Today was to be a new start. Then again isn't everyday a new start? Today was difference. Last night I had my first conference call with a support group that is on the same journey as I am. This is something I have very much needed. I have gotten off track somewhat. More so my motivation.
Some days I feel like someone needs to just push my off the cliff to get me going. Today would have been a good day to have someone with a shock collar. I did well last night getting to bed at a time that would get my up and at the gym by 5:30 when the pool opens. Did I make it? I just wasn't feelin it. I was up. I was even awake. I just couldn't make myself go.
I did talk myself into something .. well a better choice of what I wanted to do. I WANTED to go to Ihop for breakfast. I love the Waffle breakfast but I stayed home and had eggs and wheat toast. That was enough to last me till lunch. Actually past lunch time. I don't know if I really wasn't hungry or if it was the "I donwannnas". I ended up wandering downstairs to the cafeteria and the choice was ... chicken pot pie ... carbs ... corn ... carb/starch ... hamburger and french fries. The thing about eating there is even the "good foods" end up fried over covered in butter somehow. The steamed veggies after being steamed are put on a grill and cooked in butter. I don't get this. So french fries is what I ended up with. Tomorrow I need to pack my lunch cuz I have not felt like leaving.
The evening challenge of what to do for dinner. Cooking for one just isn't any fun. The kids were gone, as they usually are these days, and I really just didn't want to cook a big meal. I have been craving green peas and that is what I had. Six cups to be exact lol.
I had one round of peas three cups and then came the commercial for Dairy Queen. Ice cream looked inviting. I don't usually want it but I think I was more hungry still than I wanted ice cream. So back to the freezer for a second round of peas and more water. I guzzled another 32 oz with the peas and I think I am good for the night. I just need to get my mind off it. Thats the hard part. Empty nest here and I don't have as much going on, not that I don't have things to do, to keep my mind off "stuff".
Tomorrow is a new day. I plan on getting up an swim before work. I know I will feel better. I can do this. I can do this!!! So stand back, say a prayer and cheer me on.
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