So today I set up my new group. It's called 90 day challenge, but it may go past that. It's just a place to start. For those of you that has not had a chance to check it out look for it from my FB page or drop me a line and I can hook you up.
I am really looking forward to seeing where this will go. I know, from personal experience, that it's not easy to be healthy, lose weight. But I have also been told the more strands there are on a rope the stronger the hold. Let's do this guys.
Ok so some days I may post here or just a few short lines on my challenge page. I do want to encourage EVERYone that wants to do this to keep a journal. Not saying you have to post every thing on here but I am going to be doing so in the effort to keep ME on track. I would like to say that I am doing this to motivate others, and that is a goal, but I am also being selfish in some ways. I need your help. I need someone that is going to "keep me in place" on this journey. I am in a slump that I need to get out of and fast. I have worked to hard this past year and half to lose 92 lbs I really don't want to find them again. Funny how it's easier to find them than to lose them but if I am looking for my car keys no so much. What's up with that. To bad I can't hang it on the ring by the door like I do my car keys lol :D
Ok so today was not a good day for me. And for those that are just joining me you can read over past blogs as to why. In short the past year has been really hard at times. Lost several people that I held dear to me. One year ago 4th of July had that first call saying my mom was at the hospital. It was a roller coaster ride that I don't ever want anyone to go on. The next two months pushed and pulled me all over the place. My mom went from me taking her to Wal-Mart end of July to being gone by Sept 1. This past week mom has been on my mind ... a lot!! Apparently I'm not the only one because my daughter said it too. My niece said my g'neph was talking about her just this week too. Don't know why, it was any special occasions that I can think of from this time of the year.
So I have before that I am really not emotional eater. This week I have been. On top of missing my mom I am feeling the empty nest. Being a single mom doesn't help any. My kids still "live" at home but I use that term lightly. My son who is in college, on summer break, is gone to his friends house a lot. We play tag at the door. My daughter, is with her b/f. I am happy for them that they have their lives. I am proud of them but they are just not here. So from missing my mom and missing them I get in a slump.
As I have said before I deal with depression. This can cause a problem with anyones' weight ... gain or loss. Don't get me wrong I am not using this as an excuse to just lay around and do nothing, but it does cause trouble. It's something that I fight all the time and this week has been getting the best of me. Probably more like this past month slowly. I am not one to promote the use of drugs but if you can have a better life from depression by doing so talk to your Dr. It can make a world of difference.
So today, after reading a post from my new friend Brandi I decided to up the challenges I have been doing. I will still continue to come up with challenges from time to time and feel free to do so as well. Anything to keep your, me, on our toes. I have challenged to park away from your destination and walk the extra steps. Take the stairs and stay away from the elevator. Drink water, water, water.
Today I told Brandi that I would do this and I am going to. I know that if I commit to report my daily actions (good or bad) I am more apt to do what is best for me. I am competitive and don't like to fail when I am challenged. So here goes for the day.
I work up early with the desire to hit the gym before work (did I mention that was at 4AM) but it didn't happen. A few months ago I was hitting the gym by am four to fives times a week. My shift changed changed me. I am not happy with myself but I will get it back on track. I got in the down mood an could not shake it. For that matter I really haven't do so yet but I am trying to be positive. I left work early thinking I would come home and get my gym bag and go workout. Nope, it didn't happen. Ok I will get in a better mood and go for a walk later. Not gonna happen. ... probably not gonna happen. See why I need someone to kick my hiney?
Before work I had oatmeal. Not a bad choice even though I have to have my butter on it. Thing in today was one of my friends birthday and I was in charge of getting the cake. I know it doesn't mean I have to eat it, but I did. Only a small piece ... the first time. Usually on my early break I get some eggs or "something healthy" but today it was cake ... C.A.K.E. Cake. :/
Lunch I did better. Grilled chicken with steamed veggies. Till I got back to my desk and the cake was calling me. So I partook one more time. I'm sure at that point I hit my calorie range for the day but that was not the end. When I stopped to pick up meds I found myself by the deli. I grabbed a few chicken tenders, fried chicken tenders. I didn't eat it all but I did eat it. After I got home got upset even more than no one had done the kitchen. My son's reaction to be asking him to do so didn't get me there either. I reached for Roman noodles and stopped myself. I wanted something that I would not have to clean the kitchen to make. What did I have? Oatmeal!! Not what I was really looking for but when ya think about what I had planned to make was probably better for me. I was going to make spaghetti casserole and garlic bread. Sounds yummy, but oh so many bad carbs.
I guess all in all the day wasn't a total lost but it could have been better. So tomorrow I am going to start over ... AGAIN ... and keep going. Thanks for all the support and if I can return it some way let me know
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