2-28-14

Yeah yeah I know, I missed a few days.  But I have a good reason.  I guess come could say excuses but I don't.  I have been having a hard time sleeping and it just finally hit me.  I was so tired that even my eyes were not focusing very well.  For that matter this is the first time today that I have been able to focus well so here I am.
I haven't been to the gym in the past few weeks bhhhuuutttt I have gotten in exercise.  I have been doing my Les Miles Body Combat cd.  It's a great burn in a short time.  I almost feel like I'm not getting in enough time.  I have spent so much time at the gym walking on the treadmill or riding bike to get a good burn only to find that I can get a better burn in less time.  
My nutrition is something I am still working on.  I am trying to get in enough calories.  Been trying to work on a plan James and I talked about.  He's great with nutrition and I am trusting him in this.  It's just tough retraining my brain on how I have been doing it.  Then again it's not working like I need it to right now.  I need to shock my body into burning the calories again.  For my weight I am suppose to be getting in at least 2300 calories.  I am doing good to get in 1800.  Half carbs is the hard part.  When I think about carbs I think about pasta, bread, rice ya know the ones that aren't so good for you.  So today I was reading up on the better ones here is what I have in case you are looking. 

Good Sources of Carbohydrate

• Vegetables (all kinds)
• Fruit
• Oats and oatmeal
• Brown Rice
• Seeds
• Nuts
• Quinoa
• Chia
• Yams
• Lentils
• Whole Grain Breads
• Whole Grain Pitas
• Whole Grain Cereals
• Potatoes
• Whole grain pastas
• Beans

calories for the good carbs

I just want to get in the right carbs.  No carbs aren't bad.  Not paying attention to what you are doing isn't good for you.  Eating anything to an extreme is what is not good for you.  You have to have control in anything you do.

So it's late and I really just want to sleep.  I am trying to stay awake for at least another hour in hopes that I will sleep tonight.  Maybe since I got a good workout in it will help.  If not I am going to not be a nice person to be around tomorrow.  Wish me luck. 

2-25-14

ahh yes Day two of the challenge.  No TV till I have exercised spiritually and physically.

I have to admit it's not easy but it's not as hard as you would think.  God is defiantly doing all this today.  I woke up this morning just after 3am and wasn't able to get back to sleep till almost time to wake up.  I felt like I was dragging most of the day.  It could have been tempted to come home and crash but I didn't even give myself time to think about it.  I came in made one phone call that I had promised, it was short, and then turned on the TV ... for the Body Combat CD ... don't look at me like that :D  Ok ok I may have looked at FB for just a few moments.  I couldn't help it.  The phone was still in my hand from the call I had to return.  Geezz give me a break :D

Today wasn't to bad for the lil sleep that I had.  The day actually went by pretty quickly.  It was pretty busy at work.  We had the usual dead hour and then about the time I was wanting to fall asleep it picked up and carried me through the rest of the day.

I am really wanting to NOT eat out but this morning it was all I could do just to get going, cooking wasn't even on my mind.  Breakfast stop of choice?  Joey's burritos.  For lunch I had wanted to go to United and stock up on my fruits and some healthy snacks since I was out at work.  I didn't go.  I didn't want to do anything.  I ended up eating a baked potato at work.  At the same time this also left me without an afternoon snack.  I got lucky and my neighbor had a banana.  It made me be able to last till I got home.

Once I was home I did my CD and sat down for my evening bible study that I am doing.  I had wanted to do the cd one more time but by this time the kids had come in and it wasn't going to happen.  I could probably done it but I let it be an excuse.  Shame on me!!!

So that was my day.  Nothing really out of the ordinary but I feel like I have accomplished something.
 How bout you guys?  What did you do to get healthy?

2-24-13

Has today been a challenge?  Hhhmm??  Isn't every day a challenge of some kind?  I had a good day.  I was really tired.  Still having trouble sleeping.  But today I was determined to keep it going.  

I did manage to get up in time to eat without  being overly rushed.  Not that I got myself going ... I walked into work at the last possible second.  Whew, I need to stop cutting it that short.

I have not finished up my nutrition yet but I am pretty sure I am under calories for the day.  I will probably get something else to snack on before bed ... maybe not it's getting late.

I am really excited today.  I got my new Les Mills body combat CD so I can do that workout at home.  Yup you know I broke it in today.  I had planned on going to the gym.  This morning I even pack my bag and was ready for it.  At the same time the "whatever monster" was trying to talk me outta going. 

 I check my email shortly before getting off work and found out my CD had been delivered.  WOOHOOO!!!!  It was all I could do not to rip into when I got home and get my burn going.  I had a few things to do and almost let it go to long.  But I got in a good 30 min burn, 223 calories off.  That's about what I get with an hour on the bike at the gym. 

 

Yesterday at church I was challenged to "die to self".  It got me to thinking about my goals that I have for this year.  Not my goals but ones I feel God wants for me.  I had said no less than 30 minutes of physical and spiritual "exercise" each day.  Let's face it as lil as I watch TV in the evening it's on.  I don't always pay attention to but it can be a distraction.  No more.

My new goal is no TV/internet, yes this means FB lol or games on my phone.  I don't just sit around with one or the other of them but I have let them be what entertains me at times.  Today I came home and got all that done and now here I am with this.  I haven't even turned on the tv since I came home.  I got my workout in and my quiet time too. 

I feel good about it.  I hope that I sleep better tonight.  Even if I don't know God will give me what I need to make it through another day.  nite all.

2-22 an 2-23

yesterday was just a day.  I didn't do make a trip to the gym or do anything for the extra effort.  Sadly I didn't even write down all my foods.  overall I did ok with it.  Even when I was thinking about blowing it off and just eating what I wanted to I ended up making healthy choices.  

Today I didn't plan on any workout.  Sunday is my day to just do what ever.  With that being said even my "whatever" days I usually end up with a much better choice of nutrition than I use to.  Today wasn't really any different.  I did well but I also had a couple indulging moments.

After church stopped off at United for some lunch items.  In case you haven't noticed it's that time of the year.  Girl Scout cookies.  I was a girl scout back in my day and I will always buy at least on box.  My guilty please?  Of course the mint cookies.  I had only ONE serving which is four cookies.   Granted that was a whopping 160 calories but worth ever bite of it.

