2-12-14 again

Ok back to yesterday, it was a rough day.  I am realizing that I'm in a fight that is not physical.  God wants more for me and the enemy is really getting ticked off that I am not listening to the lies any more.  As I was trying to get in a workout to help my physical body get better I keep hearing the "give up voice" but each time I did a song would come on that said keep going I'm with you.  I have found that if I listen to KLOVE when I am working out God gives me what I need just as I need it, yesterday was no different.  

I did really good with my nutrition yesterday but I was just not feeling anything I needed in my workout time.  I took off early to get in something because I am feeling I needed more.  My plan for this week was to get in at least three exercises classes in addition to what I was already doing.  Monday I told myself it's cold and I'm tired.  When I am not tired after working ten hours listening to people cry about their bills like they are the only ones that are having trouble.  But that's another story.  

The two works classes were going to be on Tuesday and Thursday but there I was at the gym telling myself just get in cardio.  I was fighting every calorie I burned.  There was the give up voice over and over again.  

So yeah I was feeling like I needed to get in some additional time in the gym.  The class I wanted to take was before I normally get off work.  I hadn't really used much time and it was available so I took off two hours early.  

First stop was Planet Fitness.  If I hadn't dragged around so long I could have gotten in at least an hour of cardio on the bike.  Again the give up voice fighting with the I gotcha back voice I couldn't get there and changed quick enough to get in an hour.  Thirty minutes and only burned 173 calories.  I know I know that's a victory.  And you are right.  It's more than my normal Wednesday schedule I have for myself.  I usually take that day off, but remember I didn't go on Monday.  See I can't seem to let myself enjoy the victories.  AAAUUUGGGhHHH!!!!

Then I was off to Geardup for come combat.  I love this stuff.  I'm not good at it and I don't get up well but I'm burning calories and it's fun.  I was fighting every punch with my body while hearing all the negatives in my head.  Sadly this wasn't as much of a victory as I would like to say it was.  I ended up leaving in fifteen minutes before the class was over.  I had planned on going to church after.  I would have had plenty of time but oh no, I told myself I needed more time to cool off before I went.  I knew I didn't have time to go home and change first but I had a plan.  I was going to just go in late, sit in the back where no one could smell me :D or want to hug me and then just leave before anyone else got up.  So why did I tell myself I needed more time.  Excuses.  I caved that time and let the give up voice win.  He didn't win the whole day I did get in exercise time.  I know the end victory will be mine ... God said so.

So as I was sitting in my car looking at my heart rate meter, realizing that it wasn't one the whole time I was doing class, this song came on.  It hit me more clearly than ever.  

"I'm in a fight not physical.  I'm in a way but not of this world."

I'm counting on God

God wants more for me.  I use to tell myself that God must want me to be overweight after all he made me this way and I can't seem to get away from it.  I stopped believing the lies and now the enemy isn't happy.  I don't care cause I know I have a God, The God, that protects me from those lies.  

I'm sure today will be no different.  I plan on getting in gym time today and if I can find a class maybe I'll join in.  Tomorrow will be cardio at the gym followed by a good workout with my trainer.  Also going to go back to combat class.  Hope everyone has a super day. Say lots of prayers.  It makes the enemy mad :D