ok so I missed some days. Life is crazy. Again I would like to say it's because I have been so busy getting fit that I have not had time to blog but it's not true.
I have been walking more but not the past few days. Been staying
more active than I did for a while but getting to the gym seems to be a BIG challenge for me. Don't worry I'm working on it.
I know I have said this before but I will say it again. You gotta have a balance of sleep, nutrition and exercise to make this work. It's the sleep part that is getting me here lately. I don't know if it's the withdraw of caffeine that is causing it or the stress. At the same time I know exercise is a great stress relief, so why don't I do this? Good question. let me know when you have the answer.
Today I am making a new start. Yes again!! At least I'm not giving up.
This morning, after interrupted sleep, I started with a good breakfast. Eggs, wheat toast and granola cereal. I plan on getting in at least a collection of 30 min walk. I can do this. I will try to check in later tonight an let you know how I've done
Stand back, say a prayer and cheer me on :D
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Monday, November 5, 2012
Monday 11-5-12
today has not been a good day. The weekend wasn't really good either. I guess that's why I didn't blog. I didn't like doing anything. ANYTHING. I am in a funk, probably feelings sorry for myself a bit. Yesterday stopped caffeine and feeling it. Didn't really plan it but had run out of the case of Monster drinks that I had bought and just didn't want to buy one yesterday morning on my way to church. After church didn't think much about it till I realized the headache was not going away.
Today I thought that since I had already hit the headache stage I wanted to keep going. I took a few drinks but that's all. Considerably less since I usually have at least 1-2 a day.
Today I was in my funk, no not because of the withdraws, just other things going on. Before I left for work I had some eggs and wheat toast.
When I got in the car there was the bag of chips I had bought yesterday. No, not a small bag. The regular big bag of my sea salt an pepper kettle chips. I had bought them when I was upset and they were calling my name today. I munched on the till around 2:00 this afternoon. Not my best choice of the day, esp since I didn't eat lunch.
Early break went for walk. I really had hoped that I could walk off the frustration that I was feeling. No frustration isn't really the word. I've got a hurt that I really don't want to talk about on here. Some things in life are just that way. I keep dealing with it.
My lunch I really didn't want to walk, but I didn't want to find a corner to cry in either. I figured that walking would be the better option. I did get in my 30 min for the day.
By the end of my work day the headache was much worse that I thought it could be. I took some more pain reliever but probably shouldn't have, it gave my a stomach ache. To many on an empty of this old lady was a bad combo. I tried eating when I got home but it was already to late. I had a bowl of raisin bran.
now here I sit blogging .. nite all
Today I thought that since I had already hit the headache stage I wanted to keep going. I took a few drinks but that's all. Considerably less since I usually have at least 1-2 a day.
Today I was in my funk, no not because of the withdraws, just other things going on. Before I left for work I had some eggs and wheat toast.
When I got in the car there was the bag of chips I had bought yesterday. No, not a small bag. The regular big bag of my sea salt an pepper kettle chips. I had bought them when I was upset and they were calling my name today. I munched on the till around 2:00 this afternoon. Not my best choice of the day, esp since I didn't eat lunch.
Early break went for walk. I really had hoped that I could walk off the frustration that I was feeling. No frustration isn't really the word. I've got a hurt that I really don't want to talk about on here. Some things in life are just that way. I keep dealing with it.
My lunch I really didn't want to walk, but I didn't want to find a corner to cry in either. I figured that walking would be the better option. I did get in my 30 min for the day.
By the end of my work day the headache was much worse that I thought it could be. I took some more pain reliever but probably shouldn't have, it gave my a stomach ache. To many on an empty of this old lady was a bad combo. I tried eating when I got home but it was already to late. I had a bowl of raisin bran.
now here I sit blogging .. nite all
Friday, November 2, 2012
Friday 11-2-12 day 4
Ok so today wasn't too bad. I had some chicken when I got up this morning. Yes I said chicken.
oh but I need to rewind a bit first. Last night after I wrote my blog I dropped the ball a bit. My daughter works on a chicken place at some nights brings home some of the leftover chicken. The roasted chicken is really good, but I eat that? No!! I had to have a piece of fried chicken at midnight when she woke me up as she came in. I know I know it's not good or a good time of day but I did it.
This morning I had a piece of chicken ... well what my cat didn't talk me out of. I didn't get even a whole piece. I was on the run by this time so I called in my breakfast burrito. I love it. I the the flour tortilla isn't the best choice but for now I am working on. I'm not making excuses, stating facts.
