Last night was a late night so no gym this morning. I was so tired, sleepy feeling all day. I have to get to bed earlier tonight. If I don't get enough sleep my body can't burn off the calories I am giving it. Or so they tell me. I just know if I go without enough sleep for to many days in a row I am not the person you want to be around.
Tonight I came home to the empty house. I don't really watch TV anymore. And as you know by now my feelings about cooking for one. I did good on my calories and I didn't blow it tonight as bad as I hear the food calling my name. No I promise I am not hearing the voices lol
Sometimes the quiet is nice. I lay here, I know I should go for a walk ... it aint gonna happen, and I hear the cars going by. The fan spinning. And my stomach saying FEED ME!!
The depression is getting me today. That part of my wants to run and eat anything I can get my hands on. I just want to do something but I can't even seem to get myself to do that.
I did make myself eat a bowl of peas. I have kept within my calorie range for the day. I think I should stop looking at recipes on Pintrest, it's only helping the hungry monster that I am trying to ignore.
I should probably call it an early evening. I need my rest, not just for health reason, because I have a big photoshoot that I am a bit nervous about. I know my photos are good, but I also know that not everyone likes them. This one is going to be in print as advertising. That's what I have wanted. That's what I went to school for. So it's time to step and ... aaahh but the what if's pop in my head.
I think I just need to go to bed.
Say a prayer and stop in an cheer me on. I need all the help I can get right now.
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