I wish I could have at least 2-3 good days in a row. Bad days? Wow they can go for weeeeks. Why not the good day. Not much to say other than I totally blew my whole day. Alarm went off at 7am so I could have had plenty of time to be at the pool by 8. That didn't happen.
This started off a chain reaction of bad choices for the rest of the day.
I woke up hungry because, if you remember, I went to bed hungry and water sloshed last night. Breakfast consisted of the rest of the pork chops and broccoli from last nights dinner. I know not to bad right? Just wait.
I spent the next few hours trying to finish up the video I was working on. This only got me frustrated when I got all the clips I wanted and didn't save. I usually do this every few steps why I didn't today I have no idea. Long story short had a mishap that lost the last hour of work and I had to start over. Still laying on the couch because I just didn't feel like doing anything else, I started over again.
The only thing that did get me to move much was going to the ranch to take pictures for their website. Aahh but before I could leave the house I had something that upset me. As I drove off, hungry, I began to cry.
Arguing with myself about getting something to eat and to stop crying in the next, and worst, choice I made today. Whataburger!! A bacon cheeseburger meal that left me a whopping calorie count of 800!! one meal. I really didn't even enjoy like I thought I would. I was still fighting back tears.
Just before I got to the road that leads to the ranch was the graveyard that my parents are buried in. This of course makes me cry cuz I have really been missing my mom. Two years gone by now and some days it seems like it was yesterday when I got the call.
At the ranch was pretty much the only exercise I got today. Don't get too excited for me. All I did was walk around the stalls and the first riding area and took some pictures of the horses. The riders were not there. My bad they are not going to be there till tomorrow. I will not. I will be two hours away at on of my "kids" graduations. My daughters best friend since kindergarten will be walking the stage tomorrow. She is like my own.
I come home and where did I go? Back to my comfy corner I call (and a few of my friends) my world. I was laying here laptop in hand going to work on the video once again and............ fell back asleep. Actually I think I cried myself to sleep.
The day is pretty much wasted. I only halfway completed anything I set out to do. The video is ready for the music but now, to add to my frustration, I can not get the music. I am pretty sure I am going to call it a night and try again tomorrow
Stand back, say a PRAYER and cheer me on. I need all the help I can get.
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