Lunch ... nope I went for walk on lunch. Now by the afternoon it was a different story. We had a team meeting and it was snack day. Since I didn't eat lunch I was starting to get hungry. I was glad to see that someone had a veggie tray. Even though I did dip in Ranch dressing it was a better choice than it has been in the past.
I know at this point you are about ready to pat me on the back with "atta girl" but wait. Someone also had meat cheese tray. Oh the most lovely sourdough bread I had seen in awhile. Yes I made a sandwich and loved it. I did put veggies and the meat. Mustard is a better option than mayo and I do love some spicy brown mustard. Is it good for ya? I don't know I didn't read the label this time.
At the end of the meeting I did make a second one to take home with me. This one was mostly veggies because ... well that part doesn't matter.
After work my daughter and I went to have nails done. I don't do this often but it's a payday treat that she and I have started doing. I love to be pampered as much as the next person. ():)
After the nails it was almost game time. I had the veggie sandwich and I was off to the game. On the way I stopped for my bottle of water, since I was way behind my goal for the day and I really did want water.
Game time!! I love football. I can watch it anytime, anywhere. I don't even have to know about the teams. If I am in the mood to watch football I'll just pick the team with the best color. I know.. stop laughing :D
I spent most of the time walking the field taking photos. I love it too. Almost half time an my friends is off to the concession stand. "do you want anything?" "naa I'm good". No no don't pat me on the back yet. As she walked off I had the phone in my hand and text one worn "NACHOS"!!
Even as I sat in the stands and ate them, which by the way was probably one of the worst nachos I have ever had, I'm thinking ... nope I just ate um.
When I got home from the game I was a lil hungry. Remember the chicken? Nope I didn't eat the fried I had some roasted chicken. Again what my cat didn't talk me out of.
So now here I sit. Thinking back over the day. All in all it could have been much worse. I don't know if I broke even but I did try to do better than I had been. I made more healthier choice than bad on my food. I did walk 20 min at work. (as well as the time standing and walking the field tonight). I am happy with my day. I don't feel like beating myself up like I had been for awhile. I am getting back on track. Now I just need to get off the Monsters. I did go one whole day without any caffeine so I can do this. So say a prayer, stand back and cheer me on.
oh but I need to rewind a bit first. Last night after I wrote my blog I dropped the ball a bit. My daughter works on a chicken place at some nights brings home some of the leftover chicken. The roasted chicken is really good, but I eat that? No!! I had to have a piece of fried chicken at midnight when she woke me up as she came in. I know I know it's not good or a good time of day but I did it.
This morning I had a piece of chicken ... well what my cat didn't talk me out of. I didn't get even a whole piece. I was on the run by this time so I called in my breakfast burrito. I love it. I the the flour tortilla isn't the best choice but for now I am working on. I'm not making excuses, stating facts.
Lunch ... nope I went for walk on lunch. Now by the afternoon it was a different story. We had a team meeting and it was snack day. Since I didn't eat lunch I was starting to get hungry. I was glad to see that someone had a veggie tray. Even though I did dip in Ranch dressing it was a better choice than it has been in the past.
I know at this point you are about ready to pat me on the back with "atta girl" but wait. Someone also had meat cheese tray. Oh the most lovely sourdough bread I had seen in awhile. Yes I made a sandwich and loved it. I did put veggies and the meat. Mustard is a better option than mayo and I do love some spicy brown mustard. Is it good for ya? I don't know I didn't read the label this time.
At the end of the meeting I did make a second one to take home with me. This one was mostly veggies because ... well that part doesn't matter.
After work my daughter and I went to have nails done. I don't do this often but it's a payday treat that she and I have started doing. I love to be pampered as much as the next person. ():)
After the nails it was almost game time. I had the veggie sandwich and I was off to the game. On the way I stopped for my bottle of water, since I was way behind my goal for the day and I really did want water.
Game time!! I love football. I can watch it anytime, anywhere. I don't even have to know about the teams. If I am in the mood to watch football I'll just pick the team with the best color. I know.. stop laughing :D
I spent most of the time walking the field taking photos. I love it too. Almost half time an my friends is off to the concession stand. "do you want anything?" "naa I'm good". No no don't pat me on the back yet. As she walked off I had the phone in my hand and text one worn "NACHOS"!!