Today after lunch we went to Lucy Park and I did a lot of walking.  Even though I didn't make it to the gym I got in as much exercise as if I had gone to the gym.  I even got to spend time with my family and it was great.  Then back to house for dinner, sandwiches.  I would like to say that I had something healthy but let's face it, lunch meat is not one of the healthiest choices I could have made.  I did add a lot of veggies and wheat bread but the sodium in that stuff isn't a really good choice.  

The for the second indulging moment.  My daughter had wanted to bake a cake and it was that time.  While I did eat some I have only a small portion.  This was a great thing in itself that I didn't eat more, she did a really good job with it.  

So I am totally ok with the day.  Overall my nutrition, even with the indulging moments, were a lot better than I use to do.  I can remember a time when I would have eaten a lot more and not gone to the park for that walk.  I was pretty happy at the park too, not just because I was with my family.   

As I was walking up to the falls it felt good.  On the way back we decided to walk to the basketball court too.  Not that long ago when I walked just to the waterfall I would have to stop a few times to catch my breath.  Today here I was we walked that and was on the way to the swinging bridge and I was still going.  I didn't even feel winded at any time.  The knee on the other hand was starting to bothering me but I still felt really good.  By the time we had walked back to the car I was still not feeling even half as tired as I use to in just the walk to the falls.  NSV!!!  It was a good day.

2-21-14

Oh I so wish I wasn't feeling so tired, at least today I got something accomplished.  I did my fasting last night so that I could get blood work done this morning.  That took longer than I had planned for so it was after 10 before I got anything to eat.  Subway here I come.  Egg white on flat bread with veggies.  

 After a stop off at the house to change into my gym clothes I treated myself to a few things that I am sure I could live without ... but I wanted them.  I got me a timer so that I don't have to look at the clock or lose count when I am doing timed exercises.  And my favorite. Boxing gloves :D

The gloves aren't the big fat ones you have seen me using in my the pix I did for the contest but the fun ones that I can have my fingers free.  The gloves made their debut at my next stop.  I had a session with James and I got them broke in really well.  I did learn a bit better how I needed to use my hands.  I had a lot more "feel" with them and realized how much I had been relying on the gloves to do part of the work.  I was forced to get better position with my body as well as throwing the punches.  On top of the extra effort, since I confessed to not working out all week, James decided I needed to work harder.  I just thought I was tired last night when I left.  Everything he threw at me I pushed back with.  I was tired, drenched and felt half dead but great at the same time.

I had planned on going to BodyCombat but after coming home to rest I realized I was exhausted.  It was all I could do to run one more errand.  Dr Office for blood work.  Tag office, that was crazy.  Ended up leaving cuz of a line out the door and then realized I could get them at United.  Got home in time to sit down to eat before I got the call to pick up Afton, my daughter.  I made the mistake after finally getting back home falling asleep before I had to drop her off for the evening.  The plan when I dropped her off was to head off to class but it was all I could do to get her dropped off.  I came back home and rested.

So even though I didn't get in a second workout in I feel good about the day.  My nutrition was good.  I am getting there slowly but surely and I feel good.

2-20-14

yes I know it's Friday 2-21 but I was so tired when I tried to write this last night I feel asleep ... read why :D

ok so this has been a crazy week.  No workouts since last Friday.  Yes this shocked even my trainer when I said this.  I always get in no less than 4-5 days of at least simple cardio.  After talking with him things made sense.  Things that I knew were right but just kept pushed in the back of my mind ... or some place.
Last week, after the devastating finding that I was up in weight, I pushed myself even harder than I had been.  Wednesday is usually my day I don't go to the gym.  Last week I pushed myself to do at least half a class of body combat before I went off to church.  Don't worry remember I sat in the back by myself where no one could smell me  lol

Thursday I went to the gym.  I was feeling a little defeated and challenged all in one.  I was fighting that battle of do it don't do it.  I got in my two hours of cardio.   Friday I hit it hard with my trainer and body combat class.  By the end of the day I was tired, but I feel like I had accomplished something.  I put in a lot of work last week and my body knew it.  So when I took a break on Saturday and Sunday my body didn't know what to do with itself.

As I was talking with my trainer last night he commented he has times like that too.  When he is training for a meet he put in a lot of hard work.   He pushes his body to it's limits to be ready for the meet.  After the meet when he backs off the harder training he said that for a while it's almost like he has insomnia, this is what I have felt like the past few days.

The body gets so use to being able to get rid of a higher amount of energy and it doesn't know just to turn it back.  The past few days I knew in the back of my mind that I feel better when I get in exercise but it was like I was tired and couldn't make myself do it.  I woke yesterday morning knowing I HAD to get in some exercise.  I know that a class or boxing session with James makes for a hard burn of calories.  I contacted him and my luck was he had an opening just as I got off work.  Perfect!!  I got a good 30 minute burn boxing.  I felt this burn in every part of my body.  I could feel that my endurance had gotten so much better than I had months ago.  I left there drenched and tired but it was the best nights sleep I have had all week. 

Today I have planned to go back for more torture with James and then, what has come my Friday night date, Bodycombat with the ladies.  I feel it when I am done but I love it after.  Have a super day everyone.

2-19-14

ok so the past few days have been really weird.  Today isn't really any different.  I don't know why I am not sleeping well which ends up making me tired the next day.  Sadly I have not been to the gym all week.  I am eating well but not any "exercise".  Not the best idea but I am going to push myself tomorrow no matter what it takes.
Ok so if you have been following you know my new favorite thing is boxing. I LOVE it.  I get a great calorie burn going and it's ... well I love it.  I love the body combat as well.  So much so that I ordered me a CD that is going to AWESOME!!!  I am so looking forward to getting it.  The sleepless nights I can get up and put it on and wear myself out till I drop.  Then maybe I will get some sleep.
On other note I have had been really bothered with my knee.  I don't know what to do.  I want to be able to keep going and not completely blow it out.  At the same time if I back off too much I won't be any good for the contest.  Yeah I know healthy first, but that IS part of what the contest is about.

Since I have been a bit lazy this week so far, I don't really have a lot to write.  That an my eyes are starting blur again.  That's why I just popped in and out of here last night.  Little sleep after staring at the computer for ten hours I guess is making my eyes tired too.  Tomorrow is my 4th an final day for the week.  Tomorrow WILL be better.

