4-25-12

This is no excuses year and I am making them.  When I know I am going to have a busy day I tell myself it's ok to hit the gym for less time than I had planned.  Why do I do that?  Why do I let that old self move in when I know that old self is destructive?  I can't say it's selfish cuz selfish means you are thinking of yourself.  If I was I wouldn't be so destructive .. right?
The past week has been kinda crazy for me.  I keep having people tell me how good I look, yes it makes me feel good.  I do feel good anyway.  In the past two days I have have two people tell me they didn't realize it was me.  I just don't see it.  I look in the mirror I see a fat lady.  I feel good but I still see where I have to go.  Is that a good thing or bad?

Ok tomorrow is an official weigh in date.  I go to the Dr in the morning to see what I have done over the past three months.  Will I hit the 100lb mark?  Probably not the way I took it easy two weeks ago. But if I don't it's ok, I have come a long way and I'm not giving up.

People ask me how I have done this.  The one consistent thing I have done is keeping my calories between 1,500-2,000 and exercise.  My goal is to exercise at least 30 min a day.  I am failing on this one :(.  I still make myself park FAR from the door I am going to.  I take stairs at work, ok ok just going down for now but I am able to do this with much more ease than I could 6 months ago.  

Something that I have found over the past year, like everything else, I have to change up about every 20-25 lbs.  I start out doing pretty good by cutting out whites and sugars. (if you don't know what that means feel free to ask).  This did pretty good for the first 20 lbs where I hit a wall for THREE weeks.  

At that point I start the six meal plan with my protein shakes.  I started the day off with either a good healthy breakfast then a shake of my early break at work or some days swap those two around.  On the days that I had breakfast on my way to work I would stop at Subway.  I got my breakfast and then a footlong/ wheat/ ham n cheese.  On my lunch I would go for a walk for most of the hour.  When I cam back I would have half of my Subway and then save the 2nd part for later that afternoon.  When I got home had a healthy supper and then maybe a shake or smoothie for an evening snack.  This worked for a while, till I had my Sept setback when Mom passed.  


Six weeks later when I realized I had put back on 15 lbs it snapped me back to reality.  I got back on track and over the next week and half I had dropped 18 lbs.  I play with the two ethings I just stated.  I kept low-no carbs and high fiber an stayed busy.  


At this point in my journey I eat what I want.  I don't over eat anything of the "bad" stuff but if I want a donut I eat one and keep it in my calorie count.  See as soon as I tell myself, and I am sure you will agree, that I can't have something that is the very moment I want it most.  I stay reasonable with my choices but if I want some chips an salsa when I go out to eat I have some.


On paper it looks so easy and really it is.  It's a choice you have to make for yourself.  I had a friend just the other day tell me "I can't seem to find time to exercise"  my reply? "nope and you never will, you have to MAKE time"  I know I am talking to myself.   Today my excuse is it's to hot.  Have you ever been in 100 degree temp in Texas?? that's hot :D  I know I know I need to sweat.  I said I has excuse, I didn't say they were good ones.  Are excuses ever good??


I know I have a goal of and I am the only that can stand in my way.