7-22-12

where to start? what to say? So many thought running in my head but not sure how to put them in words.  


balance
control
happiness / sadness
alone
I see it now
self worth
roller coaster 
family


peace

peace


peace ... do you have it? can you feel at peace with yourself when you feel your life is outta control?  can  you feel peace when you are alone? does peace help you see how to balance your life?


I don't believe there is a right or wrong answer for any of this.  Everyone will answer different from the next.  Some days each person can answer different than the day before.  


In the past 24 hours it's the word that I have.  It's the only word that makes any sense even though I can't put it into words.  In some ways my heart hurts but I can feel at peace and it makes me smile.


Sadly I don't know where everyone, in my life here or in the physical, stand with God but for me I love Him.  I am not ashamed of Him and He has been the real key to success in my journey.  


I have felt like I was falling back more than once and sometimes I have fallen back.  But  when I stop and ask for help He is there.  He picks me up and gives me direction.  I know I don't say a lot about it in my blogs because there is more.  It goes back to the balance.  This is a physical journey that I face everyday.  I have struggled with it all my life and I have come to accept it.  That doesn't mean I can't do something about it to make it better.  This is the time and I want to do anything I can to help anyone that is wanting to walk it with me.  Most days I walk it alone and that's ok, I will still encourage anyone that comes in my path.  I want them to feel better about themselves like I am starting to about myself.


This morning I stated that there has to be a balance.  This is true ... we need nutrition ... rest ... exercise ... hydration ... and we can't forget the Spiritual side.  I am not on a tangent here and I don't plan on preaching any sermons but I feel that God wants everyone to know that we can do this with His help.  He gave us each other too so we can walk together and do this.


I don't know if any of this makes any sense ... again my thoughts are all over the places even trying to focus here ... but I needed to at least try to get some of it out there.