2-17 and 2-18

oh knee oh knew why doth thou botherth me?  Sleepless nights ... this is killing me.  I got nuttin right now ... it's been several days since I have had any energy to even go to the gym.  I hate this waking up at 3ish every morning ... staying away for hours .... and then being tired all day.   AAAUUUGGHHHH!!!
This bites that I can't get it all going at one time.  The nutrition has been good but now getting exercise isn't happening.  I come home from work and all I want to do is sleep. Sadly I can't sleep.  My eyes are even tired and this is getting blurred.  I'm calling it a day.

2-16-14

For the first time since I started this contest I feel good.  And it’s not because of a number on the scale.  I hate scales.  I just feel good.  I had a breakthrough and I feel like smiling. 

As I had said earlier this week I was feeling a cloud that wouldn’t let me celebrate even the little accomplishments.  After doing a bible study yesterday and a few other things over the past few days I realized something.  It’s not my victory to celebrate.

Yes I did the work.  I am the one that kept up with my nutrition.  I am the one that planned meals.  I am the one that was out there sweating.  And as much as I knew, and even said it, that God was helping me with this, I wasn't really giving him the credit. I am nothing without him.  He is the one that helped me with all those things.  I have tried this many times in the past and I failed without him.

Ok so if you are still with me great.  If you left because you felt I was preachy then … well you probably aren't reading this far anyway.   I make no apologies for it, this is who I am.  I am desperately looking for that balance between physical, emotional and spiritual.  It’s all very important.  It’s the balance that works for me.

So yesterday I didn't really write like I had wanted to, I was tired.  But part of what I had to say yesterday was what I have just written about. 

I woke up this morning feeling good.  I didn't really even fret about the weigh in.  I never like scales but it’s part of the contest.  I had already said God this is in your hands and let me accept whatever happens.   Of course I wanted to do well, but I had done the work and I was at peace about it.

I had talked with my trainer about changing up some of my nutrition to possibly get my metabolism cranked up.  I don’t know what made me start this theory the day before a weigh in but I did.  From a competition stand point that could have been a big mistake.  At the same time I didn't really think about it being the day before contest. 

Earlier in the week I had planned on getting every possible moment that I could in on working out.  I slept in yesterday and decided to go see my son in Lawton.  I don’t get to see him as often as I would like and that is what mattered most to me at the time.

On the way out of town we, my daughter and I, stopped for breakfast, Carl’s Jr.  I know what you are thinking but I had already decided I wasn't going to get upset over all this.  I would eat what I wanted in moderation and I would start to work on the change so yes I had a loaded biscuit and small hash browns.  Yes I know this took up about half my calorie count for the day.  At the same time I enjoyed every bite.  I know you’re thinking this probably made my weigh in go bad today.  Keep in mind I had already told God it’s in His hands and I accept whatever came my way. 

For lunch yesterday the kids wanted to go to an Italian restaurant that they really like.  I’m thinking worst of worsts I could order a salad and enjoy the time with the kids.  At the same time over the past three years I have learned to be creative in many ways, even in ordering food at a restaurant like this.

Chicken Marsala sounded pretty good.  I considered all the elements of the way of looking at food.  I had the pasta put on the sideand didn't eat any of it.  The rest  was pretty good. 

 I did have some bread but I have to say it looked much better than it tasted.  It wasn't bread sticks like you would get at Olive Garden or other places.  It was more of a biscuit with some Italian flavors sprinkled on top.  I had one and munched on it through the full meal.  I can remember a time when would have easily had two or three of these.  Not to mention who goes to an Italian restaurant and not have some form of pasta?  Well this crazy girl that’s who.

Lunch was great.  Time with the kids was great.  I did a little bit of shoe shopping at the store where my future daughter in law works.  I was hoping to find another pair of running shoes but nothing really hit me at just what I was looking for.

By the time we left my son’s home I was tired and all I was thinking about is getting home and call it a day.  I still had about 200 calories that I could have used but to be honest I was more tired than I was hungry.  We did stop for gas and a hot dog, mine no bun, and it homeward bound.

So this morning I woke up just feeling like it was going to be a good day.  I didn't dread the weigh in.  I didn't think too much about it.  I went to church and had a great time.  I had worked hard this week and I was done.  It was time for the results.

Ok now I don’t know if you remember on Tuesday night I was upset about being up in weight, but I never told you how much.  Well from the last official weigh in till that night I was back up 5 lbs.  That was what I was down from the last weigh in.  Today I was just hoping that I had “broke even”. 

So what happened?  I was down 11 lbs since the weigh in on Tuesday night that had me so upset.  This meant that I put 5 lbs down for my official weigh in this time.  That was the most I had posted toward the contest yet.
  So now since Dec 30^th I am down 27 lbs.  And on the contest I am officially down 13 lbs.  I may not win the contest but one lb at a time I am winning back my life.  And it feels good.  Who’s with me?

2-15-14

Tonight was short is going to be short and sweet.  I traveled to Lawton to see my son and daughter in law to be.  After having a "short" night and the rest of the difference of the day I am tired.

I haven't been feeling great today.  This tummy thing kicking in again.  I could say it's bothering me ... at the same time maybe it will help my weigh in tomorrow  lol

I didn't do any last change workout today.  It may come back to bite me but I'm not worried about it.  I have push harder this week and I'm ok.  Today is the first day in a while that I have really felt good.  I have a peace again that I haven't felt in a while.  I had a breakthrough today that made me realize somethings.  I'm not really in this journey for me.  I'll write more about it tomorrow.

I did ok with my nutrition.  I was in my calorie range.  I ate some things that was outta my norm but again, I'm ok with that too.

I don't know what will happen for the weigh in but what ever happens I will give God the glory because he gives me the peace I need.  Of course I want to see a lower number.  I would be so EXCITED if it were a double digit.  I just don't see that happening.  After all earlier this week it was showing me back up.  It bothered me at the time but I am getting past that.  I am better in many ways that I have not been in a while.  Overall I am starting to feel better.  I have more endurance in the gym and my nutrition is on the right track.  I am working on tweaking some of this stuff but that will all happen in time.

Well maybe this wasn't as short as I thought but I had plenty more but I need some rest for now.  nite all

2-14-14

Today was a good day.  It's been a while since I was able to say that.  I had a really good talk with my trainer and he has given me a few new things to try.  I'm hoping this kicks me up a notch.

The day did start sluggish.  Last night was another sleepless time.  I probably pushed harder than I should have.  I knew it when I was doing it.  I knew it when I felt the twinges in my knee.  I know it when it popped.  Even though I knew I should have stopped I kept going till the knee would hold up and I had to make myself stop.  

