Tuesday, January 7, 2014

1-7-14

Wow day two of my new year, new schedule, new gym routine.  Do I feel good?  No.  I hurt.  I'm tired.  And I am still fighting the junk.  

Do I feel good about the change?  I don't like change. 


 Do I feel good that I am charting a new course?  yea :D  I don't feel good about me right now but I feel good about where I am going.  This is time to get it done.


I did sleep in again today.  Again 6am is sleeping in for me.  I want to get back going to the gym before work but I am sliding back into this.  I have done well with my nutrition.  I have gotten in at least 30 min or more of exercise.  I have also gotten in time in prayer and or the Word.  These are the goals for this year and I am staying with it.


I am happy with just keeping this goals for a daily goal for my work days.  I know that I have three days off that I can do more.  I am going to be hitting it harder on Friday and Saturday.  These are going to be my power days of workout.  I will be making multiple trips at different places.  I want to get back in the pool, get in some lap swims and some water aerobics.  


Tonight I really wanted to make excuses not to go to the gym but I talked myself into.  "go"  "do at least 30min"  "it's not that bad".  I was tired.  I am still getting use to these 10 hour days but I love them.  It's an adjustment but I'm gonna make it.  

I get to the gym and find my treadmill.  I take a few minutes to ease into it and picked up the pace.  I kept a pretty steady pace the whole time.  I try not to watch the timer but I couldn't help it.  "only 10 min?"  "keep going, do at least 20 before you stop".
Turn up the music and keep going.  I hit the 30 min mark and tell myself to at least 5 more minutes.  I did and then I realized the distance and decided to keep going.  I did end up doing an hour without stopping at 2-2.5 miles till the last 5 min.  I wanted to stop at the 56min mark but I just lowered the speed to a slow walk.  "cool down and keep going"  "it's only a few more minutes" "you got it now".   Yeah I finished out the hour and my legs were starting to feel it.   At about 10 minutes left I felt what I didn't want to feel ... my knee popped.  I stopped for a few seconds and tried it again. 
Since the knee was starting to pop ... and I was getting hungry and tired from being up so long ... I called it a night.  I skipped weights and came home for dinner.  What did I have?  Tuna.  I had to share with my kitty but that's ok.  I wanted to stop for tacos.  I'm glad they were busy, I didn't need any more carbs.

So far so good.  Tomorrow is another day and I need to go write a letter to myself from the skinny me.  have a super night and keep praying for me

Monday, January 6, 2014

1-6-14

Today wasn't the early start that I had wanted to but I feel good about the day.  I started my new schedule at work.  I work 4 ten hr days but I have Friday, Saturday and Sunday off.   I know I tend to dream big and sometimes over push myself but I am having to listen to my body right now.  I really wanted to get in a workout before work but my body is still getting over the junk from last week and I need to listen to it.  Last night was the closest that I have come to having a decent nights sleep in over a week.
Today started out pretty well for sleeping in till 6.  Yes that is sleeping since I had wanted to hit the gym by 4 and get in a workout.  Eggs with some baby spinach and wheat toast and I ran out the door to make it to work with one min to spare when I sat down ... whew that was close.
As I had stated this is not just about the physical.  I was talking with a friend of my that is doing a fast (can't remember what she called it) where you eat before sun up and after sun day.  For me this wasn't that big a challenge.  It's dark when I come AND go from work these days.   Lunch time I spent in my car reading the study my group is doing at church.  
After work I stopped by Subway for a Ft long turkey sub and had half and wrapped up the other half for tomorrow.  Then it was off to the gym.  
It wasn't the workout that I use to do but I have to ease myself in to some degree.  I know the knee will only last for so long till surgery but right now I am not really wanting that.  I do make my goal for the day.  I got in at least 30 of exercise and 30 mins in the Word.  I feel good.
Keep praying and give a call to work out.  