Even as I sat in the stands and ate them, which by the way was probably one of the worst nachos I have ever had, I'm thinking ... nope I just ate um.
When I got home from the game I was a lil hungry. Remember the chicken? Nope I didn't eat the fried I had some roasted chicken. Again what my cat didn't talk me out of.
So now here I sit. Thinking back over the day. All in all it could have been much worse. I don't know if I broke even but I did try to do better than I had been. I made more healthier choice than bad on my food. I did walk 20 min at work. (as well as the time standing and walking the field tonight). I am happy with my day. I don't feel like beating myself up like I had been for awhile. I am getting back on track. Now I just need to get off the Monsters. I did go one whole day without any caffeine so I can do this. So say a prayer, stand back and cheer me on.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Thursday 11-1-12 Day 3
well not much to tell today. It was a lazy day I guess. I had a way to early breakfast at home egg an wheat toast. Surprised? lol On the way to work had to pick up a breakfast burrito. MMMM mmm good. Eggs, cheese, jalapenos ... I love it.
Lunch?? ahmm oh yeah small salad. Dinner was the killer. I had lasagna ... and a second serving. Even with the second helping I was still under my calorie count for the day.
Exercise?? nope didn't really happen. I could say it was because my ankle was bothering me, and it was, but I could have forced myself to walk. I don't know if walking around Academy counts. It definitely wasn't my 30 min. I can't say that I counted anything much today. I don't know why. I didn't give up I just didn't get exercise going.
I will do better tomorrow. Say a prayer, stand back an cheer me on.
Lunch?? ahmm oh yeah small salad. Dinner was the killer. I had lasagna ... and a second serving. Even with the second helping I was still under my calorie count for the day.
Exercise?? nope didn't really happen. I could say it was because my ankle was bothering me, and it was, but I could have forced myself to walk. I don't know if walking around Academy counts. It definitely wasn't my 30 min. I can't say that I counted anything much today. I don't know why. I didn't give up I just didn't get exercise going.
I will do better tomorrow. Say a prayer, stand back an cheer me on.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Wednesday 10-31-12 day 2
ok so today was ok .. it's halloween ... I didnt cave to bad. I've had a hunger for some chocolate for a few days now and had a mini kit kat ... and butterfinger .... oh and a hershey ... and .. nope that's all.
The day started off ok. I got up early enough to have breakfast. Yeah my good ole standby of eggs n wheat toast. Early break?? oh yeah bacon biscuit and a piece of sausage. I know I wanted to stay away from carbs but I'm still working on it.
Lunch I did walk for 20 minutes. I was thinking I would walk more but by that time my ankle was hurting and didn't want to push toooo much. I knew I would be on my feet for a while tonight at the church for the halloween carnival ... aahhmm sorry the trick or trunk :D I did stay there for about an hour n half. I'm getting too old to stay up to long ya know :D
Dinner I did come home and have some baked chicken, leftovers from Sunday lunch, then off to the church. Nope I didn't eat any candy there .. or any bad stuff... for that matter I didn't eat anything. I was good :D
So this is probably one of the shortest blogs I've done but here it is. I am trying to get back on track. I want to keep up with at least a short post if nothing else to be a reminder of where I am going and where I've been. I can look back and see the good an bad that has gotten me to where I am. I can chart where I am going. It all starts with a plan.
Say a prayer, stand back an cheer me on.
The day started off ok. I got up early enough to have breakfast. Yeah my good ole standby of eggs n wheat toast. Early break?? oh yeah bacon biscuit and a piece of sausage. I know I wanted to stay away from carbs but I'm still working on it.
Lunch I did walk for 20 minutes. I was thinking I would walk more but by that time my ankle was hurting and didn't want to push toooo much. I knew I would be on my feet for a while tonight at the church for the halloween carnival ... aahhmm sorry the trick or trunk :D I did stay there for about an hour n half. I'm getting too old to stay up to long ya know :D
Dinner I did come home and have some baked chicken, leftovers from Sunday lunch, then off to the church. Nope I didn't eat any candy there .. or any bad stuff... for that matter I didn't eat anything. I was good :D
So this is probably one of the shortest blogs I've done but here it is. I am trying to get back on track. I want to keep up with at least a short post if nothing else to be a reminder of where I am going and where I've been. I can look back and see the good an bad that has gotten me to where I am. I can chart where I am going. It all starts with a plan.