I was so tired I didn't take my calcium/magnesium before bed.  I have found a couple of those at bed time really helps.  Then again I am not sure even that would help much last night.  I was so tired when I came in I never even got off the couch when I was done eating.  Fell asleep and there I stayed till about 3 this morning.  Then, once again, I couldn't get back to sleep for a while.  I could not get comfortable because my knee was hurting.

When I woke up this morning, after finally getting back to sleep, I was still have mild pain in it.  I kept thinking I had done gone to far.  I was letting it get to me.  I was using as an excuse not to do anything.  I had planned on getting to the gym for some cardio before my training session.  That didn't happen.  I made excuse and then remembered I need to stop by the Dr office for my meds.  By the time I had gotten myself to move and do this it was time for training with James.

When I got there we had a good talk about everything that was going on.  And then it was off to grab the boxing gloves.  I had plenty I wanted to get punched out.  The plan was doing an hour but I had something come up that I had to cut it short at 30 minutes.  The great part about it though was when I realized I had burned 336 calories in just 30 minutes of training.  That's almost twice what I do on a bike in the same time.  I also realized that my knee wasn't bothering me to bad at that time. 

After that I had came home for a nap.  Well lunch and a nap.  I was sleepy tired from last night and the great workout.  I had told a friend that I would be going to Bodycombat class but after the nap I wasn't motivated.  I was back to looking for excuses but it wasn't meant to be.  My friend contacted me to make sure I was going to meet her there.  So at the last possible minute I was off for class and was really glad I did.  I am still struggling with keeping up but I just keep moving.  I did manage to burn off another 527 calories and I really did feel good when I was done.  I think the cloud is starting lift up a bit.  I actually can say I feel good.  I am really happy about the day.  Good nutrition and two good workouts.  Tomorrow last chance workout :D 

2-13-14

write ... don't write. Go ... you don't want to.  Eat ... don't eat.  AAAAUUUUGGGHHHH 
Today has been a constant struggle.  The battle is really intense.  I know where it comes from but sometimes knowing doesn't help the feeling.  It doesn't make it go away.  Some times it doesn't even give me peace.  

Peace 

Peace 

That's what I am missing right now.  I know God is walking with me.  I REALLY had to fight the blah of not wanting to go to the gym.  Once I was there and plugged in to KLOVE song after song told me "I am with you".  I know He's with me but it doesn't stop the struggle.  It just stops the enemy from  .... from ... wow if the enemy is working this hard to keep me down I don't want to imagine what God is blocking from me.

So nutrition today.  It was good.  A struggle to eat but I ended up in a good calorie range.  Since I started using my Polar I am sadly aware of just how little calories I am burning.  I look at the number on the scale.  I look at the number of calories and I am tempted to not eat and work even harder.  I know this isn't healthy.  I know that it can put me in starvation mode and cause me to gain weight instead.  I know people who are not over weight don't understand that..  We don't always get this way from eating to much, some times it's from not eating enough.

Exercise was fun ( she says sarcastically).  I wanted to go to a Zumba class but that didn't happen.  My last call at work went long so I didn't get off in time.  I convinced myself that I couldn't get there in time to start.  I guess had I rushed I could had slid in with the rest of the group.  But if I was completely honest with myself I just "didn't want it bad enough".  

I wanted to go home at this point but I knew I needed to keep going.  I drove to Planet Fitness texting anyone that I could to pray for me or to make me go.  I had this overwhelming feeling of wanting to cry.  I had no real reason to cry.  Nothing was really wrong.  Well other than the constant fight going on inside of me.  The day at work was pretty rough but I have had hard days before.  

After texting my friend Cathy she made me smile.  I still sat there for at least thirty minutes.  Go .. don't go.  You need to go.  I could go home an just do some zumba on video.  Who are you kidding if you go home you know you are not going to do that.  You will sit down on the couch and just do nothing.  Maybe eat.  Possible convince yourself to end up eating to much.  Just get up and go.  I say it again, if anyone could read my mind I would have to watch out for the guys with the lil white I love me jackets.

I did make it in.  I was going to get in thirty minutes on the bike and go.  After all that's my goal.  But what happened to adding more this week.  What happened about stepping it up.  Walking in the door I see a friend from church.  Of course I stopped and talked.  Isn't it the polite thing to do?  I know I was stalling.  I'm still fighting it.

I walk in the locker room still just dragging myself in and I hear "Genie?".  I turned to see Linda a fellow contestant.  Again stalling not wanting to go I realized that I am not alone in this.  She was having the same issues.  Then again I have talked with several people that are on the same journey that say the same thing.  At least I'm not alone.

I took longer than usual to get changed an ready to go.  I thought I would do at least thirty minutes on the bike.  Of course once I was there I managed to get in an hour.  It was all I could do to keep going.  By this time it wasn't the do dont do battle, it was my knee.  I did the first thirty minutes and was going to stop but told myself just go fifteen more minutes.  I was about done with that and found myself caught up watching the Olympics.  I was still listening to KLOVE but I was watching the athletes.  I still have no desire to be one but I got into watching them and stopped focusing on me and the time went faster.

Before I knew it I was up to 56 minutes.  That's when it really hit.  I had felt twinges and fought past them but now my knee was starting to feel some pain that bothered me.  I managed to push thru the hour.  I hadn't come this close to give up.  I finished the hour and headed for the locker room.  What I did next I don't know I still don't know why I did.  

I was walking to the locker room.  I had every intention of going home at this point.  After all I had done twice what I had intended to do when I finally came in.  I turned the corner to go to the locker but next thing I knew I was stepping up on the corner treadmill.  WHAT???  I'll just do fifteen minutes.  I"ll do a slow walk for a relaxer before I go home.  Doesn't even one like to go for a walk to relax?

Nice slow pace to me these days seems to be 2. mile .... my usually warm up pace.  Oh no this "relaxing" walk ended up a lil faster pace.  Only 2.5 but it was much more than I planned on doing.  For that matter THIS was more than I had planned on doing.  I some how started to feel my second wind and thought I can do thirty minutes.  My knee wasn't feeling to bad at this point.  Still watching the Olympics, mens ice skating.  The knee had different plans for me.  I ended up stopping after fifteen minutes.  Not a bad workout out for stalling for so long.

And so the battle continues.  Tomorrow is a new day for me to start all this over again.  Tomorrow WILL be a better day.  

