4-23-12

Ok so if you are following you know that I have not been getting this done every day, more lucky to blog every week.  I would like to say I have been busy and it would be true but probably more than anything I have not been to the gym as much.  Not that I am trying to hide that fact, but there is when I do my best thinking.  I know I know stop laughing I do think sometimes :D
I really need to follow my own advise that I gave someone just today.  You will never FIND time to exercise you have to MAKE the time.  I can say that the new schedule is my problem but I know that I just need to MAKE the time to exercise.  I have been walking on my lunch some and on my long break in the evening, but even that has not been consistent. So my game plan at this point is to MAKE myself find at least 30 min EVERYday to walk.  If nothing else just walk. I am not going to include the time it takes for me to walk from my car, at the back of the lot, to the building or reverse that in the evening when I leave.  I will not include the time it takes for me to walk to the break room or any other place on my breaks.  I will fine 30 mins a day for the time to include for JUST as exercise.  Who's with me.  
We spend that much time sitting in front of the TV watching a sitcom in the evenings.  Take a walk with a friend.  Take a walk with your kids.  Take a walk alone and think about what is going on and clear you head.  You feel better.  You sleep better.  It's a win win situation.  I know, my foot hurts, my knee hurts.  I have a headache.  The allergies are bad right now.  Hey I am the queen of excuses but if I can find time to do something for 30 min anyone can.  Oh here's a great idea.  Get an exercise bike and ride while you are watching that sitcom.  Before you know it you are done :D
So Thursday is my day to see the Dr.  I am hoping to hit the 100lb mark by that time.  In light of that I have gone back to my shakes.  I am eating a good breakfast and then doing protein shakes the other two meals on weekdays.  I am staying in my calorie range and I am good :D  Wish me luck.

ok so for my big problem, well not so much a problem but me getting past myself.  I feel better than I have in a long time, not that's not the problem.  I have people tell me all the time I am looking good, not that's not it either.  I can fit in those clothes that you hang on to when you lose weight and most are to big now, nope still not it.  I can see on the scale, I see in the clothes I wear but when I look in the mirror I still this fat person.  I know that I have come a long way but I keep seeing how far I have to go.  I see the big girl.  I can't wait till I can see myself like others see me, those that knew me before.   I know someone reading this is going to ask how it that a problem.  I can't seem to get past what I was to see who I really am.