3-8-10 / 3-9-12

• Don't stop keep going.  
• Don't give up cuz the storm is here, the reward is just around the corner. 
• It doesn't matter what you do just keep moving.  
• I can do all things thru Christ. 
• You deserve the best.
• I must have lost my mind. 
• Do I really want this or am I bored?

 These are some of the things that I say when I do my workouts. These are things that I think about when I want to give up.  When I am thinking about what I am going to eat for my next meal.  When I think about do I really want to go to the gym.  I know we all have our times when it seems like the goal is just to far away, or we are tired of fighting and just want to give up.  What is your thought when you workout?  When you eat?  When you think about your life's path?

• "wow you are looking really good"
• "I bet you feel a lot better"
• "I am jealous of how much you have lost"
• "what are you doing you look like you have lost weight" 
• "You are doing such a good job, way to go"
• "I am proud of you"
• "you have such courage to do this"

These are thing that I love to hear these days, at the same time some days I feel the pressure.  Some days it's what keeps me going.  I have come to far to turn back and I know people are watching me.  And please don't be jealous of me, you can do this too.  I know, I know, I have thought it at times when I see people losing weight.  I do hurt for this one person that said that because he has said it several times.  hhmm Sean maybe I need to let him read your book. :D 

• What would people think if I stopped now?
• Would the people that said I inspired them stop if I did?
• If my weight was to go back up my health would go back down.

These are things that go thru my mind when I feel like giving up.  Don't get me wrong I am doing this for me.  I want this.  I need this.  I want to be able to "live" without all the drawbacks of being obese.  I never asked for anyone to put me on a pedestal but I have people that are obese like me that see it can be done.  To be honest I never thought I would come this far.  I wanted it.  Anyone that has attempted weight loss will understand that.  I had tried it so many times and had some progress only to fall back and gain even more back.  When I started I didn't really tell anyone what I was doing it.  It wasn't until about five months in when I did start talking about it, about the time people started noticing that I had made progress.  Until that point I had only talked to maybe two or three people about what I was doing.  They seen me walking at work and would smile, but no one really said anything about it, probably because they had seen it before.


I had started out just by cutting out whites and sugars, you know the good stuff.  I had heard about a book called Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst.  It is about a spiritual journey as well as a physical.  We are not just a physical being or a mental being we are spiritual as well.  All these things work together.  For me to say I did this on my own would not be true.  You have heard the term "body, mind and soul" yep we have it all.  We have the strength inside us we just have to learn to unlock it.  God gives us that strength.  We can cry out to Him to help us, or get us outta of where we are, but even then we have to chose to take that help.  I use to ask to get me out of this.. about a lot of things in my life.  When I started asking for strength to make it thu, like when dolphin boy makes waves, I find that strength and get stronger.  If I never push my limits I will never grow.  It's like when I started in the gym.  I didn't have the strength in my knee to do weights, but with pain an perseverance I do now.  If I had just sat back and asked someone to carry me away I would never have gotten that strength.  Baby steps, it where you have to start.


I can't say that I keep a consistent focus on one thing from day to day.  I have tweaked and changed my habits and thoughts.  Some days I focus on my body and how I feel.  Some days I get focused on my thoughts, and that is not always a good thing.  But every day I focus on the spiritual side because for me that is where my strength comes from.  I know it's my choice on everything I do, but without the wisdom and strength to make those choices I would .... well I would be where I have been for too long ... obese.

I know, today my thought were all over the place, probably cuz I have not been to the gym today yet.  Remember that is where I collect my thoughts?  But today starts the first of my ten days off.  Yeah VACATION :D  Or should I say my staycation?  I am not going anywhere.  I have jobs around the house, paint the kitchen, spring cleaning ... stuff.  I do plan on getting to get to the gym everyday.  I want to be down 30 lbs by my next Dr visit.  It's not an over achiever goal, it's my three month check up.  Wish me luck


What are you short term goals?  What are your thoughts?  Have you made a goal, of anything, not just weight lose?  How are you going to make it there?  Start with baby steps.