Say a prayer, stand back an cheer me on.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Tue 10-30-12 ... day 1
Yes you read that right. Day 1!!
I made the decision last night to kick my butt and get this going. This is probably short unless I find a rabbit to chase.
I started off ok. I had eggs and whole wheat toast for breakfast. My early morning break I had a few strips of bacon and a slice of sausage. I know not the best choice but if you had seen what the choices were you'd done the same thing.
By lunchtime I really didn't want to eat. I know it's not good to skip meals but I had a heavy heart and did something else. Just after my early morning break I heard the news that I lost someone that was dear to me. I called him "my hero" he called me the Chicken Lady. You would have to of known our relationship to get that one. He was like a Dad to me. He wife is super special too.
So by lunchtime I went outside to try and call the family but wasn't able to contact them. As I was sitting there I got up and just started to walk. My thoughts were on Garvin and how much he meant to me, and how much I've missed him and will miss him.
The afternoon was a bit of a blur to be honest and before I knew it it was time to come home. I was able to reach the family and got to talk the sweetest lady, his wife. They have been such a blessing in my life. She and I laughed and talked about Garvin how things had been the past few weeks. A much needed conversation.
Once I was home I really didn't feel like eating but I knew I needed to. Baked some parmesan chicken and peas. Nope that was two separate things :/. Thought my son would be home but found I was eating alone again. It's ok I use to do it all the time.
It would have been easy to do an emotional eating time tonight but I have been pretty good. I did go back and get an additional piece of chicken but then wrapped them an put them in the fridge. I don't like cold chicken all that well and I'm to lazy tonight to warm it up ... even in the microwave.
So the eating habits weren't the best today. The food choices were ok. I guess the best thing I did was actually get in my 30 min of exercise.
As I was walking I realized I had been doing what I use to do before I got started. I realized I need to get back to where I started this journey. When I started in Jan 2011 I did not go to the gym. I did not take stairs, up or down. I didn't do a lot of things. I did change my eating habits and felt better which lead me to start walking. It was a day much like today.
I have been using the excuse that I can not do the walking like I had been because of my ankle. Today I didn't care. At first it was I needed to walk off what I was feeling. Then it was like Garvin was walking with me. I could hear his laugh when I had "stupid" thoughts .. something like he did when we talked. I remembered how he was happy for me when I talked about how well I had been doing. Had been doing. HAD been doing. I had been walking when I couldn't bring myself to go to the gym. Several times I told myself I could walk thru the pain. When I was done I took something for it. So I kept going. Just me an Garvin :D
So today is day one. DAY ONE!! of getting back to where I started. When I don't make it to the gym in the am I will find a way to walk at least 30 min some time in the day. I will do this. Not for anyone else but me.
Say a prayer, stand back, and cheer me on.
I made the decision last night to kick my butt and get this going. This is probably short unless I find a rabbit to chase.
I started off ok. I had eggs and whole wheat toast for breakfast. My early morning break I had a few strips of bacon and a slice of sausage. I know not the best choice but if you had seen what the choices were you'd done the same thing.
By lunchtime I really didn't want to eat. I know it's not good to skip meals but I had a heavy heart and did something else. Just after my early morning break I heard the news that I lost someone that was dear to me. I called him "my hero" he called me the Chicken Lady. You would have to of known our relationship to get that one. He was like a Dad to me. He wife is super special too.
So by lunchtime I went outside to try and call the family but wasn't able to contact them. As I was sitting there I got up and just started to walk. My thoughts were on Garvin and how much he meant to me, and how much I've missed him and will miss him.
The afternoon was a bit of a blur to be honest and before I knew it it was time to come home. I was able to reach the family and got to talk the sweetest lady, his wife. They have been such a blessing in my life. She and I laughed and talked about Garvin how things had been the past few weeks. A much needed conversation.
Once I was home I really didn't feel like eating but I knew I needed to. Baked some parmesan chicken and peas. Nope that was two separate things :/. Thought my son would be home but found I was eating alone again. It's ok I use to do it all the time.
It would have been easy to do an emotional eating time tonight but I have been pretty good. I did go back and get an additional piece of chicken but then wrapped them an put them in the fridge. I don't like cold chicken all that well and I'm to lazy tonight to warm it up ... even in the microwave.
So the eating habits weren't the best today. The food choices were ok. I guess the best thing I did was actually get in my 30 min of exercise.
