I want it.
Today was a good day. It was a lazy day. I did a lot of thinking in the short time I was at the pool. I made good food choices. I feel good today.
My last blog talked about how I feel was the start of my down fall. This is about how I started my healthy journey that I have been on the past year.
I could name so many things over the past few years that you would think would make me say enough. For example: when I was not comfortable in the vacation rental car. When my big floppy shirts were the tight fitting and I had to go up a size to have the same comfort. Even worse when I realize I was up to the largest size the stores had and I had to start ordering on line from the big girl store. Yet still when I come to the largest size they had to offer at that time. Then there is the time when I realized I couldn't sit comfortable in a booth, not that I ever really cared for them any way. So many things that I would get upset with in my life and think I need to change. There's that word NEED. It's not a nice word for me, how bout you?
Lets play a lil mind game for a minute. Usually when you tell yourself you need to get something done it sounds like a chore, lets face it no one likes do to chores. At least not anyone that I know. But if you WANT to do it it sounds more like fun, right? So I have come to the understanding that I have to trick myself. Ok not really trick myself, but chose the better words, like I want to chose the healthy life. I know I need to be healthy. But like an alcoholic or drug addict until they WANT to change you are wasting your time and theirs talking about it. Right?
What brought me to the place where I could I don't want this? I want better. There was no major event, just a big scare. Jan 2011 I had trouble walking from my car to my desk at work. I had to stop, and try to make it look like I wasn't doing it cuz I was out of breath, to catch my breath to make it there. At the time I tried to say it was because of the upper respiratory infection that I had. I really did have one at that time, but I know that my weight made it worse. It was mid January before I put anything into action. I simply started cutting out sugars and whites. I never really had a problem eating too much. Actually I usually don't eat enough, so my body wants to hold on to it. Yes it makes sense.
For a few months I did this and lost a small amount of weight. Spring was around the corner and one day at work it hit me. It was a beautiful day outside. On my lunch I decided to go outside for some fresh air. I ended up walking the parking lot most of my lunch time that day and for days to come.
I wanted to feel better. I wanted to be able to walk and talk at the same time. I wanted to make the change. I started a blog and made myself post every day what I ate and if I exercised. Like this I don't know if anyone really reads it, but the thought that they might be kept me honest. I was holding myself accountable for anyone that might be reading it so I didn't want to have to post poor food choices.
My routine has changed over the past year more than once to adapt to where I am. I have done well hit a high and fell, but I have not given up. I will not give up. Thanks to all those that stop me in the halls to encourage me, you keep me wanting to give you more (or less really) to see an talk about.
I have to share one more thought. Yesterday at the hospital I had an NSV moment. (no scale victory). Last year this time I walked the same halls more than once to visit with my mom. I remember opting for the valet parking so that I didn't have to walk to much. Remember I couldn't walk to my desk at work, now I was suppose to walk these halls. Yesterday I dropped my friend off at the door and went to look for a parking space. The only in the parking lot was at the back. Now this was not back in the north forty, but it was not close by the door either. I didn't think about it. I am now use to parking at the back of the lot at work, so it was no big deal. As soon as I sat down I had to go back to the car. Now this time last year I would have tried to find any excuse to not go. Now I was totally ok with it. I really didn't think about it till I was on my way back up. I did it all without getting out of breath.
My last blog talked about how I feel was the start of my down fall. This is about how I started my healthy journey that I have been on the past year.
I could name so many things over the past few years that you would think would make me say enough. For example: when I was not comfortable in the vacation rental car. When my big floppy shirts were the tight fitting and I had to go up a size to have the same comfort. Even worse when I realize I was up to the largest size the stores had and I had to start ordering on line from the big girl store. Yet still when I come to the largest size they had to offer at that time. Then there is the time when I realized I couldn't sit comfortable in a booth, not that I ever really cared for them any way. So many things that I would get upset with in my life and think I need to change. There's that word NEED. It's not a nice word for me, how bout you?
Lets play a lil mind game for a minute. Usually when you tell yourself you need to get something done it sounds like a chore, lets face it no one likes do to chores. At least not anyone that I know. But if you WANT to do it it sounds more like fun, right? So I have come to the understanding that I have to trick myself. Ok not really trick myself, but chose the better words, like I want to chose the healthy life. I know I need to be healthy. But like an alcoholic or drug addict until they WANT to change you are wasting your time and theirs talking about it. Right?
What brought me to the place where I could I don't want this? I want better. There was no major event, just a big scare. Jan 2011 I had trouble walking from my car to my desk at work. I had to stop, and try to make it look like I wasn't doing it cuz I was out of breath, to catch my breath to make it there. At the time I tried to say it was because of the upper respiratory infection that I had. I really did have one at that time, but I know that my weight made it worse. It was mid January before I put anything into action. I simply started cutting out sugars and whites. I never really had a problem eating too much. Actually I usually don't eat enough, so my body wants to hold on to it. Yes it makes sense.
For a few months I did this and lost a small amount of weight. Spring was around the corner and one day at work it hit me. It was a beautiful day outside. On my lunch I decided to go outside for some fresh air. I ended up walking the parking lot most of my lunch time that day and for days to come.
I wanted to feel better. I wanted to be able to walk and talk at the same time. I wanted to make the change. I started a blog and made myself post every day what I ate and if I exercised. Like this I don't know if anyone really reads it, but the thought that they might be kept me honest. I was holding myself accountable for anyone that might be reading it so I didn't want to have to post poor food choices.
My routine has changed over the past year more than once to adapt to where I am. I have done well hit a high and fell, but I have not given up. I will not give up. Thanks to all those that stop me in the halls to encourage me, you keep me wanting to give you more (or less really) to see an talk about.
I have to share one more thought. Yesterday at the hospital I had an NSV moment. (no scale victory). Last year this time I walked the same halls more than once to visit with my mom. I remember opting for the valet parking so that I didn't have to walk to much. Remember I couldn't walk to my desk at work, now I was suppose to walk these halls. Yesterday I dropped my friend off at the door and went to look for a parking space. The only in the parking lot was at the back. Now this was not back in the north forty, but it was not close by the door either. I didn't think about it. I am now use to parking at the back of the lot at work, so it was no big deal. As soon as I sat down I had to go back to the car. Now this time last year I would have tried to find any excuse to not go. Now I was totally ok with it. I really didn't think about it till I was on my way back up. I did it all without getting out of breath.
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