2-12-14 again

Ok back to yesterday, it was a rough day.  I am realizing that I'm in a fight that is not physical.  God wants more for me and the enemy is really getting ticked off that I am not listening to the lies any more.  As I was trying to get in a workout to help my physical body get better I keep hearing the "give up voice" but each time I did a song would come on that said keep going I'm with you.  I have found that if I listen to KLOVE when I am working out God gives me what I need just as I need it, yesterday was no different.  

I did really good with my nutrition yesterday but I was just not feeling anything I needed in my workout time.  I took off early to get in something because I am feeling I needed more.  My plan for this week was to get in at least three exercises classes in addition to what I was already doing.  Monday I told myself it's cold and I'm tired.  When I am not tired after working ten hours listening to people cry about their bills like they are the only ones that are having trouble.  But that's another story.  

The two works classes were going to be on Tuesday and Thursday but there I was at the gym telling myself just get in cardio.  I was fighting every calorie I burned.  There was the give up voice over and over again.  

So yeah I was feeling like I needed to get in some additional time in the gym.  The class I wanted to take was before I normally get off work.  I hadn't really used much time and it was available so I took off two hours early.  

First stop was Planet Fitness.  If I hadn't dragged around so long I could have gotten in at least an hour of cardio on the bike.  Again the give up voice fighting with the I gotcha back voice I couldn't get there and changed quick enough to get in an hour.  Thirty minutes and only burned 173 calories.  I know I know that's a victory.  And you are right.  It's more than my normal Wednesday schedule I have for myself.  I usually take that day off, but remember I didn't go on Monday.  See I can't seem to let myself enjoy the victories.  AAAUUUGGGhHHH!!!!

Then I was off to Geardup for come combat.  I love this stuff.  I'm not good at it and I don't get up well but I'm burning calories and it's fun.  I was fighting every punch with my body while hearing all the negatives in my head.  Sadly this wasn't as much of a victory as I would like to say it was.  I ended up leaving in fifteen minutes before the class was over.  I had planned on going to church after.  I would have had plenty of time but oh no, I told myself I needed more time to cool off before I went.  I knew I didn't have time to go home and change first but I had a plan.  I was going to just go in late, sit in the back where no one could smell me :D or want to hug me and then just leave before anyone else got up.  So why did I tell myself I needed more time.  Excuses.  I caved that time and let the give up voice win.  He didn't win the whole day I did get in exercise time.  I know the end victory will be mine ... God said so.

So as I was sitting in my car looking at my heart rate meter, realizing that it wasn't one the whole time I was doing class, this song came on.  It hit me more clearly than ever.  

"I'm in a fight not physical.  I'm in a way but not of this world."

I'm counting on God

God wants more for me.  I use to tell myself that God must want me to be overweight after all he made me this way and I can't seem to get away from it.  I stopped believing the lies and now the enemy isn't happy.  I don't care cause I know I have a God, The God, that protects me from those lies.  

I'm sure today will be no different.  I plan on getting in gym time today and if I can find a class maybe I'll join in.  Tomorrow will be cardio at the gym followed by a good workout with my trainer.  Also going to go back to combat class.  Hope everyone has a super day. Say lots of prayers.  It makes the enemy mad :D

2-12-13

oh I am tired.  Lil sleep last night.  I have so much to say but really having a hard time staying awake.  I had a good day.  Nutrition good.  Even though it was Wednesday I made it to the gym.  Guess that makes up for not going on Monday.  Still getting in the same amount of workouts for the week.  Probably going to kick it pretty hard the next three days.

on top of not lil sleep I am fighting a war.  It's not the physical fight that is getting me right now.  I am fighting a battle of the spiritual.  I know who's gonna win :D

I'll write more tomorrow.  nite all

2-11-14

Feeling frustrated at the moment.  I know I haven't kept on track super strictly. I have only missed on day at the gym. For what? At this point when I weighed I was up.  UP??? Are you kidding?  ok ok I know I usually weigh around noon or so for the contest.  I know my meds are off.  But REALLY??  I wanted to scream but inside all I could do was cry.  I didn't but I wanted to.  This is why I HATE scales.

Ok gotta get focused.  What have I done just in the past month?  I have gotten back in the gym.  I have recaptured my nutrition.  That is worth something.  I'm not only thinking about getting healthy I am working forward to it.  This is a step up from two months ago.  At that time I was making excuses about how I got off track.  All true but still I know in my heart I could have made it happen differently, like I am now.  Same issues but I am doing it now.  See excuses.  I have plenty of them, we all do.

ok what else?  On the treadmill I realized that I can do a 3.5 for at least a min without dyeing.  This is better than I was doing back in August.  At that time I was pushing just to get up to a 3 struggling at 2.5.  2.5?? that is my warm up now.  It may not seem that great to some but it's getting better.

Let's see ... aahh I have tighten up my resistance on the bike and still keeping the same pace.  

I know I am discouraged by the weigh in tonight as well as the realization that I am not burning calories as much as I had thought I was.  I got the Heart Rate Meter to help me keep up my pace only to find that I am not burning the calories as much as the MyFitnessPal is logging.  Well at least not on the bike.  Strangely the treadmill was only a few calories off. I don't know. 

I know I know I'm making progress I just feel like I'm standing still.  AAAUUUGGhhh!!!!  I know it's a mental issue.  STOP IT!!! I know the guys with the white I love me jackets can't get in the house :D 

 No it's the do it.

 I don't want. 

 I know I want to.  I don't know why I let that part of me say I don't.  I keep getting the tugging that says KEEP GOING!!!  I know I'm not gonna stop.  I can't.  I know that that tugging in me is God telling me I can do it.  God telling me this is your time.  I believe in you and I am with you.  

I do believe that God is telling me this.  It never fails when I am at the gym hearing that give up voice along comes a song that say I am an Overcomer.  I need to shake cuz I'm changed.  Just a couple of ones that come to mind.  Yolanda you know what I'm talking about :D

I'm not giving up, just feeling weak I guess.  Time for prayers guys.  Thanks for you support.

