Now I get it
I had a really good day all in all. I had a later night than I meant to and really didn't want to get up this morning for the gym but I made it. I was there waiting at the door, at FIVE am, for the doors to be unlocked. I felt like I was dragging and really hoped that the workout would get me moving. Nope not today. I got in most of the weight time, since they opened late it gave me less time. I only swam for 30 minutes. I really was going to push myself for the full hour, I really needed it, then dolphin boy came and I just couldn't fight the waves. I know I don't mean to be that way about him. He does have every right to be there too. It just makes it so hard for me, and others too. I had thought it was just me but some of the better swimmers commented as well. Ok ok I am working on that too. One thing at a time.
The more that things came at me today the less I let them get to me. For that matter the more another door would open. For example: When I walked up to the counter at the gym, I see this sign taped to the desk "pool will be closed from 5:45-6:45" " for SIX weeks? REALLY??? That is the time I have to get it all done. Ok so I take a deep breath and realize it's only on Wednesday. Still I brewed about it for a bit while I was in the locker room. Why couldn't it be on Thursday when I do my workout later? I kept thinking "don't they know I am on a roll now" "don't they understand I don't want to miss a day an mess up my rhythm". I finally brushed it off and pushed myself on the weights. No sense in letting this get in the way of my workout today.
Later this morning before I left for work a friend told me of a gym in town that is only $9 a month, no commitment, and it has ... yes a POOL!! I am going to be checking on this. If it has all I have been told and will be available the hours I can go I may have found me a new gym. See hit me and I come back slugging :D
As if this wasn't enough to make me feel better, I read a post from one of my young friends that made me feel really good. Ya know, most of the time, I just go along and do my thing. I don't think about who may be watching me. I really don't think about why or why not someone might be reading my blog. I do it for the accountability, for me. If someone reads this and is challenged or inspired by it I am all the more happy. So I read this sweet note from my young friend that said she is encouraged by my dedication and it made me smile. Ya know that smile that feels really good? The one that you couldn't stop if you wanted to. Yeah that was it. Like I said I do it to keep me on track but now I am inspired even more to know that someone is watching me. Now I have to keep on my toes for more than myself, right? Thank you Shawna, you don't know much you made my day.
Today I was able to finish reading Sean's "Transformation Road". All I can say is I feel a new sense that I can do this. He makes it so simple. My blog earlier this week I thought I had it figured out. I did but I didn't realize it. It is simple. It's what I have been doing the past year, for the most part, but I see it differently. I kept thinking there is more. It's to simple to just eat right and get exercise. I am not going to tell you how he did it, I want to encourage you to read the book for yourself. It will make you think. It challenged me to keep going. To rethink some of what I was already on the brink of knowing. Thanks again Sean.
I have so many things racing thru my head tonight that I really don't think I can put them down in words. But I am going to share one thing. Since I have been challenged to be TOTALLY honest with myself I am going to post a picture of me like I have NEVER done before. I REALLY don't like my picture being taken, but I had promised myself, after I started losing the weight, that I would keep a photo journal. But as you can see if you have been following me on this that you have never, I mean NEVER seen a side shot of me. So here goes, and yes I have my glasses on, stop laughing. I know I am getting old but I think they make me look smart. :D
The more that things came at me today the less I let them get to me. For that matter the more another door would open. For example: When I walked up to the counter at the gym, I see this sign taped to the desk "pool will be closed from 5:45-6:45" " for SIX weeks? REALLY??? That is the time I have to get it all done. Ok so I take a deep breath and realize it's only on Wednesday. Still I brewed about it for a bit while I was in the locker room. Why couldn't it be on Thursday when I do my workout later? I kept thinking "don't they know I am on a roll now" "don't they understand I don't want to miss a day an mess up my rhythm". I finally brushed it off and pushed myself on the weights. No sense in letting this get in the way of my workout today.
Later this morning before I left for work a friend told me of a gym in town that is only $9 a month, no commitment, and it has ... yes a POOL!! I am going to be checking on this. If it has all I have been told and will be available the hours I can go I may have found me a new gym. See hit me and I come back slugging :D
As if this wasn't enough to make me feel better, I read a post from one of my young friends that made me feel really good. Ya know, most of the time, I just go along and do my thing. I don't think about who may be watching me. I really don't think about why or why not someone might be reading my blog. I do it for the accountability, for me. If someone reads this and is challenged or inspired by it I am all the more happy. So I read this sweet note from my young friend that said she is encouraged by my dedication and it made me smile. Ya know that smile that feels really good? The one that you couldn't stop if you wanted to. Yeah that was it. Like I said I do it to keep me on track but now I am inspired even more to know that someone is watching me. Now I have to keep on my toes for more than myself, right? Thank you Shawna, you don't know much you made my day.
Today I was able to finish reading Sean's "Transformation Road". All I can say is I feel a new sense that I can do this. He makes it so simple. My blog earlier this week I thought I had it figured out. I did but I didn't realize it. It is simple. It's what I have been doing the past year, for the most part, but I see it differently. I kept thinking there is more. It's to simple to just eat right and get exercise. I am not going to tell you how he did it, I want to encourage you to read the book for yourself. It will make you think. It challenged me to keep going. To rethink some of what I was already on the brink of knowing. Thanks again Sean.
I have so many things racing thru my head tonight that I really don't think I can put them down in words. But I am going to share one thing. Since I have been challenged to be TOTALLY honest with myself I am going to post a picture of me like I have NEVER done before. I REALLY don't like my picture being taken, but I had promised myself, after I started losing the weight, that I would keep a photo journal. But as you can see if you have been following me on this that you have never, I mean NEVER seen a side shot of me. So here goes, and yes I have my glasses on, stop laughing. I know I am getting old but I think they make me look smart. :D
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