As I was walking I realized I had been doing what I use to do before I got started. I realized I need to get back to where I started this journey. When I started in Jan 2011 I did not go to the gym. I did not take stairs, up or down. I didn't do a lot of things. I did change my eating habits and felt better which lead me to start walking. It was a day much like today.
I have been using the excuse that I can not do the walking like I had been because of my ankle. Today I didn't care. At first it was I needed to walk off what I was feeling. Then it was like Garvin was walking with me. I could hear his laugh when I had "stupid" thoughts .. something like he did when we talked. I remembered how he was happy for me when I talked about how well I had been doing. Had been doing. HAD been doing. I had been walking when I couldn't bring myself to go to the gym. Several times I told myself I could walk thru the pain. When I was done I took something for it. So I kept going. Just me an Garvin :D
So today is day one. DAY ONE!! of getting back to where I started. When I don't make it to the gym in the am I will find a way to walk at least 30 min some time in the day. I will do this. Not for anyone else but me.
Say a prayer, stand back, and cheer me on.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Monday 11-29-12
I'm ashamed to say I fell. I thought by making myself do this blog it would help me to keep up and stay on track. It didn't. As most things in my life I do start off really well but seem to lose it before I make it to my goal. I don't know why I do this but I get really upset with myself about it. For anyone that had been following this I am sorry. I wanted this to be an encouragement for me to keep on track as well as help someone else see it can be done, even with all the struggles. I lost my way for a while and am struggling but I am coming back.
I wish I could say that I have stayed within my 5-10 lb range that I said I was ok with but I bumped up over that a bit. I do have it back down now, at least when I was at the gym last time. When was that? Almost a week ago. I know I am shaking my head too.
I believe deep in my that this can be done. I am tired of stopping at the gate of where I want to be. I want this to be something that I actually open the gate and make it home. The last big thing I did like that was when I went AND finished college. I almost did it then. I HAD to take off for a session and was so tempted to not finish, just two course short of graduating. I did it. I found that inner umph and pushed myself to get back in and finish what I started. I WILL do it again. This time it's a matter of life an death.
I have made plans and going to do my best to make it to the gym AT LEAST 2-3 times a week. I am not sure I can do more right now with my schedule like it is. I am sure if I tried hard enough I could find time for all of it, but right now I just want to get back in. I had been hitting the gym 4-5 times a week for months and then I let life step in and I missed once. Then twice. An so on an so on. You know the story, we have all had our variations of it. Some several times, like me now. I am not done.
I have had some set back that keep my sleep patterns off but I am working on them. It is time to think about myself for me. Not for anyone but me. I need to be healthy to be all God created me to be and I have sold myself short on this. I have not given it my all. That IS going to change starting now.
I will do my best to keep a daily record, even when it seems that I haven't done anything to write about. If nothing else you may hear about what I ate for the day. Or maybe how work went ( I can always find something funny to write about on that one). I am rededicating myself to this and I will get it right. Stand back, say a prayer an cheer me on.
I wish I could say that I have stayed within my 5-10 lb range that I said I was ok with but I bumped up over that a bit. I do have it back down now, at least when I was at the gym last time. When was that? Almost a week ago. I know I am shaking my head too.
I believe deep in my that this can be done. I am tired of stopping at the gate of where I want to be. I want this to be something that I actually open the gate and make it home. The last big thing I did like that was when I went AND finished college. I almost did it then. I HAD to take off for a session and was so tempted to not finish, just two course short of graduating. I did it. I found that inner umph and pushed myself to get back in and finish what I started. I WILL do it again. This time it's a matter of life an death.
I have made plans and going to do my best to make it to the gym AT LEAST 2-3 times a week. I am not sure I can do more right now with my schedule like it is. I am sure if I tried hard enough I could find time for all of it, but right now I just want to get back in. I had been hitting the gym 4-5 times a week for months and then I let life step in and I missed once. Then twice. An so on an so on. You know the story, we have all had our variations of it. Some several times, like me now. I am not done.
I have had some set back that keep my sleep patterns off but I am working on them. It is time to think about myself for me. Not for anyone but me. I need to be healthy to be all God created me to be and I have sold myself short on this. I have not given it my all. That IS going to change starting now.
I will do my best to keep a daily record, even when it seems that I haven't done anything to write about. If nothing else you may hear about what I ate for the day. Or maybe how work went ( I can always find something funny to write about on that one). I am rededicating myself to this and I will get it right. Stand back, say a prayer an cheer me on.
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