2-10-14

Such an aggravating day.  I woke up early ... EARLY and took a while to go back to sleep.  No I don't want to get up at 3AM!!! No I don't want to get up at 4AM!!! The alarm is for 5:30!!!!  Ok so I couldn't go back to sleep the 2nd time till almost time for me to get up.  
While I was awake God and I had a few talks.  I did pray for a few of you buy I'm not telling who that's between me and God :D  
Woke up the 3rd time ok.  I only hit the snooze once this morning.  Got up fixed breakfast.  Sat around like I had no place in the world to be.  Keep in mind this is while I am listening to the weather guy say it's icy out side.  Most people this would trigger the thought of scraping ice.  No not me.  I still thinking I have all the time in the world.  After all I packed my gym bag last night.  Clothes were laying out to just step into them.  Easy enough right?  Oh no no.
I have to be at work at 7 am.  It is now at least 6:20.  Lalalalal walk in the kitchen and wash up dishes because this is what I do.  Then it hits me.  ICE!!!! I wonder if there is any on my car.  It is now at least 6:30 or so and I am still in night clothes and have done nothing past eating breakfast.  Time to hit it and gear up.
Toss on my shoes go start the car.  Come back changed an a quick hair do.  Bag by the door.  Purse sitting by it. Yep I'm good to go.  6:42 that's not even a record breaker.  Off to work again sitting in my chair just in time. Whew!!
But wait. oh no no no no what oh what did I just remember? or should I say what did I forget?  My meds!!!! Just getting back with them and now I miss a day.  This left me dragging all day.  I hate that feeling.  Not tired just no ... well no uuummppphhh ya know?
This feeling, plus the cold weather gave me a great excuse not to go to the gym.  I'm not feeling super upset about it but I may come Sunday when I have to weigh in.  I have done a lot better this time than last but then again only time will tell.  
So my NSV of the day has me super pumped.  Probably the best part of my day.  I made some good nutrition choices today.  The best one is something I DIDN'T eat.  I have soooooo been craving something with a crispy coating.  Fried chicken ... even back with the crunchy and no carbs.  I have been thinking about something to replace it but just haven't experimented with it yet.   So today there I sit.  Minding my own business and in walks my co-worker with Golden Chick.  I love Love LOVE L.O.V.E their chicken tenders.  I wanted one.  I looked at um when I walk by.  I allllmost got one.  "eehh it's just one" "one won't hurt" but no.  I made it thru the day without any.  I may have to treat myself for this one.  AAAhhh but not till later.  I still want it.  I also want some cheese cake that I am thinking about trying a low cal version to see what happens.  I'll keep ya updated on that one.

Dinner I had last nights left overs reworked.  Quinoa and veggies from last night.  Added in some fire roasted tomatoes and tomatoes.  A lil seasoning and ahhh dinner.  Only 230 calories a cup.  I know this is an off the wall recipe but thanks to the handy dandy calorie counter at 
http://caloriecount.about.com/cc/recipe_analysis.php  So simple even I can use it.  If I can remember what I put in it lol

So glad I wrote this.  I guess the day wasn't to bad after all.  Any day with a victory over food is a good day, even without the gym :D  Tomorrow is a new day.  I will make it.  I am an overcomer!!

2-9-14

Writing early today while I take a break.  It's been really good so far.  Man what a difference my meds make when I take them. lol  

The day started a bit earlier than I had planned on.  I guess when I was setting my alarm I set one alarm for an hour earlier than I had planned on getting up.  This was ok because I once again had a good nights sleep.  Took my night time meds and slept better than a baby ... no waking up every two hours lol

I had plenty of time to wake up.  Roam the house and read my devotional before I had to get ready for church.  I even had time to cook omelettes for my daughter and I.  Oh and I even got my dishes washed before I had to get ready for church.  Yeah me!!

After church we hit the new restaurant Wasabi.  I was a lil hesitant but I did really well.  The fried rice was the "worst" thing on my plate.  Salad, "soup", steamed veggies, shrimp and scallops.  YUM YUM YUM!!  I am spot on for my calories for the day.  I have shrimp and veggies planned for dinner and I am pretty sure I can stay in check.  Even after a stop off at Orange Leaf. :D

Then a short break and off to the gym.  It was a class for the core but I didn't keep up as well as I wanted to.  It has a lot of things that I had to be on my knees.  I just tried to keep moving along.  I'm happy about it.  Today I am not beating myself up.  

Today I did start using my heart rate meter just to see how many calories I had been burning.  I had talked with a friend about it and she stated it was a lot less than what I had been tracking per MyFitnessPal.  I was really shocked to see just how MUCH different.  My HRM, which has a strap checking my heart beat, was about half what MFP charted me at.  Sooooo I now know that I really  have to step it up.  I just thought I was doing ok.  Well better than nothing at all but at least now I can get a better sight at what I need to be doing to get this weight off. 

Some days I look at where I am and really don't like it.  Some days, like today, I am able to look back to just a month ago and realize how far I have come.  A month ago I wasn't in a regular gym routine.  A month ago I wasn't logging my food to keep up with what I was doing.  

Each week this past month I have found some way to step up a notch.  This week is no different.  My goal this week is to add at least two classes.  I really loved the combat class that I did Friday but unfortunately can't find two other evenings that I am able to get to it.  I will still be doing that one on Fridays in addition to at least an hour session with my trainer.  Fridays and Saturdays are suppose to be multiple workout days.  My goal:  Tuesdays and Thursdays I will be adding the classes and then just cardio on the rest of the nights.  Saturday I am sure I can find a class as well as being able to get in some cardio.  Time has come to kick this thing in the hinney.  Who's with me?

2-8-14

I am so sleepy right now I don't even want to write.  It's 9:30 at night and I just feel sleepy.  I finally got my meds today but to late to take them AND be able to sleep. 

Nutrition was good today but didn't get to the gym. I made a trip to the grocery store and had some really good choices.  I had planned on coming home and cooking up meals for the week.  That didn't happen.  My thought process was to have containers to put individual servings in.  That would have meant at least one more stop at the dollar store, I didn't have enough of the sizes I wanted.

So no gym.  No real exercise that I can say of today.  Not good from a contest stand point but I'm ok with it.  The most productive thing I accomplished other than getting healthy groceries would be cleaning on the house.  

I am hoping that tomorrow will bring more energy tomorrow.

 Sleepy ... going to sleep.  I will write more tomorrow.

2-7-14

wowza wowza wowza.  I think my tired is sore.  Today was super busy but I loved it.  After 4 hours of OT at work it was off to my trainer.  After James put me thru a boxing session, today we hit the weights.  Legs ... arms ... back we hit all of it.  I felt great. Tired but good.  Then again the tired is partly from missing one of my meds.  I MUST pick them up tomorrow.

After a short rest and a bite to eat I was off for more punishment.  I mean workout lol.  I was about to talk myself out of it but I am soooo glad I didn't.  Combat class was great.  Tara' kicked it.  As you know by now I love boxing and this had a lot of the moves I do with my trainer and then some.  She had kicking included.  Now I didn't say I kick, at least not well.  I will some day just wait and see.