Sunday, January 5, 2014

1-5-14

The first official weigh in has been done and I am actually happy with it.   Not happy with my weight buuuttt it wasn't all that bad.

As I had said I had set backs the past few months and wasn't happy with where I am.  In some ways I have been feeling really miserable.  

In my blog last week when I talked about my 365 year there was a one of those 365's that I was upset with that I didn't elaborate on.  I had been to the Dr that day and my weight was up to just that number.  I was upset but then God reminded of this number that He gave me just the day before.   If I hadn't been feeling so bad I probably would have laughed.  As it was I did chuckle a lil inside.

Today was a lil nerving but I walked away with a smile all in all.  I am at 351.  You do the math, I believe that would be down 14lbs since Monday.  Definitely not where I want to be.  Still more than I was this time last year.  BBBBUUUTTT 60 lbs less than I was three years ago.   

Set backs will happen but giving up is not an option.  I will get this together no matter how many times I get knocked back.

So I am still looking for anyone to keep me encouraged to keep me going.  If anyone, at least one day a week, would like to join me to make sure I get in at least 30 min of exercise let me know.   If you are praying for me THANK you so much.  Stop by once a week or so and make sure I'm still on track.    

Saturday, January 4, 2014

1-4-14

Ok so I still have not made it to the gym.  In my heart I am frustrated about it.  In my head?  Well it's still pounding.  This headache along with the rest of the junk that I have had the past week is really getting to me. 

 I have been doing my best to keep an eye on what I eat. I had planned on purging my home of all the junk but I didn't make it much more than getting the living room clean ... with the help of Afton.  I had a few moments that I had the carbs ... yeah and sugar.

I had planned on hitting the gym nice an early with the kids but after the night in the bathroom I was not up to it.  Had some eggs for breakfast ... handful of chips a couple of times.  Afton brought in the mini Reeses and I caved.  I had two ... maybe four.   Lunch stopped by Subway to keep on track.  I am getting back to the start with that too.  It worked great for me at first.  Eggs or protein shake for breakfast.  Subway  $5 ft long with lots of veggies.  Half for lunch and half for dinner.   I would have a snack of some healthy in there too.  Keep something going to keep the metabolism going.  Keep moving.  It worked and I am hitting it hard again starting Monday.   

Tomorrow kicks off the weigh in and I am nervous and excited about it all.  If  you are reading this I hope you are praying for me too.  I had asked to have someone that would come along side me and encourage me ... work with me and pray for me.  If you are there I need all the help I can get.  I can't do this on my own.   Thanks Guys

Friday, January 3, 2014

1-3-14

I am soooo hoping that tomorrow is better than the past week has been.  No workout today.  No bad habits.  Just didn't feel great yet.  For that matter I would settle for just feeling good right now.  
As of right now we are set for a 7am workout with the kids.  I am going to make it.  Look out world it's gonna happen

Thursday, January 2, 2014

1-2-14

still not off to the start that I would like to have been.  This crud is kicking my butt.  I really would like to go to the gym but when it's still hard to breath it's probably not the best idea.  I can't just seem me trying to do the treadmill and fall off cuz I can't catch my breath.  UGH!!

On a better side though I did pretty well with eating so far.  Several times yesterday I wanted to just eat.  Partly cuz I feel hungry partly cuz I was ... yes I'm going to say bored.   I just didn't really feel like moving was my problem.  Thing is my stomach is messed anyway.  I eat a lil  and feel stuffed but then a short time later I feel hungry.   Come on!! Really???   

Even though I haven't gotten to the gym yet I'm ok with nutrition.   I am hoping that tomorrow is going to be feeling better

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

1-1-14

The day is not starting off the way I wanted to.  I had hoped that I would have been to the gym by now.  Truth is this cold stuff is still keeping me down.  I feel the want to be my body keeps saying I don't think so.
So far I have managed to wake up .... eat breakfast ... take some medicine and go back to sleep.  Wake up wash dishes and lay here coughing.   I hope it gets better soon.