. I guess the best thing I did was actually get in my 30 min of exercise.
As I was walking I realized I had been doing what I use to do before I got started. I realized I need to get back to where I started this journey. When I started in Jan 2011 I did not go to the gym. I did not take stairs, up or down. I didn't do a lot of things. I did change my eating habits and felt better which lead me to start walking. It was a day much like today.
I have been using the excuse that I can not do the walking like I had been because of my ankle. Today I didn't care. At first it was I needed to walk off what I was feeling. Then it was like Garvin was walking with me. I could hear his laugh when I had "stupid" thoughts .. something like he did when we talked. I remembered how he was happy for me when I talked about how well I had been doing. Had been doing. HAD been doing. I had been walking when I couldn't bring myself to go to the gym. Several times I told myself I could walk thru the pain. When I was done I took something for it. So I kept going. Just me an Garvin :D
So today is day one. DAY ONE!! of getting back to where I started. When I don't make it to the gym in the am I will find a way to walk at least 30 min some time in the day. I will do this. Not for anyone else but me.
Say a prayer, stand back, and cheer me on.
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