Today working out wasn't the hard part.  I am getting the hang of it now.  Nutrition is what haunts me everyday.  I know that I need to eat but I know I need to control it too.  Breakfast piece of cake. No not
"A" piece of cake but it was easy choices.  Lunch thought I was doing ok but over did it a bit.  Carl's Jr for a grilled chicken.  I SPECIFICALLY said NO!!!!!!! sauce.  They almost got that right.  I was to tired to go back and fuss at them.  Not to mention the sweet potato fries.  Way to many calories but I ate um.

After looking at my calorie intake it was part of what motivated me to make it back to the gym.  Thinking at this point I was doing pretty good little did I know my biggest challenge was still ahead.  I had planned on after class I would go do some light cardio at Planet Fitness.  I even went there.  I sat in the parking lot for a few minutes catching up on MyFitness pal.  I was feeling pretty tired and ended up talking myself into coming home.  I got in TWO good hours of working out and I was ok with not going for round three.  

I made it home to hungry kids.  Ok I was hungry too.  After a shower off to iHop.  I could not make up my mind.  There were plenty of choices that weren't so crazy and I wanted to choose them, I really did.  The struggle came in when I kept looking at the calories of each dish and comparing it to my calorie burn for the day.  At this point I was making deals in my head.  I can eat this if I go back and workout for this amount of time.  The waiter is there and waiting for me to decided.  The kids were waiting for me to decide.  This was the worst moment I can think of what almost happened.  I wanted to cry.  I wanted to kick myself.  Why didn't go one more round to the gym.  Why didn't I just cook at home.  Wasn't it bad enough that have had crazy cravings for some of the old stuff I use to eat.  Then I can't believe what happened next.  " I don't think I want anything"  I couldn't decide.  

I did finally get some eggs, turkey bacon and wheat toast.  Even that put my calories higher than I had wanted for the day.  I was still "under" for what my MyFitnessPal says I am suppose to be eating.  For that matter I was in the range that I want to stay within.  Why was this so hard for me?  Why did I feel like I should have done more?  I lost sight of what is important.  The competition side of me came out and I was being hard on myself.  I need to find a balance with the healthy life I want and doing well with the contest.  I want to do well but not at the expense of not being healthy.  

Tomorrows plans are somewhat like today.  Workout, clean house, workout.   Rest an eat some where along the way.  Say a prayer for me.  This is hard no matter how you look at it.  Thanks again for all your support.

2-6-14

Man I am starting to feel tired.  I have been FULL of energy the past few days.  I am starting to feel soooo much better.   I am a lil more focused today.  That's good for eveyone around me lol

Today started off bright an early at 5:30 ...aahh 5:35 .... I mean 5:45 ... Walking thru the house I looked and realized it did snow.  I just love clearing snow off my car .... NOT!!!!  After dragging myself thru the house till my 6am alarm went off it was time to kick it up a notch.  Breakfast would have to be ate on the run.  What oh  oh what do I eat?  Eggs?? Don't mind if I do.  Cooked them up and tossed um in a bowl. 

Quickly dressed ... went to start the car to warm up.  Back in for breakfast to eat at work ... grabbed some veggies for snacks.  Got the water bottles ..  Bag it up and ready to go.

The day went by pretty quickly.  About mid-afternoon decided I could use a boxing session.  My lucky day James had a cancellation.  I was just full of energy that I have not had in a while.  Love it!!!  I hit it pretty hard.  Worked up a good sweat.  love Love LOVE L.O.V.E it.

Mid afternoon plans would be to get in the boxing and then go back to the gym.  Dinner plans come in play.  My future Son in law had cooked.  Salmon ... it was really good.  I really did want to go back to the gym after dinner.  I had the energy that I could probably have put in at least an hour on the bike.  I could have used that time too but I pushed myself, my knee, pretty hard when I was boxing and it was not happy with me at this point.  Since I promised my Dr that I would watch the signs so I didn't blow it out the popping pain told me my knee was needing rest.  I'm ok with it from a normal health stand point.  From the contest side of me I REALLY wanted to push it a lil more.  I didn't but I just feel like I should be getting in more.  UUGGHHH!!!!

Tomorrow I have a FULL day planned.  Work is offering OverTime.  Since that doesn't happen often I am up for taken some of it in.  I am use to being up and at work by 7 anyway  so I can get in 5 hrs there before I go to my trainer for some weights.  Lunch and house cleaning (anyone wanna help?) and then back to the gym.  I'm have been wanting to try PUMP so tomorrow it's on the list  After that least one more trip to the gym for an hour of cardio on the bike.   Saturday looks almost the same without meeting with my trainer.  Who's with me?  You know you wanna :D 

2-5-14

What do you find harder to hold on to....motivation (i.e. staying positive, keeping a fresh perspective) or endurance (i.e. the strength to go on...the strength to eat right...the strength to make it to the gym)?

This was the question asked by the contestant leader today.  My initial reaction is eating right.  For the most part this is true ... I think.  

I could probably write a book about all the things that would help me be healthy.  It's not that I don't have the knowledge of what to do.  I have the knowledge; just getting it from my head to the rest of my body is where the fault lies.  I do really well when I can stay focused.  I get off track for even one day I am done.  I struggle with staying organized.  

I could blame it on my ADD but that is an excuse.  An excuse not in the sense that I shouldn't let it get to me.  An excuse in the sense I have to learn to overcome it.  Overcome like someone that has lost a limb.  Overcome like someone who has had to struggle to make something out of nothing.  I think of a young man that I watched grow up from a rough childhood to be a manager for a large company.  I wasn't close to him to know if he made excuse but I do know the young man I see of him now.  

Growing up I didn't know about ADD but I do understand it more these days.  I have had to learn to compensate for it and not let it hold me back.  I don't know that if that is what my biggest problem is that keeps me from being organized but I do know it doesn't help it.

