Today I am thankful for the journey that I started almost two years ago. When I started I had the big idea that I was going to lose weight and by this time would have been down to my goal that I wanted ... under 200. Am I there? No.
Why am I not there? I have had set backs. We have all set backs but it's what you do when you have those set backs that determine if you are going to be successful or if you are going to go back to where you were. As my buddy Sean Anderson puts it "you can choose change or let change choose you". We will never stay the same. It's part of life. We can move forward in positive way or sit in wallow in our negative thoughts and fall apart. What will you choose? I may fall down but I am going to keep getting up. With help from God I can make this journey work.
Yesterday was a pretty good day. I did get a lil lazy last night and not write anything ... no that's not totally true. I am missing my mom. It's funny this is the second year without her at the holiday time but this year seems worse. I guess maybe last year I was still a lil numb. As I was sitting here last night thinking of what to make to take for dinner she kept coming to my mind. We use to always make a cheese log together. Now I can't find one of the main ingredients ... cheese ... not just any cheese ... Kraft American Pasteurized Block Cheese.
Yesterday wasn't anything WOW, but all in all a good day. I didn't feel like cooking so I stopped on the way to get my breakfast burrito. Lunch I walked for 20 min then came back to have a burger, half bun. When I got home had some roasted chicken. It wasn't really what I wanted but it was already cooked and I knew I needed to eat something. I was home alone and didn't know if anyone would be home to eat. Cooking for one just isn't much fun.
I thought I was doing pretty good on the caffeine kick, and I am for the most part. I don't really crave caffeine so much as I do wanting something other than just water to drink. I think that has been the hardest part of it all. Other than the couple of times I was sick I haven't even had a soda in 4 months this time. But now without caffeine and no sodas I am at a crossroad. So far I've done pretty good with it. I haven't caved in. Yesterday I REALLY wanted one. I even bought some at the store last night (to cook with) and started twice to drink one. The last time I even had glass in hand headed to the fridge for ice and realized I still have some of my lemon aid in it. I added more ice to cool it off and left with that only. I can't say it's been easy, but not as hard as I thought it would be. Then again, like I have said before, nothing worth having is easy to get.
I wish I could say I have some really great tips to help thru this day. There is not magic pill ( well there is but again that is they easy way) to keep you from overeating. There is no chant or spell that you can cast over yourself to get thru the day. You just have to want it. The best thing I can say is keep away from the sweets. IF you feel you can't leave it alone just take a taste of it. Is it going to be easy? Have you not read anything to this point? lol
Fill up on the "good stuff" and the bite of two of the sweets will be easier to handle. I know personally for me, if I tell myself I CAN'T have something that is when I want it most. If you let yourself have that taste and walk off you don't crave it. If you have trouble with "just a taste" have someone buddy up with ya. When we have someone to be accountable to we are more apt to be successful.
I hope that I have good report for my next blog ... stand back, say a pray and cheer me on.
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