8-5-12

oh my oh my where to start?  Maybe I should title my blog "where to start"  guess it would get some attention huh? lol  


So today was the first day in toooo long that I spent time in the gym.  I have been doing my time with my trainer an he usually kicks my butt but other than that no real gym time.  I have however come up with a new game plan.  I know it's crazy and some will think I will never do it, and I am not sure if I can pull it off, but I am going for it.


Since I do best, when I have to go to work, to get in a morning workout I need to make this change.  Since I have been going in at 7am instead of 9 I had talked myself outta going in the mornings.  I convinced myself that I couldn't get in a good workout like I wanted so I would sleep in an go in the evenings.  This has NOT been happening.  A few weeks ago I even took my gym bag with me to work and I WAS going to go when I got off work BEFORE I came home (lets face it once I'm home that's it most of the time) and they offered overtime at work.  Money is so limited with me most of the time that I had to take up the offer.  Only problem by the time I got off work: 1. I was REALLY tired from working a 12 hr shift, even if it was sitting the whole time.  2.  The gym I usually go to would be closing in about an hour, and I still had to get there.  


So what is my plan when I am on a limited time space?  Getting up at THREE am.  Yes you read that right.  I am going to do a trial run with Planet Fitness for the next month.  This gym is open 24-7.  Its just up the street from my work. I can do this, right?  Sure I can.  I was getting up an being at the gym at 5 when I worked the 9 oclock shift so I just move my whole day up 2 hrs.   Sounds good in my head, the only thing that will keep me from doing it is if the Dr stops me. 


 How? Why? you ask.  My ankle is not getting better.  I took it easy for a bit.  I even laid off taking the stairs .. some what ... it just doesn't feel right standing waiting on the elevator any more.  I know it's crazy.  I can't believe those words would ever flow from my mouth much write them on paper, but it's true. 


The last session I had with my trainer we worked upper body and it was a good workout but I just feel like I am missing something.  I know I need to read the signals my body is sending me but that is a good an bad thing.  It's been a while since I have felt this uncomfortable in my body.  I feel like I am going backwards.  This is NOT what I want.  So I am going to listen to my body an when it hurts I will back off and change up.  At the same time I can't just sit down and do nothing.  The lil extras have been come my exercise and that HAS to change.  The parking at the back of the lot is to get in some extra steps not meant to "make me feel good about doing something".  I have to get in a real workout and "feel the burn".


So wish me luck.  I am going on my lunch tomorrow an sign up for at least the $10's for one month to do a test run.  I can talk about this all day.  I can think about it.  I can plan it but this is going to take some getting use to.  It's going to take some discipline that I have to do.  I HAVE to do this.  It's time to stop talking about it an get back to doing it.  I am not at the goal yet and I REFUSE to fall back.  I can do this.  Step back and watch me.