After I initially read this question and answered I was reminded of the ADD.  It's not something I think about having.  I have trained myself how to stay focused.  Take notes in church so that I am not looking around chasing rabbits in my head.  Looking someone in the eye when I talk to them so I don't get distracted by other things in the room.  So why can't I do this with other things in my life?  Health things, ya know?  Do I want it bad enough?  hhmm :/

I was reminded of my ADD while having a conversation with a young man that I admire.  Anyone that knows me knows I love football.  I watched this kid ( I can say kid he's my sons age) play hard and leave it all on the field.  I have often thought why can't I put some of that same determination in my gym workouts that I have seen him do on the field.  Does he want it more?  Man I hate when I hear the statement "you just don't want it bad enough” really?  Why do I get upset by that?  Is it because I know deep down that if I REALLY wanted it as bad as I think I do I would work harder?  I have to tell myself the same thing I told him.  ADD just means you have to work harder at the things you don't like so you can do the things you do like.   

That's it.  I'm not an athlete nor will I ever be.  I don't have a desire to be an athlete.  I love how I feel when I get in a good workout but to say I love it?  nnaaaa  I can think of plenty of other things I would like to do.  Things that would keep me active too.  I know that I have to do this to get healthy and be able to do all the things on my bucket list (sorry that is a different blog night).  So as I told him I work harder so you can do what you love.  

So how was my day before that?  It's Wednesday.  I got up strangely full of energy and stayed that way all day.  Crazy energy lol.  Here is it is 11:15 and I should be asleep but I'm not.  I did great on my nutrition choices ... aahhmmm till the evening.  

Being it's Wednesday it's one of the two nights that I allow myself to not get in a workout.  Today it wasn't for time but I was helping a friend.  In my hurry to get everyone else taken care of I answered the right question with the wrong answer.  WHAT??  Remember a few weeks ago the Chick fil a choice?  In the middle of something and someone asked do you want? Sure???  I did it again tonight.  Wasn't really thinking about nutrition choices at the time so when I heard I'm ordering Pizza you want wings.  Sure I said as I drove off "be back in a min" I said.  WHAT?????????????????  Yeah I ate them.  I was still in my calorie range for the day.  At the same time that is not a habit I am wanting to get into.  I go back to being organized ... focus!!! oh yeah 

squirreeellllll  look ..

oh sorry yeah it happens that easy with me at times.  

I know that getting organized for me is going to be STOPPING and writing down what I want to do.  Where I want to be ... aahhmm Trista did you call that roadmap??  See I use GPS these days so I am not sure what a roadmap is.  lol   GPS ...hhmm GPS ... Good Physical Stuff? bbwwwhahaha  I have the sillies today.  Tomorrow is going to be fun.  I think I'll do it again :D   Anyone out there want to help me make this roadmap for my GPS I am all up for the help.  Anyone? you know you want to :D

I love my life.  Days can be hard but just keep going till they get better ... hmmm sounds like work harder doesn't it ... I think I am seeing a pattern :D   I'm chasing squirreeeelllllssssssssssssssss  so if you want to get my attention and keep me focus I welcome the challenge.  Nite all.  I have to do it all again tomorrow.

2-3 and 2-4

What a day this has been.  I kept feeling like I needed to make up for yesterday but fighting holding back some so that I didn't over work myself.  Good thing the battery died on my phone or I might have kept going :D

If you have been following my blog you will see that I didn't post yesterday.  This is only the 2nd time that has happened.  Wait wait I have a great excuse .... I was sick.  No sick of life or the gym.  Real sick :(
I woke up just after 4 am yesterday and my tummy was not happy with me for some reason.  I was not happy with it either, it kept me awake.  I got back to sleep about time to get up for work.  This was something I REALLY didn't want to do but there was not getting out of it.  There were no options for calling in so I toughed it out for the day.  I kept trying to tell my body that if I could make it thru the work day I could surely do at least 30 minutes of cardio.  My body responded ... aaahhh NO!!

I came home and had an easy meal ... ahhmm bran flakes.  Not sure that was the best option under the circumstances but it wasn't harsh on it.  I don't think I ever really moved after that.  By the time I got home and settled on that for dinner it was about 7:30.  I lay here thinking I will do a blog in a few minutes.  Next thing I remember my daughter coming in to get a pair of pants to return to Wal-Mart couldn't even tell ya what time it was.  Next thing I knew it was midnightish and I seen my daughter was home and went back to sleep till just before my alarm went off at 5:30 this morning.

Today I was feeling better overall.  I made healthy choices on my nutrition and I got to the gym for a good "work day" workout.  There was part of my wanting to make up for yesterday but the smarter side of me held  back.  I don't want to push so hard that I end up setting myself back where I am not able to get to the gym.

I started on the treadmill.  I was going to just do a short 15-20 minute walk at a slow pace.  I did this for ooohhh 4:38 minutes till a song came on that made my feet want to dance.  I am sure at this point, to the average eye, I looked pretty funny.  I can't say I was dancing on the treadmill, we all know by now I do good just walking on it.  But I did add a lil fun step in there with it.  I kept the pace up between 2.5 and 3 for the next 20 minutes.  I couldn't help it ... KLOVE had some good songs on.  So much for a casual warm up walk ():D

When I finished my "walk" I wanted to do weights.  It seem like every place I wanted to go someone else was already there.  I ended doing a few stations in the back and leg room.  I went to the do some stretching but about that time my battery died on my phone.  Of course I need some music to keep going ... doesn't everyone?  I went for my backup battery and when I got back .... yeah you guess it ... someone was on my station.  At this point I gave up on doing any weights or strengthening and headed off the the bikes.   

Ok so I don't want to over work.  I did a pretty good pace, for me, on the treadmill so I will do the easy cool down on the bike.   Stop laughing!! I was gonna.  Really I was.  Ok so it, like the treadmill, wasn't so causal.  I would check my heart rate and push the speed up.  I keep telling ya'll, for me getting there is the hard part.  Stopping or slowing down is even harder once I do get there.

I did make myself stop after 30 minutes on the bike.  My knee was already not happy with my "walk" on the treadmill but now my ankle wasn't happy with me at this point.  So off to the house for a shower and dinner.  

After my shower I had salad with chicken  Not to be confused with chicken salad.  Something quick easy and low cal.  I had already had enough carbs for the day so I tossed some chicken, lettuce and tomatoes in a bowl with a little balsamic vinaigrette and that was dinner.  

So today I held back from doing to much to make up for yesterday.   Lunch was my challenging meal for the day but I found a grilled chicken sandwich at Braums (only half bun) with only a couple of fries.  I still can't believe I tossed them in the trash.  Yeah I had a good day.  How bout you?  Wanna join me at the gym tomorrow?  I'm thinking of going to Geared Up Fitness and getting in a class or two this week.  Tara you wanna kick my hinney?  Bring it on :D