2-27-12

Yup it's been a few days thought I would check in again.  Came home to an empty house so I am taking advantage of it.  Hear that?  Listen ... nice huh.  only sound right is the typing of the keys on the lap and my fan.  It doesn't happen very often but it's nice tonight.

So my last report was the 86 lbs off.  WOW.  I am still kinda trippin on it.  I don't see it for the most part but everyone else say they can.  Sunday I seen a few friends that I had not see in a while.  They really saw the difference.  On walked up and hugged me and asked "where the rest of me was"  After being a mom for over 20 I thought he was talking about my kids.  He never seen me without at least one kid that wasn't to far behind.  I started tell him where they were.  "no no, where is the rest of YOU?"  I hadn't seen him since before I started the journey this time.  We had chats on FB but hadn't seen me.  It really does feel good.

I have a really weird NSV but I love it.  Sunday night I was at still another friend that I had not seen in about 7 months now.  I was sitting at the table before we ate dinner and looked down an laughed.  I looked at "mom" and said "hey Granny, I have a lap"  rofl ... I know it's funny but I can remember a time when I couldn't see my lap.  

Saturday when I was getting ready to go to the gym I picked up a t-shirt that I had not worn in a few months.  Actually my son had taken it thinking it was his.  He has the same shirt same size so it would have been an honest mistake.  I didn't think to much about it will I was looking for something clean to wear.  I had yet to do laundry.  I tossed it in my bag for my after workout clothes and went on my way.  I got in my workout and was feeling good.  Went to dress after the shower and realized the t-shirt was now hanging lose.  Not the baggy lose that most of my shirts are now, but I didn't have to pull an tug to get it to fit.... AWESOME!! NSV again.  That's two weeks in a row that I have done that with clothes.  Actually have been doing it all week really.   The shirt I am wearing now my is hanging on me.  I think I could probably fit my daughter in here with me.  I didn't realize it had gotten this big.  but it feels great.

Today I had a great surprise.  One my very good friends, actually like a father to me.  I just love him and his wife.  He had to leave work a year ago for medical reasons and come back for his retirement day.  I had not seen him since last summer when he moved to Kansas so that his daughter could help with him.  I was so excited to see him.  When he asked how I was doing I just laughed and said " I'm shrinking".   I love it. 


While I was in the room talking with him a couple of the other managers and I started talking.  There was cake that I politely passed up.  The subject came up that there were bad foods.  I laughed and said "there are no bad food, there are just some food that are not as healthy for you and you shouldn't eat as much of them"  I guess as much as I joke around at work she thought this was one of those time but I went farther.  The on manager was understanding what I was saying cuz she is there with me losing too.  But the second one wasn't seeing it yet.  So I explained my "calorie bank".  I said I eat what I want, but I learn to budget my calories so that I don't spend them all at the start of the day and I don't get hungry by the end of the day.  Not sure she ever really got it but I do :D  


Don't get me wrong I don't just over indulge at any time.  I never really overate all the time.  Most days I didn't eat enough and my body went into starvation mode and kept what I did eat.  On top of that not getting exercise didn't help.   By the time I got to that part I think she understood a lil better.  I learn to budget my calories.  Today was a good example.  I really wanted to just run thru the drive thru of McDonalds on my lunch and just grab come chicken nuggets.  I was in a hurry.  I had several stops to make in just an hours time.  It's chicken it's better for you than some of the other choices.. right? NO!!!!  I ended up at Jack n Box and got a lil healthier option.  Grilled chicken sandwich with NO bun ... ok ok and some curly fries.  But since I didn't eat the bun I had the calories to spare.  I am still within my calories for the day .... YEAH ME!!!


Today I had a nice workout.  Short, for what I want to do, but nice.  I got in 15 min on the bike and 50 min in the pool.  And today I didn't even stop when I was swimming to rest at anytime.  I kept thinking how the first few times I had to stop every few laps or so.  Now I can go an hour without stopping.  I AM getting better.  STRONGER .... RRROOAARR .. hehehe :D


I have a full week still ahead of me.  One more day at work and trying to get in a workout.  Thursday starts with a power workout.  Then lunch with a friend.  House work and laundry.  Then off for a photoshoot.  That's just one day.  Friday will be a lil more laid back.  A short workout then off to work.  Maybe one after work too since I won't make it to the gym Saturday.  I will be doing photo at what I am calling a grung run.  People are going to pay money to run thru all kind of stuff.... mud .. more stuff ... MUD!!  I get to set back and watch them get dirty, laugh and take their pix :D  That's gonna take up most of the day.  Saturday night FOOTBALL!!! my favorite sport really.  I just love working with this team.  They are a great bunch of guys.  And when I stand next to them they make me look small   rofl ... I  LOVE IT!!


Ok well house will be getting busy in a few.  My son came in just a few minutes ago and my daughter is due here in 4 min so I need to wrap it up.

I did see something that made me think today.  I know stop laughing I do think once in a while.  I then take an aspirin for the headache.   There was a picture of a lady with her son and grand baby.  The caption was something to the words " I am doing it for them, what motivates you?"  What does motivate you??  I want to be healthy an be there for my kids and some day grand kids.  But my daughter graduates next year.  At the end of football season they have what is called Sr Night.  The kids are escorted by parents or others.  I really want to look nice for my daughter.  She doesn't come right out and say it but I know my size bothers her.  I want her to be proud of me, not ashamed of me.  My kids are really great.
So what motivates you?  I know you want to be healthy I do too.  But look past that.